Diana Cooper Childrens Corner

Oh My GOD! I'm so excited. Thank You for directing this to me. BEST christmas or New Year gift ever! I really need to do my part now.

After went to Golden Space and get another re-assurance about my life purpose, I have been thinking, hm .. what can i do better or what approach I shall use to teach my kids. This website is so wonderful, Thank you Diana cooper and universe! I've read a few pages, I do really like the children stories, it touches my heart - I will buy them via book depository when my 1st batch of books arrived, I hope it will arrive 1st week of jan 2012. I know Andrea will love it too, I thought only Christianity will have material for the kids, and I'm REALLY happy I was introduced to Diana Cooper yesterday while chatting with a friend .. hm .. i feel so warm

Divine Guidance Oracle Cards (28 dec)

Your Divine Guidance Reading Results:
The presence of Archangel Michael is here to assist you with clearing your energy field of old hurts and past-experiences that are weighing you down and slowing your progress in life. He is here to help you cut the cords that keep you energetically attached to people and events that no longer serve you in a positive way. Michael always performs his duties with love and asks you to consciously send love to those people and things in your past so that you may release them into the Light and move forward with your life.

Thank you archangel Michael, I know you are there with me. Thank you for the confirmation. I very much needed this at this moment in time. I seriously want to release the past and start a new year. Just a few days away. Thank You

E.Release

Quiet day in the office. People are resting and some were not resting as they have no choice but to work. What life brings when one does not enjoy every moment of their present moment. Thank you GOD for pointing me the right path but what about human that need more light than I do? How can you reach her like you have given your hand to me? Every human being is a reflection of oneself and is part of oneself, how to treat them when I was full of disappointment and anger? I understand, human has to ask for GOD to help, I'm sure she has done all she needed but why is she still holding the burden? let go .... tell her to let go as this is not her life purpose. She should stop doing what she is doing as she is hurting me badly and I hope she realized and tell me she is going home today or tomorrow.

For me, I know the lesson from this. For whoever told me otherwise are not important as their third eye needs more energy. Release and Let go. I do not want this to continue for another year, 2012 is a great year and i will start new like buds sprouting. I attract capable people to help me, nobleman and lots of time for my children. I'm not afraid of handling the kids alone without a live-in maid. I am blessed with abundance in life. I will remain my current job while my life purpose can continue parallel with it. I love to see my bank account with 5 digits in December every year! I know that 5 Digits manifestation will take part by 2012 every month. For all human beings needs time for themselves, I pray that she will take her life with pride and confident. 

Christmas Present!

Hubby bought a Burberry Bag for me :) Hubby saw it in The Gardens and thought we can get it in pavillion, however the bags were not exactly the same. We went to gucci, celine, marc jacob, LV and parkson. Finally we found one that suit my taste - KLCC burberry. I hold it in my hand and swung on my shoulder, I have this feeling that - "this is mine" :) This is to replace my coming to 3 year old working bag. 

I have bought 9 meiji chocolate for my family - wrap it with toys r us wrapper (that cashier on duty gave me 5 pieces, thanks to her that I don't have to buy wrapper). Bought Hubby massimo dutti. Bought the kids right brain games. Gave a treat to my family for christmas dinner at the Harrods KLCC. Food was so so, maybe because my kids are out of control when my parents are there ;( I do not enjoy my food. Anyway, the environment was great! 

We went for a Christmas string ensemble at KLPAC before the dinner at Harrods. It was great. I hope andrea enjoy it :)

Shangrila Horizon Club

We are at Shangrila Horizon club again :) 3 days 2 nights as usual. Luckily there is room for us, it's kinda last minute, initially wanted to check in on saturday but it was full, so we checked in on Friday evening instead. This place are getting popular I would say, it's not as quiet as last time and the evening cocktail on Friday is really yummy. Saturday's one was so so only according to hubby, I did not eat as I was still very FULL from my snacks. 

The room are still nice, my kids enjoy playing making coffee in the room. They love to play in the bath tub. I would say everything is great except for the painting in the room, somehow it gave me a geli feeling, as I can see the abstract like there is alot of "people". Anyway, it didn't do us any harm, it just makes me restless at night, so much dreams ... apart from that, it's great. The painting must have some energy contained, as the feelings are the same as the last time we are here, next time must call for energy to temporary 'cover' it 1st. I took all the loccitane shower gel back, haha ... So nice smell ... 

We ordered in room dining, the food are very yummy. They have kids meal. andrea & ben share a dish, the pasta is LONG, like a tube. ben loves it, gobble up in a few min. I had fish and chips, it was a cod - oh my GOD, so nice! Hubby had curry mee, oh my GOD, so nice too! We will definitely come back again next year, but i PRAY that they will change their painting in their room. Maybe I shall write a comment. and ask them to use energy to clear their rooms too. 

Winter Solstice

I 'thought' it would be in good hands that I would have 'tong yuen' to eat. I guess I have gave it alot of confidence - in the end I do not get to eat any at all. How do I feel? I feel incomplete, it's of course part of it is the 'tong yuen' the other part is that - winter solstice is a day to be celebrated for chinese and the energy on that day is meant to be celebrated with family. We gave it away by talking to the maid about the porn she watched on my kid's ipad. I admit that I am dependent on things that i want, I have "more important things" to do (like lecturing my maid) - I learnt that I should let go of the lecturing nonsense in future and do what is important for that day! Prioritization. Anyway, I do hope and pray for a better companion and family to support my emotional needs when next time I have a "more important things" to do. Life really can't be solitary, where I need to do everything I want BY MYSELF! Like I told hubby yesterday night, I will go with someone who gave me that emotional support. Happy Winter Solstice.

Fostering Healthy Chakras in Children

I knew about children chakra, however did not look deep into it. Yesterday, i went to a talk by an indian from india, he teaches chakra and essential oils. He mentioned about children chakra, when chakra forms and etc. Today, feeling abit headache and thinking of my life purpose - I goggled children chakras. This came out and it's good information - although not the best.  http://www.altjn.com/ideas/chakras.pdf

My kids have passed 1 year old. some of the recommendation i've done - those were taught in shichida. It's good info for me to handle ben and andrea. Aww.. i feel so dreadful, to do anything for home. rabbit is sick, maid has been giving me funny things (today caught her watching porn on my ipad), going home just feel like sleeping and be left alone. Things has turned out to be so mundane because I let it be! I have a feeling that the maid will leave but i must first to find peace in within and someone to take good care of my kids while im away. 

I need to start right brain practise at home once again and andrea's suzuki violin. God pls give me strength and wisdom. Children is my life purpose, I shall do something with it now!

Thank You 2011

1. It is another year of spiritual understanding. I want to Thank You kok wai for being there for me when I needed spiritual support. Thank you Sherwin Ng for opening the spiritual door as this is the 1st time I see so many people who can 'see' colors and image during their meditation and provided spiritual support and knowledge I needed to continue my spiritual journey. All painful emotions has dissolves for highest good, my physical pain and flaw are showing improvement for the highest good! Thank you healing energies, Gods and Angels. All the spiritual books that I have read - thank you various author (hope you can feel my gratitude energy).

