Seminar

This seminar makes me feel bad, looking at young presenters, I'm pretty sure they are ALL indigo child. These bunch of people bring in such useful things at this information age and they actually CHANGE the world. These indigo child earn hell lots of money ... old folks may say, if they are good they would earn a good living, hence GOD too create these indigo child and pump them with LOTs of money too... Look at JY. These rich folks will then attract people all around the world to 'listen' to them. They are ALL less than age 40 - WHY am i still doing here ... look how other indigo child is contributing to the world? Shame on me! Should start something .... being a geng zi pillar women, i shall look at luxury things - what can i change at this perspective? need time for that ... lol ... 1st i need to become a good speaker - 1st thing 1st ... 

Why i was in this seminar, I've no idea too. I just sign up because i thought i can explore the Internet business, however i do not know if it helps me. My guardian angel arrange me to sit with an uncle (close to age 50), however he is a an Internet savvy, he is kind enough to teach me what are the things i shall do for hubby's LED business. The seminar u know as usual has to spend money to buy their product and they do give u some information so you have an idea what is it all about, of course i did not buy any of it. I do not have 3 full days to attend the seminar, i still sign up, haha.. crazy or what. I think GOD just want me to meet this uncle so he can tell me what is my 1st step. This uncle said he has spend on MANY Internet courses (spent close to 20K) just to learn Internet - my GOD! He is an engineer work offshore, but now because of his 2 sons he quit his job and only do freelance engineering work + Internet + MLM. He is old but full of enthusiasm. RESPECT. 

This seminar of course amaze me. ALL the speakers are funny and interactive. The best part is, AFFIRMATION is on the list. Can you imagine we do AFFIRMATION during the seminar? It's such an important tool you know. i thought i'm the only one who uses it, in fact MANY is using it. This world is really changing to the better for those in the right path, there is always both sides - the dark and the light. This is definitely light - they may not be light workers like those doing energy healing, but they sure deliver/ contribute what a light workers doing but without the energy part - CHANGING THE WORLD. The speakers today was from US & UK. There are M'sia speaker too .... can you see the globalization that the indigo child has build? skype, facebook, viber, linked-in etc ... they are all amazing things created by 21st century folks! Thank You ... now i feel so small ... lol 

what a day!

Mid-morning was a bad day. Went to sri KL and got provoked by the principal and in the car got 'lectured' by hubby. Old man principal, i've cursed you because i have also got provoked by my husband, so next life, me - u - hubby will meet again and hopefully next life we will piss you off instead. You really pain in the arse - if you are not living true to yourself, you actually do not have to live on this earth. If your daughter doesn't want to listen to your philosophy, pls have self reflect - you are wasting our time. I'm emphatic that your another daughter has passed away but what you believe does not apply to 21st century. Sorry to say that you are OUT! I pray and hope that I will never meet you in this life ever again! Rest In Peace. 

Went to KLCC after this. Ben's is a nice place to have salad (read from a blog). I then dine alone at Ben's because hubby as usual will not entertain me nor will talk me out when i was angry. Surprisingly i've changed alot, if he doesn't say sorry or call me back or anything i will write nasty sms to him, i think ever i've started reiki, i never do that anymore. I'm able to detach emotion to certain level, maybe 2 out of 10 scale. hehehe... cos that old man i still cannot control but to show my anger. Good thing is i did not scold him in the face, i used to scold ppl in the face. I only scold the old man when hubby 'lectured' me. Poor old man, it's hubby's - i've cursed the old man too because hubby cannot keep his mouth shut (keep screaming at me). Oh well, this is what keeps the world moving anyway. I'm not guilty because I know this gov education is a flaw and old man wants to follow strictly and condemn me (kiasu) - i've no choice to send negative energy to him. My warrior spirit shall use it this way - especially to the school principal. really eat shit and goyang kaki in the office only. 

