3rd Violin Recital

This was held in Bently. This time she played allegro with victor.

4 years 1 month old

Busy month end

No, it's not month end closing at work.

Saturday - pan cake for breakfast - water my grass - sports day (8am-12.30pm) - lunch at home - Light Craft - Tyre puncture at Sg. besi highway, hubby took 20min to kau tim - go back home and nap for 1hr, hubby go fix his puncture tyre - water my grass - dinner at home - out for violin recital at bently (8pm-9pm)

Sunday - wan tan mee for breakfast - water my grass - violin class - lunch at home - Grohe bathroom sale - shichida - water my grass - Kim's birthday celebration at korean restaurant - SLEEP zzzZZzzZzz

This is Andrea's second school sports day, this time was better, the teacher let her run on her own without assisting. Andrea having fun running around with her friends and having good time eating lots of stuff. One thing I cannot understand is, when the MUMMY team played and we got the lowest score (not my fault), andrea CRIED. She said she wants to WIN. Oh dear ... Why life is about winning? ... I admit I was once like that too because I was brought up this way ... I tried my best to talk andrea out - Life is not about winning, Life is about experiencing, enjoy good laugh, your hard work and cheer for your teammates on sports day. This is what sports day is all about, it's not about NUMBER 1 - Well ... I don't know if that sounds convincing, because it doesn't sink into me either. hahaha .... I hope for the best for my girl :p Blue Team got Number 2! not bad lah .... Benjamin also running and walking around, doesn't seems to be afraid of people.

Bad Mood

I was not in a very good mood, since Monday. The reason? I was expecting to reject the offer more than the company reject me, well I know it's not my field and I don't even want to touch technical because I know CONSULTANT is the only profession that pays well and has a future of managing a company/ department. I just do not like the feeling of being rejected. 

I scream at andrea yesterday for being stupid. I know I'm the stupid one .... I can't control myself .... I don't know how to teach my 4 year old subtraction, I don't know how to communicate to her - one look and you will know. I don't know how other people's brain function but mine, I look at it then will know the answer - is that build up by experience or what. I cannot make her see the big picture of addition & subtraction are just playing with numbers, you will get the same answer from that 3 numbers combination :( I failed and I should slap myself for saying she is stupid - I have broke the law of Love and shichida teaching. 

This morning, early morning, i saw my ex-boss in the lift. I was yearning to ask her if she has a people manager job for me. The words could not come out from my mouth, maybe the lift was too pack or I really do not have the gut to ask her face to face. hahaha .... anyway i sit on my desk and check my mail! Another headhunter email me! Looking for Controls Analyst. The office at Bandar Utama - GREAT! I shall now BELIEVE all these are GOLDEN opportunity for me. I just want it to stop and get me to somewhere. 

The headhunter just called. It's a Brazilian Mining company - Vale. Sounds BIG but in Malaysia they are starting their shared service center. I pray that I can convince that Brazilian Lady to take me in, the headhunter said what I want definitely can give cos they have alot of money Oo. I LIKE :) hahaha ... I also need alot of flexibility, don't know can or not :p
UPDATE: headhunter told me I'm too expensive, exceed their budget. Told you my six sense is correct! I NEED PPL MGR JOB! HELP!!!!  

If life hands you lemons, you could become bitter, too - or you could make lemonade - but frankly, I'd rather just throw them out and get something I really want instead. - Loretta LaRoche

Sunday

Sunday without violin class is a bliss [the teacher went to kuching for holiday and requested to extend 15min each lesson in august, I'm not happy ... i don't know how others take it. Whatever]. I guess I should re-arrange my kid's time table, as they seems to be more contented to run & play at KLCC park each time when time permits. It's healthier for them too i feel, and myself of getting some sun light for the week. My dreams is to stay near KLCC because I like Isetan and also KLCC park. Please realize my dream before the world ends. *Pray*

We had breakfast at The Living Room, Westin. I've been here so many times and for over 2 years, I need to take some photos of their Jing tea and croissant. They are my best! Hubby's would be the sausages & eggs. The kids love - pancake, waffles, smoothies, watermelon jelly with yogurt. This is our all time favorite breakfast place for 2 years, standard have not drop so i guess we will still be stalking this place.

Next to KLCC park, we stayed for 1 hour. The kids had good time running and climbing. My camera is not quick enough, many of the photos were blurry, well, i admit is my skills :p I'm quite tired to chase them up and down, i have to squat & stand many times as they love to go and hide in the tunnel. After this we went back to rest & headed to a fullmoon party for lunch (kids eat at home). It was so good to see koon seng's brother again, i've not seen him for more than 10 years and i felt happy because he was the only friend that have all his time for me (he lives a few doors away) when my parents were busy with my late younger brother.

God has always send people to love me when my parents were busy or they somehow cannot be with me. I would like to thank everyone that has spent their time with me and shower me with so much love and care since birth (i was put at nanny), I don't know how, but will watch out the sign and repay them as and when I can. Bless all of those who has showered me with lots of love and care, they have one way or another to calm my soul, spirit and mind. Meeting with koon yak yesterday had made me realized how fortunate I am, throughout my entire life. Thank You ....

Wishes

Never once in my life, I would appreciate things people give me or praise me or be happy for me. UNLESS, those things I expect it to happen or I demand for it. Life to me is quite miserable, so to speak - because I never really enjoy what is happening around me and surprises that people gave it to me. To me, everything has to be in control and not a string of hair could drop without my command. I have lead a very stressful and unhappy life throughout my 30 years, after starting meditating due to physical pain that I cannot endure, I've learnt to be more 'open'. 