2. Material wise, I had abundance this year. Thank you to my Mgr that supports me all the way, I had the best increment in IBM - close to 30% and a promotion. Thank you hubby for providing luxury for me and the kids, we have got a new house with big lawn and taking business class to KK and Kuching this year. Thank you for the new car, LV bag and holidays - I love all of them. Thank you universe for the opportunity for andrea's recital, musicals, good heath and prosperity. I pray and wish for the best - good health and abundance for everyone on this earth, especially those who is reading my blog, believe in yourself as you are on the right path to obtain absolute happiness. Nothing is impossible as miracle starts within you! Love and Light to all.

3. Thank you dad and mum, for endless support and care throughout the year. I had enough time for my own self enrichment and will definitely hope it will help you guys in near future. Divine timing pls come sooner. Thank you to my sisters who ever believe in my spiritual stuff, lol, thank god they didn't think I'm crazy. I really hope we can have more fun in the future :) Thank you Julie for being here with me, you might not be the best maid but definitely had help me loads in the house chores. Thank you kids for being there for me to kiss, snuggle and hug when I need it :) Last but not least, thank you hubby for everything, without you, I do not think I have any in life. All these wonderful people had indirectly help me to grow spiritually - for the time and patient and dedication they have given to me. Gods and Angels pls help me to send more love to them.

4. Thank you friends, for near or far. You have a place in my heart and I wish for you - success and peace in within.

5. I'm learning to give thanks to the food I eat, but always forgot when I see my food is served. Now I give thanks to the food that I have eaten for 2011. Thank you mother earth. Thank you Thank you Thank you.

Schools

Have been school visiting with hubby again. Initially was stuck, either to send andrea to Chinese or private school. We have brought up andrea the shichida way since she was born (before joining shichida we went to glenn doman workshop - it's the same. LOVE is the most powerful energy in the universe). Then Kingsley hang their banner at kota kemuning round about last year, we went and immediately paid deposit and signed up. After that, we still want to visit more schools. Do not know why, we feel the lack of this school but cannot find any better than it, of course we do not have so much money for traditional international school YET. 

Went to BISKL, the school is very comfy - the internal layout. Hubby has the urge of signing up, I hold back. I still need my luxury - going on holiday and spending like crazy. I took the admission form and told hubby to relax, phew .... Next we went to park city international school. The fees are almost BISKL, however the 'feel' is not that great. I immediately drop it. I told hubby, we must have 1 mil yearly income to send andrea to BISKL. I do not want this to be a burden or any scarifies needed to send her there. I assured him that we can make 1mil our yearly income very soon - let the energy flow ... breathe .... relax 

Like any other decision you make in your life, you need to have the end goal in mind. I want my kids to make use of the universal subconscious mind (the right brain) - schools and all activity shall aligned to that. I know the private school that I send her might not be the best (in academic sense) but i need their teaching approach to promote confidence and encourage creativity, when divine timing permits, we will move to BISKL. I need extra money to try out lots of classes offering outside - dancing, performing arts, music etc Andrea bazi tells me that she is a highly talented kid, so i need to dig and try out everything that I can find - hope that she can fully utilize her in-born potential. For now, we will settle down with Kingsley (unless that school close down before we enter, lol). All is Well

Heguru trial class

I have been wanting to try heguru because I heard that by 4 year old parents are not allowed to be in the class. I know my weakness, I always expect they get all correct because their right brain is healthier than mine. haha ... anyway, I was blessed to have given a chance to try out heguru. I've went to ALL of the right brain centre! How proud :)

I paid RM100 1 week before the class, the admin did a good job in sending 2 reminders (2 different days) prior to my trial class. Upon arrival, as usual mid valley is packed with people and cars, have difficulty finding a car park, did some visualizing and sending out parking space vibration, finally we got one within 10 min (quite long tho). Andrea's eyes were all red when sensei asked her name, I thought to myself. PLEASE don't cry. Luckily she didn't :p The sensei let me sit in the class, how kind

Heguru has 3 sensei in each class, max children in a class is 12 and that day we have 9 in total. 1 sensei sitting infront to do all the talking and flashing, 1 sensei preparing materials, songs and switching on and off the lights, 1 sensei taking care of the children (i.e ask them to keep quiet and sit properly). I would say the class is VERY EFFICIENT - 1 full solid hour of right brain training. Of course the materials are more extensive than shichida. What I love best - Da Da right brain english, blue dots card, history and mandala. Their Mandala is more than 4 colors and you have to DRAW out the mandala beside coloring it. How difficult! AMAZING~!

Andrea feedback was, she wants to continue to go heguru, but after arrived home - after dinner. I asked her again. She told me she doesn't want to go heguru, I asked her why, she said she doesn't like the sensei use the stick to hit on the white board. I guess she is frighten of the sound. My poor little girl ... Confirm she cannot go to Chinese school, how sharp my intuition for not sending her to chinese school! Sensei just want to get children attention by hitting the white board loudly and sensei also sounded harsh (i guess this is how the real japanese does). anyway, since andrea is already 4, I respect her decision as i initially plan to send her to both. 

Shichida, heguru, tweedle wink can actually compliment each other in many ways. As I am in spiritual path, energy is the core and backbone of all things in this universe. Only shichida practicing this core - doing energy ball, washing away the negative energy and eating the energy ball. This is Very important yet it was neglected. You know what, I feel so blessed. Not only religion I got the best, right brain centre for my kids I've found the best too. Best here refer to my own benefits - as what really needed by my/ family highest good. Thank You!

Sound Healing

Did Sound healing at HoK. The energy was great but the experience freak me out. I thought SVD will just sing song and we listen but the sound she made was the 1st time experience for me and the lady sitting beside me singing with angelic tone (this didn't freak me out), however, i saw her hands shaking and start hitting her own tight! My third eye was throbbing, hence i know the energy is strong. I was not very fearful because the goddess and arch angels SVD called upon i knew them. When I felt my neighbour lady doing some funny stuff, I start chanting nam myo ho ren ge kyo, praying for a golden protective layer so her energy will not stick to me. I still feel frighten when I think of it. "shoo! Go away" All is well.

SVD helped us to dissloves all karmic ties and vows. It's really good. we said "all karmic ties and vows, I mark them complete and done. I release them now" She also help us to call back the soul fragments and remove any soul fragments that attached to us - those that do not serve our highest good, all return to the light with the help from arch angel azreal. All these were introduced when i had the SRT session with KW, I'm really glad that SVD did this for us as the results is really prominent, you immediately felt energize! 

SVD gave us Atlantis oracle cards to pick:

1st card i picked - Education (asking me to teach others now)

2nd card i picked - receive new information (maybe angel knows i'm scared, so ask me to receive new info with open heart)

I do not believe in any cards last time, however, it seems so accurate at that point of time. It always affirm of what you have been believing or how you are feeling at that point of time when you pick the card. We tell each other about things we want to achieve in 2012 and gave each other a hug - about 9 of us. It felt so good. so much love. It feels like, whatever I told other people (vice versa) it will be handled by the higher wisdom, we affirm each other it will happen and wish all the best for them and gave each other a hug. I felt complete. Thanks!

ISIS Lotus Healing Level 1

It was great experience and the energy is indeed powerful although was told this is more feminine. I'm now happier to know that I'm more attune to feminine energy and is more confident in my healing and healing for others. I need to learn how to speak - calling upon angels and goddess. I need to bring the group together with me when I'm leading a healing circle. I've picked a few oracle cards during the healing course and they are affirming what I've been believing, hence I've bought 4 different deck and a book yesterday from book depository. All is well. 