I felt so much better after ben's - go buy presents for the 2 weekend invites - buy MNG pants - buy groceries - buy gingersnaps (20% off storewide! buy like crazy!) - buy ben's training pants (i hate myself if i cannot potty train him by 2 yrs old) 

I pray that my maid can find a better employer who loves her and I pray that I can get someone who is honest, hard working and loves her job as a housekeeper. Fill the world with love. Amen.  

Reminder

I've not be very mindful. I had this left-shoulder-neck pain since a year ago and i've fixed it and because I never be mindful of my thoughts and action i fall into this helpless situation again :( Had emotional invasion (i let it be) since 3 weeks ago and have made a stop to it only 2 days ago, my neck is super stiff - panaflex & voltaren cannot help, I went to the doctor opposite my house just now - I hope the medicine he prescribe can relieve my pain. It's SHARP pain :( Please be reminded that - treat all the women in your life as if they are men. This will be a lot smoother to myself. SHARP pain is no fun ..... 

Have not been meditating properly for a few weeks now. I think i must meditate at night, morning i had to depend on ben. If he is awake early i cannot do my meditation, i had to do 'lying' down meditation. Must make time for meditation now. 

Happy things happened:

My old thinkpad X60 has been upgraded to X200. First time in IBM i've got NEW thinkpad, as in really NEW, no one used it before. I got to remove it from the plastic! How cool is that :) Work has been crazily busy, I see it as a learning curve, because I've been relaxing for too long, to think back (3 years ago) I didn't learn much for this role - only output & very little input. I've put a deposit for a New Car - expected delivery in october 2011, My honda city is 7 years old this august, I'm happy that i can change car in 5-7 years - i know it's the max limit i've set for myself, at least i can squeeze it in before my honda city turn 8 years old :) Developer said this friday they will get the CF letter, within one month we should be getting our new house key! Oh, my Neviv sofa has arrived :) Doctor gave me MC tomorrow! but i have to work half day because of unresolved issue! well, better than none - half day is good enough :) 

Singapore Trip - Apr 2011

We go Singapore at least once every year, sometimes twice. Before having the kids we used to stay at Hilton Singapore, we can walk back then, with the kids I don't think i can walk more than 1KM. when the kids arrived we stayed at swissotel The Stamford hotel - food & shopping just below the hotel, have bath tub, spacious room, always give me free baby welcome pack (inside the cot), easy valet parking and last but not least not overly crowded. 

Day 1 - raffles city is our 1st stop - lunch at MOS burger - hubby go 7 eleven for top up, I go buy some bread from Epid'or bakery + tart from Fruit Paradise - check in at Marina Bay Sands Hotel - go up to sky park for a dip - back to room - in-room dining for the kids ( spaghetti + fried rice) - ion orchard - shop at The wright gift (bought a bull + treble clef miniature) - Monsoon (my dress + andrea hair band) - Hokkaido ramen for dinner - shop at muji - back to hotel - sleep

Day 2 - Breakfast at rise restaurant - Singapore Zoo - must drink brewed ice lemon tea at zoo - Victoria street to buy manna bear - Metro paragon to buy monsoon kids (andrea's performance dress) + i bought 2 dress from monsoon - back to hotel - shower - walk over to marina bay sands shopping mall - back to hotel - in-room dinning for the kids (porridge + fried rice) - go to suntec city (cannot find Garrett pop corn) - left suntec and go to raffles city again - dinner at MOS burger - buy some Epid'or bread again - back to hotel - sleep

Day 3 - Breakfast at rise restaurant - Sands Sky park to take pictures - hotel check out - raffles city - i walk over to city link mall to buy Garrett popcorn - walk back to raffles city for lunch at burger king - back to KL

Short but fruitful trip! I got to restock my manna bears, buy monsoon dress, eat the ramen we craved, go to muji (most of the things 20%), bought andrea's performance dress and most importantly no stress trip :) Thank You!

Marina Bay Sands Hotel

This is our first time here at Marina Bay Sands Hotel. The building is beautiful and is very attractive to me. IBM has corporate rate for this hotel, however still not cheap - SDG 250++ per night. We stayed in Tower 3, was disappointed because there's no bath tub. Me and andrea was disappointed. I need it because it's difficult to bath the kids with shower - it's not child friendly i would say. Andrea on the other hand loves to soak into the bath tub. Paying at SDG250++ per night, no bath tub is really a put off and i did not expect it to be NO BATH TUB. enough said. 

The baby cot we ordered came at 11.45pm, yes - we waited for 8 hours since we checked in. Bad luck or what. Another thing is the hotel is VERY crowded, imagine the valet/ jockey are always full - i need to hold andrea's hand and carry ben to cross the busy road to the hotel main lobby. Tower 3 is a bad choice, although we had high floor at 47, it's just too far for us to walk. 

My friend just told me, he has been upgraded to tower 1, it has bath tub in his room! Okay, i know poor people don't deserve a bath tub and deserve longer walking distant, but SDG250++ is not cheap. Hubby suggest us to take The Club Room on our next visit. If it's not good, it's not good. They keep on sending me feedback form. I deleted 2, and today send another one. Maybe I'll respond tomorrow.

Not very happy with the stay but is glad that i've been there. The sky park is awesome, the in-room dining is delicious, the sunset/ sunrise view from our room is lovely, the rise restaurant breakfast has ALOT of variety, the entrance to the room is big and I love their performance at tower 1 :)

Marina Sands Bay Hotel

Sands Sky Park

The Club Room Lounge at Sky Park

Sunrise from our room

Delighted

Today a happy colleague, came and told me she is now a SGM member, she did the chanting now. It's good :) She saw the Nam Myo Ho Ren Ge Kyo paper i pin it on my desk, since 3 years ago. Today she is very proud to tell me she is one of us. That's good, i do feel happy for her and tell her to keep chanting and told her that she is very fortunate to meet good leaders at her district. She told me she enjoy reading SGM articles. That's really good and I hope more people can be like her. I'm really sad to hear people that i know die young. I have a friend passed away last Thursday. My hubby's friend wife, pass away last month. At this era, me myself is struggling to detach my emotion to whatever happening around me, i know it's hard to detach our emotion, lets work hard together - we will help each other to grow spiritually. 

My shoulder pain came back - due to the hard time i have since few weeks ago. That's really bad, physical pain meaning your emotional level is seriously damaged. I don't know what to do, all i can do is to heal myself, i do not know if i can heal successfully, if not i need to look for KW again. How foolish of me to let others to hurt me - i need to pop active fast every alternate days. I know the universe is teaching me to have detachment, i'm learning, learning the hard way and is still struggling to detach myself from negative emotion. I will learn and I will succeed. 

updates

It has not been good, since 1 week ago. Not wanting to 'feel' it but somehow has failed, so many unhappy events happening! This will stop and I mean now! 

Maid giving me problems and my close friend in secondary school passed away. I pray that she'll rest in peace. Got to know on my second day in Singapore, basically i've no mood after knowing it, luckily next day we are leaving Singapore, at least i have 1 1/2 days enjoying. Hubby did not know why he did not record andrea's recital today, his friend said will burn it into CD for us, i hope it's good and will get it latest by next week. 

HAPPY! Got to eat at chef & brew today! Have not been eating there for months! ever since ben's shichida class changes. Oh ... just heavenly closed down at damansara heights. I still love dining at chef & brew. Bought my sea salt at cold storage after dinner, used till the last drop for today's kids dinner. I bought andrea's recital dress from kids monsoon! I bought 3 monsoon dress!!! with 20% discount! I'm so happy ... I bought garrett popcorn, a bit too sweet for me, but at least i've tried!! Muji is on sale, most of the things we bought is 20% off!! SOO COOL ... love this trip to SG. Marina Bay Sands sky park is awesome! We will go for club room next time :) Higher Atrium is not bad - room is big and spacious (no bath tub only) - we've got sea view. We love it :) Today's emcee job at andrea's recital was not bad, I'm able to feel calm and i guess i did not embarrass myself, lol. Love this emcee job :)  