Had healing crisis after 3 days, diarrhea 3 times, not serious. Physically purging is good i feel, at least I know the energy is cleansing inside me :) Met a few friends, they are all from Mastery academy but different batch. When you are in the upper average circle, you met with upper average people and it does feel great. Like you are going home to each other to search for inner peace and how to enhance your life spiritually using energy and of course JY chinese metaphysical method. They 'talking' term are always going back to the basics, bazi and feng shui. I love it! 

SN this time has help me to gain a deeper understanding of religion and energy. Goddess gave birth really means that yin(female) and yang(male) balance - hence miracle happens (child). If you want to have MORE miracle happen within your family like generating material needs - create balance energy, faith and trust. This is what all religion trying to tell us, LOVE (create balance energy, faith and trust) is the key to all problem as it overrides fear, hatred, anger etc. SN also share the Egypt feng shui, interestingly, people at that time already knows feng shui and he explains energy inside the pyramid. He told us about his experience and miracles inside the pyramid. It is rare to find someone with chinese metaphysics knowledge and energy knowledge - SN explains all this in a boarder perspective and I'm really blessed to have met him. This is just what I need to continue my spiritual path. Thank You

Three Magic Word

Have been reading the Thee Magic Word by Uell S. Andersen. Realized that there are a few things I shall not published as it will affect my universal subconscious mind. Well, I have already written and I do not want to waste my time looking for it & remove it, let it be. I also do not feel so much urge to write as I guess another level up for my spiritual understanding and I've got enough of the saying and persuading. All is well, every human has their divine timing. 

It's funny to feel lost of urge - to get a new job and to preach. I know it's changing inside me and I know it's for the good. Less stress and Less worry. I need to manifest a few things for 2012 and I pray for the golden light to anchor on earth for the best of the humanity. Love and Bless your water.

Lazy

Aww.. I'm so lazy, i have so many backdated post to write. I guess I will just summarize it up here.

1. MAD review was great, i learnt how to dig and read in between the lines. Writing SOC (summary of concern) is killing but i manage to write decently (i hope). I'm grateful Gods and angels are with me, things went really smoothly and I didn't feel a tad bit worry nor nervous, help comes naturally when I need it. I have ample of time where initially I thought I would not have enough, i was stuck initially and energy just flow after that. Thank You!

2. Went to KK for youngest sister convocation. It was very rush, but did enjoy the stay and have took many beautiful pictures with my sister. Had a decent family portrait. Stay at Hyatt regency club again, still good and definitely will come again for next year visit. Maybe will try shangrila next. Bought a convo gift for sis, cannot resist the high class look of the mikimoto pen when hubby went and replace battery for his mikimoto clock! 

3. Andrea's concert was good, at least the school has chosen a better venue this time - MAS academy at kelana jaya. I would think, andrea's class costume is the best, she look so elegant in it :) We arrived KL from KK on the same day, it was a MAD rush but glad that we made it on time for the concert. benjamin was there with us, he could sit down most of the time - however when andrea is on the stage dancing, he wants to go wash room :( I missed the last part of andrea's dance, luckily hubby took video of it. 

4. I've rejected 2 interview. Huawei - senior BC position. It was pass down from my previous job interview with them on procurement position. They wanted to take me in but i was not ready to based in shenzhen so they pass my CV around. This senior BC position is based in KL. Digi - Transformation Management. They got my CV from jobstreet again i guess. Was initially interested, however after the MAD review, all these interviews are not appealing to me anymore. I know my root cause is not because of my pay, it's the job satisfaction I'm looking for and MAD review has fulfill my satisfaction as a BC. Thank You!

5. Back to work, it was crazy because I had so much to do - testing, followup on tools, giving education etc. I cannot wait for my life purpose to reveal to me. I love my life!

5th Violin Recital

Today mummy was not feeling well. Andrea went to the recital with daddy. Andrea played etude. Quite good :) Good job girl!

4 years 5 months old

In Laws in town

I have been very positive since the day we depart for HK. I told myself that everything will be fine when in laws are here and i was pretty positive about it. Things turn up side down and I was really upset as I went out of control .... anyway, things back to normal after that and had few learning. 

The kids were down with fever and i didn't had time to dine with the in laws, only one of the night out of 5 nights. I freaked out when both kids were ill and they were was fussing terribly. On the other hand, due bad temper, I had huge fight with hubby and things were fine after that but that fight has frighten the in laws i guess. I didn't mean to explode but things just went out of control without my consciousness. 

On the final night, SIL bought me a book then I gave her another book as an exchange. We talked. I then notice all these happening without my willingness because my SIL has prayed for something to happen, something fruitful for her trip to KL. She didn't know, in order for something to happen, something has to happen too - like the ecosystem we learnt in school. Things has turn out so badly but was glad everything back to normal after they left. 

Lesson learnt. Always always pray for yourself, for the good of your highest purpose. Do not pray for people to go to church or change or what not. In order for something to happen (not yourself), it will disrupt other people (in this case, my family was compromised) energy field to fulfill your prayer. Well, in order to pray and get what you want, you need to have high vibration, and you know my SIL is one of the rare to have high vibration (broadband connection with Jesus), hence she gets what she prayed. I just hope, one day she will gain the knowledge of LAW of the universe. 

HK Company Trip

Daddy brought all of us to a company annual trip, this time we went to HK. I need to do alot of mental preparation as I know my weakness, my tolerance to less than perfect item is superbly LOW. Anyway, I'm back in one piece and I've very happy to announce that I went through the learning and I seriously feel happy that I did go for this trip and there is no hard feelings with anyone. The trip went really smooth, got some barrier but it didn't bother me much. Thank God!

Day 1 - arrived at HK, was stopped by HK health check people as my temperature was at 37.9 Celsius. They said I had fever and ask me a series of questions for 10 min. I have just ask for higher power protection before I step out from the air craft, hence the immense heat emitted! I dare not ask for protection when I go back to KL. I was fine throughout the 5 days, I was not SICK! for goodness sick! The hotel is seriously bad but I kept my mouth shut and keep an open heart. Later I found out, some of the rooms smells bad, my room does not smell just some awful stain. Which I feel bad smells are more killing. Thank God! I'm so lucky!

Day 2 - Disneyland! The kids had fun there. Andrea bought Belle dress and both of them enjoy the parade very much. We could not stay until the fire works starts, we went back to the hotel at 5 plus. Ben slept for 3 hours and andrea slept 1 hour after lunch. The unpleasant experience is that, people likes to cut queue. Had dinner at one of the shopping complex. The day ended nicely.

Day 3 - HK tour. Best part is I get to see kuan yin :) Thank you! I also had my favorite Starbucks ICE CHOC! It's all unexpected. I love it! Then we leave for shen zhen at 4.30pm. The long walking at the immigration was crazy, it was drizzling, I was exhausted but I know hubby is 10 times more exhausted than me. He has to carry all the bags and also andrea. Andrea refuse to walk, so poor daddy :( I was fortunate enough that all three bags I was carrying, people offered to carry it for me - so I only carry benjamin. The hotel was bad too but the dinner was OK. Ben is very well behaved - he eats on his own and alot too :)

Day 4 - shen zhen tour. so tired - day ended at 10pm :( The best part is we have excellent Lunch and Dinner (VIP room). I thought my luck was so so, but in fact our luck was so good. two times i complain to hubby but when show starts, I cannot thank god enough for the place we have been put at. The chairs are so small and the aisle are so narrow! we are so fortunate that the 4 seats in front of us no body sit, the whole auditorium is so FULL, we put our bags on the empty seat and the view to the stage is excellent (without head blocking).