ben 18 months

1. Calling daddy clearly

2. Loves to play the violin, he will get the bow and play on the violin (with style)

3. Loves to act out - I'm a little tea pot & insey winsey spider (ask me to sing always)

4. Eating soft rice, pasta & adult food (when we are out eating)

5. Loves to do somersault (with mummy help)

6. Jump with both legs leaving the floor (super fast milestone)

7. Is a fast eater, unlike andrea is much much slower and is always hungry

8. Will ask me to lie down by patting on my pillow - ben wants to poke my belly to sleep

9.  Imitate EVERYTHING andrea does, Loves to play with my jewelry box, fixing his own bed (using the ikea hexagon key in daddy's drawer)

10. Pee in the potty in the afternoon at grandma house (according to grandma) - a few successful attempt

1Year 5 Months 3 Weeks old

Dong Gong DS

April sure is a busy month, I've used Dong Gong Date selection since march and it seems quite useful as i can see some positive feedback and outcome. Will continue to do for the following months and hope we can close more deals :) What about myself? I've used the good dates but inevitable that sometimes other party purposely wanted to choose a bad day to discuss with me, hence i need to use a bad day - like today. I meditate and send energy to the person i'm going to talk to and the outcome turn out really well, although i do not know if he is genuine wanted to rent from me or just being nice - overall the discussion was very pleasant and i think he would rent from me if his other partner agrees. This friday he would tell me if he wants to rent, JV or not interested. Keep my fingers crossed. I feel like a sales man today :) 

April for me is a hectic month, destruction for my month pillar - chaos happens in the family (month pillar). True enough, but that's small matter. Not affecting me much and I will not give feelings to it. Signed up for GIS (Global Internet Seminar), i think i only can go 1 or 2 days - such a waste! We are going to stay in Shangrila because my membership expiring end of this month. Which is important you asked me, GIS! but hubby thinks otherwise, sigh, nvmlar, maybe i do not need Internet Seminar knowledge lar. Whatever. I paid RM97 and it's going to burnt! Whatever. Going to Singapore! Yeay - buying manna bear, garrett popcorns, andrea formal clothes for violin performance, massimo dutti working clothes, MOS burger, Marina Bay Sands HOTEL! and animals for the kids :) Too BAD my kids are still SMALL, if not I wanna watch lion king AGAIN! I missed Musical Play badly. especially after i went to KLPAC for disney musical

KLPAC: Tribute to Disney by ICOM

We were very fortunate to be invited to attend a music tribute to Disney by ICOM. I have been wanting to bring andrea to MPO ever since she started violin - however MPO only accept children from age 8 and above. I've noticed I'm lack of exposure to performance done by other people when i was young, i lost the interest to continue learning piano as my interest is not to complete grade 8 or more. I stop at the stage where i can read and play my favorite song - grade 7. Many ask why not complete it? Well, i see no point getting up to grade 8 where i already can play the songs i wanted.      

For andrea, i want her to see the other side of music - to enjoy playing, to enjoy performing, to express her feelings and be creative. When i practice with her at home, i ensure these criteria are met and want to expose her how others enjoy playing, performing and is creative. I cannot express enough gratitude to my mum who took care of ben, eva who invited me to this lovely performance and hubby who enjoys the show as well, that evening really make me a happy bunny. Andrea too loves the show so much, she didn't want to leave early - we had too because it's getting late to pick up ben and for my mum to rest for the day. Daddy promise andrea that we will have another show like this in the future, poor girl cried for a while and finally came to compromise - andrea wanted to wait for ben to grow a little older and 4 of us can go together next time. How Sweet :) 

Here's andrea's favorite part: under the sea. 