Day 5 - McD pork burger for breakfast! Headed back to HK airport. Shop at Muji to go! had expensive lunch - is late for checking in - final call. RUN to the air craft and cannot wait to sleep on my bed :) How thoughts affect your luck? It does wonders and miracle happens every minute! Thank you Kuan Yin and my guides, I love all of you. Thank you for enlighten me throughout my journey on earth. I will do the same for those in need.

Lexus ct200h

I've got my new car, however my old city haven't sold yet. In laws are coming hence will only sell it after their stay, 3 families will be at my house next week! I hope my maid is able to cope and will not take my son for granted when I'm away for work. 

How do I feel - I did not feel extremely excited where I know I should be. I felt nervous driving a new car as the estimation needs adjustment. I was sitting in the car, moving my seat and mirror many times. The sales man said, don't worry, if you don't step on the paddle the car would not move. Anything go wrong, step on the brake. hahaa ... what an advise. I know I was too nervous and the sales man gets irritated. haha ... anyway, I drove home safely that day. 

I picked andrea up, I was still feeling nervous and the teachers all looking at me. I honestly do not know how to hide my true feelings and when I think back, I feel so silly for over-reacting. The gear box is not the same like my old city. The "park" is a button not on the gear box. There is no brake on ur left, it's under your seat (beside the brake paddle). You do not use key to start the car, lock the car nor open the car. You have to press the button like turning on the switch on the wall every time you start and stop the engine. It's too much for me to cope in a short time, but the best thing is the signal and wiper same like my city. Phew ... it's a taxing day for my conscious mind! 

I love my new car. The best part is, andrea told me :"mummy, your golden car is so nice". I love the word golden instead of yellow. Golden rays represent protective shield. I love the word golden, thank you andrea :) It never cross my mind!

Hua Wei Interview

Whee .. I have another interview yesterday. Hubby was kind enough to give me a ride. I was really satisfied with my performance yesterday although I know I won't be getting the job. This is with Hua Wei, The moment i sat down the interviewer said "this is based in shenzhen, you know right?" I was stunt, thinking to myself, shit! Not AGAIN (failing of so many interviews makes you negative sometimes) I reply "no i didn't know, job description didn't say". She said, so if this is in shenzhen will you consider, I said no cos I'm married with kids. She is kind enough not to hurt my feelings and ask me to tell her about my profile roughly to see if I can fit in their current recruiting profile. 

I start telling her stories about myself and half way an 50+ old man came in and sat down join the interview. I told them although I'm not in procurement but I know about their process. They ask me to tell them about procurement process. After I finish they look at me, looked very impressed and the 50+ old man told me I missed one part (he told me the answer). I felt so proud of myself, the entire process I only left out one part! lol, they start looking for alternative for me, asking me if based in KL and have to travel to shenzhen will I consider, I said if once a quarter I can - this does not sound convincing to them. Anyway, the lady asked me to sit in the room for 1 min while she go outside to do something. When she is back, she told me she cannot contact her director and will let me know later, however she has also pass my profile to the BC team in Hua Wei. This indirectly told me that they really want me and just now the 1 min is she tried to call her director in shenzhen. Wow ... My energy is really shifting and my soul group will be changing ... yeay ... Anyway, I love what I'm doing now cos I'm going for MAD review :) 

I'm so proud of myself and I'm so happy that I've impress the interviewer and they wanted to hire me immediately (if i agree to based in shenzhen, but no thanks for now). Thank you kuan yin pu sa, ascended masters and angels/ guide. Thank you for watching over me, I do not have this feeling for such a long long time :) Love and Light

confuse

Sometimes I feel my maid is very capable, sometimes she really drives me up the wall. I said so many nasty things to her and I hate myself being like that. I tried to be nice to her, so many times and so many ways. Always after I treated her good, GOD always send me her fault, makes me feel so foolish for treating her good just now or just yesterday. I don't know what life lesson she has to learn but I know I need to learn mine too. 

Mine is not to say nasty things to her but how much I can control, the more I wanted to control, the more I've gone out of control. This morning I added MORE harsh words just because my mum was at my house. I even feel like beating her up and I can feel my anger were up to my crown and my boy run to the island top and hide behind the island table. How to control my anger when Benjamin keep crying and shouting in the morning for almost 2 weeks and he has just vomited consecutive (fri-sun) 3 days last week. I am worried about my boy because no one can help me, I have to depend on my maid so heavily and now it seems like I'm an irresponsible mum. I told my husband, he has no solution. I told my mum, she said she will monitor. I want to quit working but my husband still yet to show me his capability. What can i do? I have no choice ... shall I just quit without thinking too much? Right now at this moment, my kids are important to me, so is money. Am I ready to let go of my high salary and become a SAHM? What my life will become?

The end of the Mayan Calendar

Today is the last day for Mayan Calendar, here is an article from Carl Johan Calleman. Pick yourself up really quickly if you are not feeling up beat. Emotional stir up may occurred within this week as the energy is shifting fast (you may unable to adapt - like myself), however the bottom line is we will be on our own. whatever we focus on (negative or positive) it will be manifest! Dream for the Best, Live for the Best. Know the best for yourself. Love yourself and Love others around you.

If you want to understand about the Mayan Calendar, here is a good diagram.

Miracles Happen - It Happens to EVERYONE!

Love and Light

I'm being defeated

Officially being rejected today. Thank You that I finally have an answer today after stepping on the grass for 3 days. I know I'm more grounded now - everything now have broken into pieces and I have to rebuild the hope and goals once again. Nepal or Tibet sounds great to me now. God - show me the light, I will be successful. 

MAD Review

When i saw the title MAD BC review, I smile to myself - I was MAD few days back and now is invited to a MAD review. lol ... It's actually Management Approval of Disbursements. I 'knew' my energy was block because of chasing for the Indian Hiring Manager for almost 2 months, honestly, until today he has not get back to me if I'm selected or rejected. To me, I just want an answer and what is so hard to tell me I'm being rejected (the worst I would expect) - all he told me is, pls give me a couple of days I'm finalizing. I don't know what's up at his end, but I do not want  my energy blockage to build up to a giant black balls, I need to release and relax - breathe and let go in a breath of FIRE ......  felt *calm* & *peaceful* right? That's my secret! haha ....

God send me light after I've decided to relax. I was invited to a peer review on MAD. I'm seriously very excited because I was hoping for a review for so long, you really learn alot during a review - steep learning curve - but this is what I like :) I may need to stay up till 6-7pm but that is only for 2 weeks, and I get to meet with other reviewers - sometimes I feel happier to talk to people just like myself - Business Controls. Like going back to the same herd [police gang for IBM]. haha ... I'm proud as one and I definitely enjoy doing what I'm doing, if not I won't be here doing the same functions for 6 years. I cannot wait for the day to come. I will enjoy and learn about MAD. lol. Have a great day!