Need to bend more

I recognized my inflexibility, and trying very hard to remember that. Yesterday was a good day for me because hubby is able to 'talk me out' from my blues. On the other hand i think I did not explode as i used to be, hence the situation and outcome is very different. There is no good nor bad, it's just the situation i gave feelings to it. My future milestone is a medium long list, I know myself well - too compassionate, too sensitive and too wanna like buddha. I recognized all that, if fact i slap myself several times, asking myself don't behave so foolishly ANYMORE, after awhile these thing came back. After reading the indigo child characteristic, I know I'm inborn with all these to awaken people around me, hence people around me may choose to hurt me unintentionally. 

During my spiritual restructuring, high self gave me a few key words which is difference from the SRT session i had earlier. Now these words seems more meaningful - courage, gratitude, love of self and perseverance. In fact i asked KW why I'm i so compassionate, sensitive and wanna like buddha in the end no one appreciate and spit saliva on me some more, he told me what i'm doing is planting a seed in them, it may take 1 lifetime or 2 lifetimes or more to grow - to understand what we understand now. There is no hurry because everyone has their timing. Don't expect their reaction, just know inside yourself you have done your best and the seed in them will grow - one day. Do not stop doing things to help others around you. 

Simone asked KW to explain indigo child to me, but KW didn't. Simone said something like, you explain indigo child, you know best. I think KW is also an indigo child, and i think back all the things KW told me, he is 'indicating' im one of them too, i just did not pick it up at that point of time, i think 3-4 times. He would say something like - you have high vibration do you know that? highself asked you to tap on mahatma energy which is the highest source of energy to call upon, normal ppl only go for ascended master level, KW always encourage me to heal myself instead of going for SRT/SpR which i feel very weird last time (got money also dun want to earn) - in the end engage him because i told him it's very serious and i cannot control the situation anymore, which is true not faking :) KW also would tell me i have high intuition which i did not agree last time but i think i do have other than during exam choosing A or B. There are many more, i really want to thank all my guides that have bring KW to me because without him i would lost my identity and i will not feel bless and happy as I am now. Thank You, 

I'm ever ready for my life challenge, and will remain calm and peace in within. 

SV - 10apr2011

We are early today, hence i take the opportunity to practice mary had a little lamb with andrea. I play the piano and she play the violin, surprisingly that she can play VERY well when accompanied by piano! I was very happy with her performance. Being a proud mum, i told teacher that andrea will play mary had a little lamb for the recital end of this month. 

Victor - andrea's SV mate, was a talented boy, he too play twinkle twinkle little star and i played the piano. It was a wonderful experience and I love it - to play with the kids :) Whole class about 6 students, only andrea and victor can play nursery rhymes song :) Victor is 5 and andrea is 4. They are the youngest in class! 

Teacher asked me to become the MC for the recital day. I accepted! Hope i will speak with confidence :p


Currently andrea is still practicing mary had a little lamb daily for 5 times and this week added twinkle twinkle little star. Today i start suzuki CD in the morning, on the way to school, she will listen to twinkle variation. I hope i can move on to another song by next week. It's too fun to be true! kekeke .... The best part is andrea is ENJOYING!

apologize

After 1 day of contemplation on Indigo child. I would like to ask for forgiveness at spiritual level (will meditate). I felt pain because i have verbally hurt people around me especially my family & hubby. Image flashes to me while i was showering just now. All the while, i do not know i have special abilities because for simple thing like choose A or B for answer, i will always select the wrong one. I do have one childhood incident that i remembered - it could be that, this ability was buried. Recently i train my intuition back, following ben to shichida has proved that my intuition has improved tremendously. The secret is to be calm when you want an answer, do not feel panic and believe the answer you 'feel' is the correct one + lots of practice

I now recognize that i do have special abilities - 'seeing my future', 'detect lies/ genuine' and 'feelings'

1. Sincere apology to my sister and the people on the net that i've commented - for not setting their own goals, ignorance and addiction. I now know, without being able to 'see' your future, you can hardly have the determination - as strong as mine. I used to get very irritated because i felt that they are wasting their time on earth - life is really short.

2. Sincere apology to the people who tried to challenge me and those won't buy in my idea. Yes, i have cursed you.  This is because everything I feel is right, is actually CORRECT and usually these things has to wait for months or years to reveal. These things are simple common sense to me, but it's not for others, no matter how much i tried to explain. I do have old soul knowledge.