Attacked

Wow, i was spiritually attacked. haha, will I'm not too concern about the attack but I cannot believe that god has showed me divine timing is very important. I thought people who has always go to temple - listen to 'da bei zou' would buy in to what I said. Today she told me energy healing is a scam, they rare spirits to do all the work. I was really shock, i left with nothing to say. This colleague of mine also tell me ALOT of ghost story when I was pregnant and to me she purposely scare me, but maybe she has no intention. If you ask me, I'm very sure she has some entity attach to her - anger and jealousy is very strong. Her eyes will turn 3 white eyes every time she talks about her maid (angry) or ghost. I'm really respect her that she came this far, in some days she is OK, some days she will act super uncomfortable - like today. lol .... God has bless her all her life, I know but she needs to get rid of the entity inside her. I do hate her alot during my pregnancy time, but somehow i just forgive - maybe she is part of my soul group. whatever it is, I cannot lure people to the correct path when they are not willing to follow. They may attack me or 'pijak' me - do whatever you wish. The negativity will go back to you double or more - watch your act!

Blue energy Healing

ISIS Lotus Healing. I've done this with SN today. I've met with 2 healers previously and SN is really gifted as he can answer all my weird questions and surprisingly I can feel it is the answer that I'm waiting for. Really Amazing! I was 1st very nervous when enter the office, as there are Egyptian drawings/ sculpture. I'm always afraid to go to temples because I know spirits exist and I do hear them (2 times to be precise) when i was young - during hungry ghost month festival when helping my mum to burn papers and in the hospital toilet when I was chanting. I know entering this office do not have wondering souls or spirits, but this place is FULL of Blue energy - I can feel it when i enter. I calm down after a few minutes after the healing starts. 

1. I cried for no reason during the healing session

2. I felt as if something pull out from my head

3. I feel lighter! 

SN gave me all the time i need to ask him question, this is really important for me. I'm so thankful that kuan yin has finally let me meet SN. I have been looking for my own ascended master, surprisingly SN told me that it is kuan yin cos it is very strong with me. I have connection with kuan yin. I then told him, I move on to SGM because praying to GOD for things we human wanted is WRONG, i just know it - don't ask me why i know it .. i don't know. He told me that "YOU are RIGHT". SN said - continue chanting daimoku and image or call upon kuan yin, she will help. All these while, all my wish comes true, IT IS KUAN YIN. I'm so grateful ... Now I can say thank you to you - past few months i just say ascended master, i know someone is there but i don't know who. Thanks :)

I chanted daimoku for SN, he says he sees golden yellow light which is protective power and saw some lotus. I'm thinking - lotus for kuan yin - lotus for daimoku - lotus for blue energy, maybe this is where I shall be going. I told him my experience in hospital when i chant (forgot what) I hear spirit sound - he told me 'da bei zou' emit white light, so it will attract spirit/ lost souls. It is not for normal human like us. yikes! I told him yeah, since then i only chant infront of kuan yin at home. After being introduced to SGM, i only chant daimoku. I feel safer. 

He too said my throat and root chakra is block. I got bitten by snake in past life (which is the part where i had severe shoulder pain last time) - amazing! I need to step on grass for the things i want to manifest. He said you can manifest things really quickly, i said YES! how did you know but now it seems not working! he said step more on grass, get grounded, it will come to you in 2-3 months time. He said i need a rest like a month to travel places like nepal or tibet cos he can see my energy change is delaying (i know the reason is because i hold on to the ppl mgr post too tightly and caused the energy to block! how sad). I ask him if my career not a successful one? He told me he see me doing healing for children. I told him i don't know if i will do that as I never thought of teaching/ consult people for what i've learn like bazi, feng shui, healing etc. I told him, we shall see ... Actually I have doubt, as of now, career is still very important to me - I have a vision - my husband is very rich, I don't have to work in MNC, healing children can be my career but I do not charge.

Honestly I do love to teach young children, as they are not as contaminated as adults. I feel heartache to see parents do not raise their children well, even people close to me. I don't know what my life will lead but I make sure it will be a successful one. Before my husband turn multi-billionaire I need to make sure for NOW I earn and save lots before I do charity next time for my past time. May all the children shines brightly for the greatest human revolution!

LEGO Large Pink Box

I bought the andrea first lego set - Large Pink Box. Surprisingly she manage to do a house and the car all by herself! I really just tell her how to do the first picture (counting the space, bricks, etc) then will check each picture she has done. It is really good, i feel that it trained andrea's patient - you need to dig into the box and find the pieces you want as per instruction book. Andrea spent whole day on the first day! Well worth my money :)

I'm really amaze that she could finish the the whole house all my herself! I'm so proud of her!

Soul Memories

Had talk to KW about my career issue and he suggested soul memories & SRT. Hence i agree on soul memories because I've not tried before :) 

1. you need to determine what 'subject matter' as they only work on only 1 issue

2. the issue you have - KW will look for the past life where you did not learn your lesson

3. it will tell you roughly what's happening and give you a sets of positive attitude you should act back then and negative attitude that you have acted. 

4. The positive attitude you did not maintain back then you have to do it now in order to learn this lesson in this life, if not - next life you will eat the same shit again. 

5. Does it help me? Honestly the soul memory part not much, but i can feel the spiritual parasite after being cleared I do feel more energized!

Facts about my 5000 bc past life where I did not learn about my career lesson:

1. I was 15-20 years old in northern india

2. I work in a jail as a record keeper

3. My colleague and me had issue and I was too verbal and I got disappointed in my career

4. I explode in a negative way and did not learn my lesson

5. The positive attitude that I should have back then and now - are all in within me, I'm surprise :) Maybe I have already learn my lesson and now is the colleague trying to give me hardship maybe. Hahha.. whatever it is, I don't really give energy to it anymore. As I've realized I'm giving myself too much blockage!

I would treat it as a laugh more than anything serious. To me it didn't help me much in my current lifetime. At least I know why i don't fancy indian for no reason. haha ... I'm not being racist, I just do not know why .. at least I know why now. KW said my throat and root chakra is blocked, ask me to step on grass more.

Gratitute

Thank you for the light

It's just enough for my seeds to grow

seeds of satisfaction is what I need

an explosion of satisfaction is on it's way

I don't know when it will come

I trust it's manifesting

It's not about how long you've waited

but how relax are you while waiting

The secret in live - LOVE

anything which is not Peace & Love

will slow down manifestation time

Trust, have faith, be confident is what we need

Reading time

The recent new activity me with the kids are reading phonics collection from lady bird. 

Since I've moved to new house, it was difficult for me to handle 2 kids alone. Last time at condo, i would just call out my maid, in the new house, i can hardly see my maid because she is always downstairs at the kitchen. I need to yell my lungs out for her to hear me from upstairs.

1. ben would come up to me with his violin when I'm teaching andrea violin/ memorizing pieces

2. ben would open ALL of his magic colour cover and draw the shichida sheet all over - when I'm not looking

3. ben would bring his own book when I'm reading to andrea

4. andrea would do funny stuff to distract benjamin when I'm teaching ben

5. andrea would keep coming to ask me question when I'm teaching ben

6. andrea would want to do things I ask ben to do (all ben 2 yr old kumon books have been completed by andrea, what a waste!)

I have stop doing all these for a few days as I need to find peace in within. However, 2 days ago, ben took andrea's old phonics books. We started reading it, the best part is andrea could read it too. One stone kill 2 birds. Andrea read, benjamin listen, mummy relax. haha .... I love reading it nightly for 2 days now. I ask ben to follow me when I read and andrea would read the whole book by herself with minimal correction from me. So basically we read 2 times each book. No fighting, no attention seeking, BLISS. 

Ben starting to speak alot of words, it's really funny to hear him say: "not now, brown cow" and "zoot scoot boogie woogie" - YES 4 words in one sentence. hahahaa ... So proud of my boy

Violin class - 1 year

it's exactly 1 year! How time flies. Teacher said he is preparing for andrea's grade 1 and suggest that we go straight to grade 5 exam, i wonder if that is possible. hahaa... i said whatever ... as long as you enjoy teaching her. haha ..

1. just memorize etude whole song and now working on minuet 1 second line. 

2. encore book 2. Andrea enjoy encore book very very much. 

3. Andrea practice her violin on her own without me nagging her - she loves her new encore book

4. did all the scales few months back, now drilling on arpeggios (2 octaves)

5. can do slur really well - pick it up from encore book (useful for suzuki as well)

6. can do harmonics really well (on tune) - pick it up from encore book 

7. practice on her 4th finger on encore book and i guess it helps more than the suzuki book.

8. bowing needs to improve and kena drill on it in today's lesson. 

I'm really grateful to be able to have this violin class with andrea during my lunch time. I feel so much better every time after the lesson, music does wonders! Teacher might not be as organized as me but the most important thing to me is I can see that he does enjoy teaching little children. I laugh and smile so much seeing him teaching andrea. it's not boring! I always feel sleepy and no energy everytime i arrive, but will get energy recharge at teacher's house. How Amazing!

maid issue dissolves for the best

I don't know what happen but yesterday after I scolded my maid, she came and ask if she can talk to me and told me that she wants to work and have put alot of effort and basically tell me things that i want to hear. What's wrong? How she knows what I wanted to hear. 

1. I gave her 5 min energy healing on her burnt wound

2. bring her to pharmacy to buy medicine after the wound is dry

3. ask her if she wants to go KK or stay home (cos some people prefer to stay home) 

I don't know what I did that makes her feel good, but I'm really surprise she came and tell me what I wanted to hear. You know what, I realized I should stop saying harsh things to her like asking her to go home if she cannot cope. All is well, when is my people manager role going to manifest. Left only this and I should move on to another level ... QUICK manifest!

I have become less reactive. More peace in within. Emotion never rule my action (cut down by more than 50%) - I plug in my ear phone when I know explosion is coming, haha. Very grateful for the changes I see externally (things I attracted). This is a real secret that I hope everyone on earth could experience, however, i'm not 100% sure if they use the mp3, will they get as much results. Time will come, i believe. I'm just starting hence i'm not sure if it will stay with me forever :) I believe it will and I will become ancestor master. lol

6th anniversary

We had dinner at Tanzini @ G Tower. Hubby just say we going out for dinner, I on the other hand not very adventurous, hence would agree to settle down at shangrila - but the other side of me wanting to try other things but afraid that it would be a disappointing one. Nowadays, things I want come naturally to me without much effort, I hope the big ones will come really soon. So the small stuff like parking, dinner selection, etc has made me very happy ALWAYS! 

We were at maju expressway, it was all clear until we reach duo residency. Hubby got to pump petrol at caltex, and he suggest to go G tower (it's right infront of us at caltex) since the traffic is slow infront. I was ok at that time without much protest. we went to VIEW but they do not have dinner only finger food. Hence we went to Tanzini. It was OK ... not disappointing :) It's a good night.

grandparents

Today, my friend from the UK whatsapp me that the gift i bought for my grandma has arrived. During the journey to office, I have flashes of memories of my maternal grandparents and started to think why my paternal grandparents does not gave me the same warmth and trust. I look into my own bazi, maternal grandpa was gui water, which I'm sitting on. maternal grandma which is not in my chart - why I feel more comfortable with them. 

My maternal grandpa has passed away when I was studying my 1st year in the UK. I was sad that I could not come back for his funeral. The memories I have - whenever he came to KL, we would go shopping and I could choose my favorite little twin star and hello kitty things from sogo. He do not interfere what I choose, he just look at the things I want to buy and ask me, you like this .. then go and pay for it. When he was in sick bed, I remember him holding my hand tightly before going into operation theater. I was still young that time, i dind't know how to heal him and didn't know what to do to make him feel better, i just sit by him. If i have learn energy healing back then, i will use it to relieve some of his worries and fear. My maternal grandma is a very neutral person, she told me her experiences in life. She gave andrea a jade bangle. She has anger but when she talks she is real, she does not hide her real emotion., she is sincere. They do not judge me or tell me what to do and TRUST all is well by telling me what is right and wrong only once. I don't know in real life if they are like that, but GOD has let me see this Good side of theirs and I want to adopt this to my children. I know my grandma loves chinese tea - I've ordered organic dragon well from jing tea cost me GBP10 for 50g. I hope she likes it. 

My paternal grandparents and the whole family are not open and always makes me feel whatever they say, it's for their own benefit. I'm born in their blood too, Im aware whatever negative things I say, it is a part of me too. I have tried very hard to eliminate these negative emotions so I can walk towards the light without returning to the earth. I pray everyone who runs part of my blood would attain Buddhahood/ Christ mind before this lifetime ends. I do not hold grudge as this is not my life purpose. I pray they can let go of the grudge and release fear, jealousy and worries. amen

what is my role

I'm a perfectionist, I tried very hard not to be one. 

My friends are confident to leave their kids with nanny,

My friends are not worried about the food their kid is eating,

My neighbor told me - they only have responsibility on their own children not ours - how true

Thank you GOD for sending these people to remind me that whatever happens, life goes on

I was having hard time this week, changing of new environment and facing with uncertainty in my career. I know myself, I could consider as a career minded person. I strive to get above average contributor rating every year, I look for improvement every year - not for the $$ but for my career satisfaction. The only 1 thing that I really want to is to become a people manager because that is a huge area that I can improve myself. I need self improvement after 4 years of output. I don't know what my life purpose is because that may be conflicting with what I want in this lifetime. I hope kok wai can help me with this. 

I don't mind letting go the career I have if managing people is not the area I need to improve this lifetime. My maid doesn't show capability in taking good care of my son, I have worries all the time and loathe myself that I do not have a perfect solution to what I want to do and how I want my kids to live - because I do not have any choice. My maid cook shit for lunch, I did not make noise because my son eats it. Do i have a choice and perfect solution for my perfectionist self? I know .... life goes on .... I hate parents who do not take good care of their kids and never give the kids opportunity to grow (enrichment classes) ... how unfortunate I'm one of them now.

adjustment

I'm still not good at adapting to changes, any changes. I have tried telling myself I will fit in and live as if I'm still at condo. The problem is that my house is terribly BIG, my kids & maid could not hear me when they are in their room - best part is no one disturb me when I'm showering or hear my kids shout and fight while in the toilet. I have to walk up and down many times a day which put strain on my muscle, I have been living in a double storey house since young and during uni days, I guess my muscle just need some adjustment - I can do it. My wet kitchen will be wet when raining, I do not know when hubby will put up the 'shield' - I feel uneasy because I cannot cook, actually the maid cannot cook and made me feel uneasy - like the house is still missing the kitchen part. I have to manually open/ close the gate because we do not have budget for the autogate now :( Overall I feel exhausted. Thank God benjamin sleep thru the night and I get enough sleep and feel more refresh than yesterday morning.

What happen to my application? Why I have to wait this long? Can you just confirm me .....  I'm so tired of waiting. Don't let me waste money to see my future, I know you can work with me to change it - GIVE IT TO ME! Let the barrier dissolves ..... Om .....