3. Sincere apology to my teachers, my grandmother, my dad, my mum and hubby for being rude. Yes, at young age i do not show respect to elderly who thinks they are older and i should listen to them. It's just my warrior spirit that makes me behaves that way. I now recognize i need this energy to transform people around me and not to use it to upset people around me.

Indigo Child

I went for healing circle for japan last saturday at lightworks. I was attracted to this book - Empowering your Indigo Child by Wayne Dosick & Ellen Kaydman Dosick. I immediately bought it, with the intention to help ben and andrea spiritually. This is the only spiritual book on children that I've seen so far. I took less than 24 hours to finish the whole book! Speed reading senses activated or what - so amazing! 

I read a few pages, i find it describe about me instead. I do not want to analyze or trying to fit myself into any of the characteristic describe because I bought this book is not for myself but for my kids. I cannot help it, after reading half of the book, i think high self make me pick up this book because he wanted to tell me I'm the indigo child and pls get up your feet and do something useful. Oh my God, i cannot believe it. Here is what I've found online, more or less same info as this book:

As a summary, here are the ten attributes that best describe this new kind of child, the Indigo Child

    * They come into the world with a feeling of royalty (and often act like it)

    * They have a feeling of "deserving to be here," and are surprised when others don't share that.

    * Self-worth is not a big issue. They often tell the parents "who they are."

    * They have difficulty with absolute authority (authority without explanation or choice).

    * They simply will not do certain things; for example, waiting in line is difficult for them.

  * They get frustrated with systems that are ritually oriented and don't require creative thought.

   * They often see better ways of doing things, both at home and in school, which makes them seem like "system busters" (nonconforming to any system).

  * They seem antisocial unless they are with their own kind. If there are no others of like consciousness around them, they often turn inward, feeling like no other human understands them. School is often extremely difficult for them socially.

  * They will not respond to "guilt" discipline ("Wait till your father gets home and finds out what you did").

    * They are not shy in letting you know what they need.

Good LINK about Indigo, Crystal, Rainbow child introduction - There are the latest diamond child which is not inside this link. 

My future millstone, I only wrote : find a place in KK to become spiritual centre. How can i expand from there? Since i need to contribute and help more people, what other things i need to do or re-programme into my sub-con? Need to start pulling relevant people, places and info to me - to manifest things that i need to do on this earth plane. 

I'm so happy for my parents!

Pei has pass her final exam!! I was extremely happy for her when she text me. It's really a RELIEVE when you know you have good grades for your degree. I still remember the time i was waiting for my degree results, you practically can't do anything but stand and wait - SUPER NERVOUS!

I feel so happy for my parents as they have accomplish their job of bringing up 3 of us, i can imagine myself in their shoe, where ben and andrea graduated. hehehe, dreaming but i can feel the satisfaction and happiness to see the human that you have raised and care most about has finally ready to earn their 1st million! 

My parents is actually a perfect match to bring up a child. My dad is a MOTIVATOR and my mum is an ENERGIZER (sending energy). what's the difference? My dad will talk us out from all of our problems by giving constructive critics, suggested solutions and loving support without damaging our ego. My mum will be our friend by letting us VENT out (release emotional block) everything that makes us sad and the most powerful and invisible thing she did for all 3 of us - SENDING US the UNIVERSAL ENERGY thru chanting. 

I'm here on a spiritual path, energy is SUPER important for all human. It can do wonders, you are really bless if your parents are into chanting, meditation, energy healing etc - the ENERGY - source of the universe. If you are sick or anyone in your family is sick - please see the environment around you. Are they always arguing and scolding, blaming each other? these are the negative energy emitted and will retain in your aura and your house. The words that you say, will go into the subconscious mind (especially your kids). It's really not a good idea to EXPLODE, because you not only harm yourself but people living inside the house. 