1st night

I've successfully moved in to my new house, I'm awfully tired and grumpy. However, the good news is, everything has settled in, left only 10% still haven't sorted out, i was feeling quite proud of myself, my organization and time management skills :) My next house moving will only bring suitcase, I cannot have another round of packing & unpacking, it's killing me. Hence I need to attract MORE money before I can move into a property near ISETAN KLCC. It is still my favourite place. 

Have been using the secret universal mind. Things has been great, I had trouble keeping myself calm and confident when things doesn't go my way. I had too much fear and I do not know how I can let go of it 100%, every time when face with difficulty, I will loose my inner peace. Right now, after a week (universal mind) and also a month (love), I feel I had inner peace now - will loose control maybe 20% out of 100%. I'm really grateful. I still remember asking myself, when can I be a successful mother and wife (great help to husband). I know my flaw, I was too impatient, loud, too much anger and worries. I know with all these traits i am not going to raise up the children that i want because children learn from their parents before the age of 5. I now can see myself, going thru self transformation with least effort and I can feel I'm changing from the inside out. It's a great experience, Thank You highself & angels. 

I hope my kids will enjoy the new place as this decision to move is for them. I still miss my small condo where i can vacuum the whole house in just 10 min! overall my new house looks great - I love it too :)

ABC song

Benjamin had started singing ABC song last week. He can get about 50% of the alphabets right, the others were just mumbling. He will looking into my eye when sing together with me, bounce his body and nod his head while singing! I have not experience this with andrea last time, benjamin gave me the feeling of he is trying real hard to sing this ABC songs and is enjoying doing it with me :) Pei invited us for dinner at The olive tree, I missed indian restaurant food, going there makes me feel I'm back to UK. Benjamin loves indian songs, he would clap and bounce with the singer on the stage. 

Ben shows great improvement in music class. Even teacher walk up to me after class, told me that benjamin is taking part now and is very proud of him. Although it's ben's nap time during his class, I'm sure he is enjoying it :) I sing and repeat the songs that teacher sing in the class for that week, I guess this has increase his interest tremendously. Benjamin loves to play all the musical instrument from Mellisa and dough I bought for andrea last time. Recently he had took out 2 big tong (biscuit bucket) and hit on it using wooden stick. I can see that he loves to explore new things. He would hit and bang and make noise from all the instrument everyday!! 

1yr 11 months

random

days and weeks went by quickly. I am still busy with the new house. The worst nightmare happened yesterday, where ikea installed my LG top, the dust is everywhere. During my uni days, dust which is small particles are extremely dangerous in a factory because they will cause EXPLOSION with a tiny little spark. Yesterday my new house did not explode but my emotional explosion is far greater than that. hahaa ... I was not happy because I need to re-clean the house. My muscle aching have not recovered and now have to over use it again :( Anyway, I listen to universal mind and I felt better :) 

I called kingsley yesterday to ask about transportation. 1 term (4 months) = RM1200. I hope andrea is fine with the school van. I learn that they have a very long waiting list now, oh ... i cannot believe it. I saw from their FB page that there are mat salleh teachers and student now too. Getting better I guess. Admin told me that year 1 is full, i said you guys give siblings priority right, she asked about ben's age. Admin suggest to send ben to nursery (3yrold), i comment that they do not have facilities for little kid, she said they do now and invite me to take a look. Well, i guess i will only send ben to their reception or year 1 like andrea. 3 year old is still very delicate I feel, place like summer academy will be more appropriate. will see how it goes.

propolis 70% tinture has arrived. I hope it will help me.

Performance at Taylor's Lakeside Campus

Andrea was invited by Dr. Ng to play at Taylor's Lakeside Campus for Malaysia International Music Expo (MIME) 2011. It was  great experience as I have not seen andrea been so scared before. Her songs were mostly out of tune ... but great experience :)

songs played: Andantino & perpetual motion

4 years and 3 months old

Things will come round

I have tried very hard to get a people manager job for myself. When I feel like giving up, I always ask myself if I've tried Hard enough and if I've tried Long enough. I have this powerful WANT in myself for more than 2 months now and feel abit demotivated and have told myself yesterday - maybe I shall go back to spiritual and listen to my inner voice, what really my divine plan is. Hence, I've bought kelly howell - destiny retrieval, as I plan to drop the material vision (becoming people manager) and go back to the source. Just THEN ... miracle happen!

Well, it's not really miracle as he did not say he wants to take me. The functional manager asked me to send my CV to him and will talk later today or tomorrow over the phone. Why I wrote things comes around because - you know i hate Indian and  swear that I will not work with Indian anymore. This functional manager sits in India and he is an Indian. I don't know if he will give me a chance to become people manager but I want to say - I don't really hate Indian, I love them and is ever ready to serve who ever that is ready to give me a chance. I know this path would not be easy but at least once in a life time, I get to experience managing people. everything will turn out to be easy peasy when my golden hand touches it! I always believe in that :) 

I just pray that his Indian slang is computable. My 2 months hard work will end here if I do not get what I want. Have I tried long enough? maybe not but because the universe time is quickening, i think 2 months is long enough for me to try. Maybe it's time for me to move on to other task :)

Ben 1Yr 10Months

1. Attend Musikgarten once a week starting from sept 2011 [still look uncomfortable in class but when ask if he enjoy the class, he said 'yes' :)]

2. Very Very good in shichida ESP, I'm very proud of him

3. Loves kids e world, he can swing himself, hang himself on coconut tree, slides and maze! all by himself

4. Enjoy good laugh type of person. will repeat an action and laugh until he drops

5. Favorite home work - cutting and pasting kumon workbook

6. Enjoy night time read. Ben will bring book and ask me to read - so sweet!

7. Can count 1-10 but refuse to say all the numbers by himself in one go

8. Loves to eat and almost everytime eat like a wolf

9. Starting to say 3 words in a sentence, Just recently can call 'mummy' instead of 'mimi'

10. loves to stick to ME!

I love my boy, and I wish he will never grow up. I look at andrea, she is very big now - no more baby fats on her face and when i hug her, she cannot fit into my arms anymore :( When andrea is afraid, she doesn't run to me like last time, she can solve her own problem and know what to do most of the time. My babies are growing up. I wish benjamin can stay like this for a bit longer :) I miss hugging my babies in my arms and crying for me when they need me. 

1 Year 10 Months

Weekends

wow, the weekend just flew by. My Kitchen Cabinet frame is up on last Friday, I feel sense of satisfaction although it's only the frame. Saturday after bringing ben to Musikgarten, I rushed to new house, Ikea pax and study (galant & effective) is there, they spent 5 hours fixing it. I was so tired *watching* them. Helped hubby to install toilet basket and glass. Sweep abit before going home. We tah pao that night because we needed to go Ikea after dinner to exchange for broken item & refund for extra item. We reached home at 11pm. What a LONG day ....... 

Sunday! In order to compensate my poor babies for not going out on Saturday. Hubby brought them to westin for breakfast then off to kids e world at the gardens. After lunch at Hokkaido restaurant, we went to gong cha for dessert and both of them fell asleep in the car. We pray very hard they will not wake up when we arrived home, and they didn't :) We then rushed to new house to do vacuum and mopping for an hour. Rushed back to shower and off we go to Shichida. after Shichida we rushed back for dinner and off we go for family reunion dinner at Mid Valley. We arrived home around 9pm and andrea wants to play with lantern. We played for a while, I sent both of them to bed at 10pm. I feel asleep too ...... Oh ... we shared the delectable macaroons (4 of us), we enjoy it so much. I think will buy the 3rd time :)

Today 12 Sept, is full moon. I will meditate tonight. Love and Light.