I have one colleague. She was sad because she could not conceive. Have tried for 6 months or more, went to the doctor and check - doctor prescribe medicine to produce more eggs. Still waiting for good news. Out of curiosity i asked her, when you were young, did your parents scold you or your siblings something negative like - I wish i never have you, you give me alot of trouble, Kids are troublesome etc. She said yes, the father always tell her that it's better that she is not born. I WAS SHOCK and confirm what i learn from books - subconscious mind at young age is so TRUE. I told her to re-program her sub-con, hope she can do it. God Bless her. 

First Molar

I was shock to see ben's first molar accompanied by blood - the tooth has just emerged i think and there's stain of blood on the tooth (i think is dead gums - don't know what it is actually). Now, i'm guilty that i did not brush benjamin's teeth, i know i should have but i didn't try hard enough. Just hope his teeth will not have cavities since the milk he drink is quite diluted. I don't know how to make a boy listen and obey to me willingly :( I need to have perseverance - highself says. I shall find a way. Guide me. 

Ben is now 17 months, according to the chart ben's teeth consider a late bloomer. First molar should come out between 14 - 18 months for lower jaw & 13 - 19 months for upper jaw. Next one will be canine, I hope he will not have much trouble with that. Actually Ben has been doing great, molar is so big OK and it has already emerged - whole tooth can be seen yesterday - the only thing is that he doesn't have good appetite for the past few weeks, grandma has to frighten him with rotan and mummy has to frighten him with "I"M ANGRY". There is a few times where he had slight fever and flu, i think these are all the sign of body changing and adjustment, i'm glad the tooth is out now. He will soon be back to normal :) Need to plan for holiday then, since he is behaving better now! 


Update! yesterday i checked ben's upper jaw - Canine is OUT! According to chart, the next one is canine at lower jaw will sprout soon. 

1 Year 5 Months 1 Week

Hofner Violin

We have successfully found a decent violin for andrea. Daddy asked his cousin who is a musician and got recommended to buy Hofner. We searched in the internet, only 2 places is selling - Bentley Music and another shop in ampang. Bentley is nearer to us, hence we go there and see if there is small size for andrea. The seller is very helpful, therefore we bought a violin from him :) We have a 1/10 size violin - i would say the sound is much better than the old one, especially andrea pressing on the string. The seller even gave me a tuner for free :) The tuner is indeed very very helpful to me. 

Andrea is now practicing for his month end recital. I hope she can play mary had a little lamb, she is now practicing 5 times at night before going to sleep. Still not good, but i'm sure she will get it one day with lots of practice. I gave her a star sticker every time after practice. Andrea is good at playing the encore book, however twinkle variation needs more guidance, i find that the teacher is also not very organized. Even myself do not know how should i proceed to teach andrea on the twinkle variation. Shall I finish the whole var. a then only proceed to var. b etc, this will take SoOo long to finish a-e. If play short cut twinkle var., andrea cannot cope but andrea is SoOo used to short cut twinkle var. cos the teacher always play this. Thought of changing teacher, but have not meet any good one yet. Hope someone can recommend me soon. 

Gratitute

Ever since i believe in connectedness, my life has been so wonderful. Everything you want in life, most of the things people give it to you, unless you are searching for wisdom/ enlightenment thru meditation. I believe each person that i meet or talk to that day will bring me something that will help me in the future - be it big or small. 

I felt extremely happy because i'm able to connect one desperate friend who was looking for a job say 6 months ago? she sent the CV to my hotmail 6 months ago and today my manager asked if i have someone to intro to take up the education job role. This friend is so happy, i hope she get the job. I have been receiving and I feel extremely happy because today i can give! I receive so many wonderful respond from my friend who is able to connect me to some architect (3 contacts - i hope they are useful, lol), i visit a kindy today and it was kim's old classmate hence she gave good service to bring me around the kindy and do not mind my dad asking - how big is the class room, how big is this land etc. I'm very delighted that i meet familiar faces & good people when i need to collect information to achieve my goal. I am waiting to give more as I expect more that I will be receiving because I need ALOT of helping hands. universe. I'm ready. 