Pre-Moving House

1. I've donated 2 big bags of children clothes and shoe last Saturday

2. I will be posting up used baby furniture for sale next week

3. I have got cleaner to clean my new house once a week 

4. I have done the wood flooring upstairs - it's shinny as gold :)

5. Hubby and I did the children furniture, took us 2 full days to assemble last week

6. Kitchen cabinet coming tomorrow!! (without the top)

7. I shall throw more stuff at home like .... i dunno ... shall see

8. I want to pack DVD/CD into the new storage i bought from ikea yesterday

I'm very excited :) Can't wait to move and have my feet planted on the grass everyday (to neutralize my energy) and also to soak in the bath tub with sea salt when feeling low. I can't wait to see my kids to behave independently - change themselves and make their own beds. I've got all kids size furniture from ikea, I read somewhere that it helps the children to be independent if you get them the right furniture size. Will See :) I can't wait for my piano to be back home with me, I miss playing my all time favorite songs and also start practicing to accompany andrea's suzuki violin book 1. All my furniture + curtains will be in by 29th :) Thank You God for creating this exciting moment.

Gratitude

I was feeling ill (neck + headache) since we came back from malacca. Things doesn't seems as bright as I like it to be. I have tried energy healing, panadol .... it helps to relieve for a short while and was pondering if I shall try ISIS blue energy. wart treatment was no fun, i felt down the night before - remembering the pain i must endure and never see 100% recovery after 1 month treatment. I read somewhere that, disease is not necessary due to some emotional issue, it sometimes are some life lesson that we must go thru. I learn to see my wart treatment this way, even energy healing can't heal right away, you need to have a few treatment - like chinese treatment. All you need to is have FAITH and believe that all is well. Take your mind off of the disease - focus on happy things like giving thanks and have gratitude. 

Hubby was very kind to me, he supports me all the way when I had maid issue few days ago. Hubby brought me to ben's general food store yesterday to buy some jam and pasta sauce. The strawberry and apple jam is VERY delicious! I enjoy looking at all the imported food and picking those I feel attracted to. there is one man saying out loud - this mustard cost RM40 how to eat. I was thinking if the universe asking me to stop putting stuff into my basket :p oh well, i didn't spend more than RM100 yesterday night. I went to Ikea just now to get quotation for PAX, Galant & effective. I got the parking right in front of the escalator and also got everything done less than 1 hour. The ikea staff served me was very helpful ;) I had my favorite curry puff from ikea to soothe my painful wart. hehe ... 

Although I am on MC and should be resting, I need to work half day PM today because the bi-weekly call cannot be missed. How I wish I only work 3 days a week or work from home every afternoon :) Thank you for the flexibility and comfort I have for now.

being eldest

I'm truly grateful that I have andrea as the eldest child. I admit that many times, i would ask her to give in to her little brother and also take her for granted. andrea is a very independent child, she seek attention like all other kids but in a moderate way and would just go away if she doesn't gets it. Andrea is very persistent in things that she wants, She would try all the ways to get what she wants and is very good in reasoning until I almost always give her what she wants. Her passion for violin never dies, even I threaten and discourage her many many times, she still insist to continue violin (although is very lazy to practice) - andrea is willing to learn and I always see the sparkle in her eyes when dr.ng's teaching her. Andrea loves encouragement and praise, she will do extra miles for violin or any homework given, she learn very fast and alot when she is feeling Happy and Contented. 

Andrea loves her little brother alot, at times they would fight and hurt each other. Most of the time she will tell me she has treated her brother very well today. Andrea knows I'm upset when benjamin is crying, from this I learn to punish benjamin in front of andrea when the boy gets too fighty and unreasonable. Andrea would share her favorite food with ben and me, even that is the last piece - benjamin on the other hand would say "NO!" then wallop the whole piece. Andrea help me to wear shoes for ben and also keeping the toys and stationary away for ben. I remember being the eldest in the family is always about giving, and at one point I would feel the world is so unfair, then I would tell myself - WHY SHOULD I tolerate. I learnt that lesson myself in my own family, I hope I will not let andrea feel the same way that I felt when I was young. Caring with the love of the heart instead of responsibility will solve this problem - i think ......

Divine Guidance Oracle Card (5 Sept)

Your Divine Guidance Reading Results
Energetically, you are beginning to draw in the loving people you need to help you move forward on your path and in your life. These people offer you both emotional and spiritual support so that you may see and feel your own value in the world. Remember, you have just as much of a positive effect in their lives, as they do in yours. While what you have to give is very important, it is just as important that you allow yourself to receive too. In doing so, you are creating a beautiful energy exchange of growth and support for all.

This is so accurate. I'm so grateful to have this tool for the angels to tell me I'm on the right path and confirm that you are always watching over me. I had a painful experience with my maid AGAIN. Same mistake over and over again. How much can I endure? I have done my part to endure, telling myself the universe wants me to learn how to handle a person like this, but yesterday I did not agree - I told myself - my LIFE is to attract people who can help me, not to 'teach' her how to become a better person. I put a stop to that non-sense I've been telling myself. I have been telling myself - I"M not a HOST to bacteria/ virus (due to the wart). I am healthy to help people around me. My maid was a parasite to me (that's what I feel before).

Before hitting the sack, the maid provoke me by walking around the house doing nothing. the drama ended up talking to her by opening up her heart. I ask her - Tell me for your past 20 years, tell me 1 thing that makes you proud of yourself (she is always day dreaming and do many mistakes - so i wonder if she has a dream or know what is the taste of success). She told me she is very proud of herself when she work as a cashier, she earns money for the parents. I said back to school days, she cannot tell me any and told me about her sad stories instead. I told her that her root cause is that she already gave up on herself and believes that her opportunity/ chance is on other ppl's hand. Confirm to her that, she had not tried hard ENOUGH. I scolded her that her prayer is not working because she said the WRONG prayer. Then she told me, she scolded GOD and now realised that she prayed wrongly. HAHAAHA... i think the GOD heard her and send me to tell her this. Oh Well ... all is good. God Bless Her :) 

I told the maid prayer cannot be: "I pray that my employer will like me", "I pray that the kids will like me". 

it should be: "I will be very observant and alert, God pls give me chance to prove it to my employer", "I will grab all the chance I have to read/ play with the kids, God pls give me spare time to spend time with the kids so they will love me too"

Many thinks that GOD will decide the path you should take. The truth is, you need to do your part - your decision and know what to do if GOD give u a chance. God has no power to make you rich or make anyone like you or give everything you want to you if you do not decide the best successful path. Blaming on everyone but you is the most foolish thing to do. From my conversation with my MAID, I guess many people in this world prayed just like her. You need to know what to do before God can lend you a helping hand. Love and Light

The Majestic Malacca

What I like:
1. Fresh flower scent filled the reception area every time (morning till night) I passed by.
2. tit bits everywhere - my kids and I love it :p
3. It's at the town centre, very convenient
4. we ordered kids meal and got it for free :)
5. most importantly, there's not much people - I enjoy the peace and space :)

The Majestic