I like things around me to slow down a little, things are evolving so quickly now. Get rid of the headache 1st, i need more perseverance to get all the things sorted out. Do it right the First Time Please :)

Weekend observation

1. at dinner time (saturday), benjamin eat by himself using spoon + hands - trying to ask him to get rid of the hands but fail. He eats celery the most, some rice and roast pork. I didn't have much appetite to eat hence it's OK that he is naughty, needs someone to carry when he is done eating. First day of period always makes me frail. Do not have stomach pain but feeling tired, headache and sleepy .... zzZZzzz ... doze off at 9pm right after we came back from pavillion to westin, woke up at 3am! surf the net for about 30min and slept again till 6.30am :)

2. at breakfast, ben only eats cereal - rice pops with milk. This i need to frighten him by saying 'I"M ANGRY"! If not he will not open his mouth. He chew on the sausages then spit it out, i don't know why, he has been doing this last few weeks when we are here. ordered the banana & strawberry smoothies for him, he drank a few sips and rejected, the last time we came he finish 1/4 glass! weird boy ... he loves my melon juice instead. Ben had some pancakes too (very little). Initially I wanted to take photos but again because Ben still need me to watch him 24x7, I do not have time. Another time, dad renewed the membership :)

3. After violin, we went to pyramid for lunch. I choose KFC because i hope the kids can feed themselves, i have not recover from my tiredness. Each andrea and ben had one mash & 1 drumstick. Ben very quickly feed himself with spoon (mash potato) and almost half way he picked up the drumstick, chew and spit out for the 1st 2 mouth. After that finish the whole drumstick!! all swallowed.... after the drumstick he lick the mash clean and ask for somemore because he saw andrea still eating. Luckily daddy bought 3, so ben eat another half of the 3rd mash all by himself. I'm so proud of him :) No fussing, No walking around - sit and eat until finish. I'm a happy mummy :)

4. Dinner time was a bliss, he finish within 20 min, Ben had been very hard to feed for the past few weeks, all of us tried all sorts of method to get him eat. today he is an angel, maybe he knows i'm tired. I stir fried broccoli + pork + mushroom + garlic then steam it together with the rice. Ben never once reject the food, happily say ahh to me. Ben made me stress free for his meal today. Today is a lucky day for me :) 

5. at night on the bed, I was thinking what to bring to grandma house to play. I asked andrea and she said bubbles. Ben quickly turn to me and tell me bubbles very clearly, look into my eyes. I told him yes ben, tomorrow i pack in the blue bag and you play in mama house OK? He smile at me and nod his head and lie down happilly on the bed smiling to himself. Few min later, he woke up and climb on me again and look in my eyes and tell me 'bubbles' again. I told him the same thing and he did the same by smiling to himself and lie down on the bed and woke up again to tell me the same thing and this repeats for about 4 times. Babies are like adults, they can get very excited with things they really like :)

1 Year 5 Months 1 Week

Weekend coming!

Weekend is coming, wow ... i've so much to do on weekends :)

(1) Cook for the kids - Saturday: soft boiled egg for breakfast, ABC pasta for lunch, rice for dinner. Sunday: westin for breakfast, shang palace for lunch (maybe) and rice for dinner 

(2) Hunt for andrea's new violin on saturday

(3) weekend getaway at westin - gonna have good dinner + shopping! 

(4) Shichida term break! Maybe we shall go eat some good food for sunday dinner too :) 

(5) MEDITATE! haven't been serious about this for days, GOSH! 

I found Kampung eggs at kota kemuning! Yeay ... RM0.50 per egg. Is it expensive? I bought 10 anyway :) The eggs are so tiny, i think I'm going to make 6 in total, 2 each for adults and 1 each for kids. Guardian is on sale again - bought so many vitamin Cs - for the kids and adults. The weather is really bad, everyone fell sick, my flu came today! BAD ... feel sleepy all day. Boost up with vitamin C and energy healing.