Hubby is the person who show me how to take life easy, how to handle tremendous pressure, how to enjoy people's admiration & wishes, how to have successful business with good relationship etc I do not have all these skills in my life, because I was taught to be solitary (it's OK to be alone. don't spent too much time with your friends because they cannot help you to succeed. spend enough time for yourself. your friends cannot help you with your problem etc) My heart chakra is closed because of this mindset, my connection/ relationship with other human being is poor, I'm unable to love other human being with open heart and I'm not very happy deep down inside myself.

Things started to change after i've started reiki. On my birthday, 90 people on facebook greeted me, 20 people text me on my mobile - for once I felt warmth and happiness. I'm glad that people made the effort to greet me happy birthday. The old me? I would have no feelings towards all these. This time I made the effort to put down their birthday on my calendar, i make sure I text them on their birthday too - those who have text me on my mobile. Those on FB - 90 is too much for me, will check the birthday regularly and wish them happy birthday :) I feel more connection with people now. Which is a good start I feel

My Birthday

I'm 30 this year!! I can't believe I'm here on this earth for 30 years already - 1/3 milestone or 1/2 of this life has gone. I'm not sure if i'm gonna stay here till 60 or 90 years old. Anyway - as a goal orientated freak, I'm not sad at all - for that I'm 30 already. What I've achieve and What I will achieve for the 1/2 or 2/3 of my life. 

Achieved:

1. an obedient and helpful kid to my parents

2. I achieve all of my goals which I have power over

3. Career goals all met for the first 6 years

Want to Achieve:

1. share love to everyone around me

2. be a wise mother & bring up wise + successful children

3. love my husband more

4. Career - become people manager

5. Be healthy. Stay calm. Stay Positive

Organization Skills

Have been reading more about brain (left, right, whole), this is very interesting to me - I would love to share it with mothers who read my blog. 

"Organization skill is very important for a child’s future planning ability, sense of responsibility, and even positive attitudes. Usually, a child’s organizational skill is closely connected to his visual processing skill. This is because when a child is able to visualize (how to pack his stuff, how he should sort his things, etc), he is also able to understand and plan for bigger things (goal settings) and to achieve the fundamental attitude required for attaining his goals." extracted from adeline's website

I am what I am today, I can see that my parents made me very organized since young. Although I have maid since 5 years old, I have to wash my own shoes, clean my own room (sweep & mop), cannot ask maid to get me water, wash own dishes etc. My dad on the other hand, teach me time management (even go to workshops), goal setting, to-do list etc.

How to start with Andrea? here's a website given by adeline. Shall pick one or two from there! 
Another one to motivate young adults children

andrea July shichida

I'm with andrea this month, we are now with sensei kin:

(1) rushing for homework like mad at home [shichida worksheets, mandala, image drawing] - all because Sensei Kin made a remark that andrea does not submit homework diligently on her report book. Bad Mummy!

(2) starting linking memory again at home. Sensei Kin asked did I practice it at home, i said no and asked the test would be on which set. She said any set. Well, maybe she saw the disappointment on my face, she said she will test the set that I do at home. hahaha... super kiasu I've sounded.

(3) ESP is almost perfect for andrea in every class

(4) Flash Memory is OK, Space Memory is OK, Linking memory is weak

(5) Left brain activity is OK for all except for addition - still need to work on it. I must get Hubby to watch my lazy bum, after sometime I don't know when I stop flashing the addition cards to her :( 

Andrea still enjoying shichida. Shall I start Heguru? Kiasuness comes back again! Well .... I did consider it but need to settle down in my new house 1st. See how it goes. Right brain is something you need to train - just like meditation, you can't see immediate results but the results is AMAZING. That's my own personal opinion. When can i start teaching andrea meditation? Just to keep record, I've got all the ESP correct during andrea's shichida class too. My right brain has somehow activated - the effect of meditation I feel

Ben on the other hand, RUSHING for worksheets too. 6 months worksheet still pending. STRESS! My boy has just started develop the interest to do homework. Luckily I do not have to keep the worksheets for 1 year!

Weekend

Andrea vomiting has made me so worried. Friday after dinner, Saturday after lunch, Sunday after breakfast :( Saturday i never thought it would be this serious, i cooked fried pasta for both of the kids, afternoon when I'm back from my new house shopping, maid told me andrea vomit after her nap time milk. I thought it was the milk, hence ignore and cook broccoli cheese rice for dinner. Sunday morning, after the yakult, she vomit every thing out including my hard boiled eggs :( I got scared and i cooked porridge (lunch & dinner)  for her, didn't dare to force her to eat alot, only half of what she normally eats. She didn't vomit her lunch & dinner on Sunday.

I was quite stressed when the kids are not well. However, going shopping to pick up the groceries at isetan has always made me a happy bunny. I don't know why, there is only one place i like to go, isetan-KLCC. I don't know why. In UK, i always go to Marks&Spencer for groceries, I just feel attracted to that place I feel so much at ease to shop over there. I would say the FRUITS quality is the best buy-in for me. Hubby always said I'm crazy to buy such expensive fruits, but i don't care lah, i really enjoy buying it :p 

Dinner time we went to ben's again at KLCC. Love that place, all their dishes are good! i bought some macaroons from Harrods KLCC, 6 pieces for RM23. Nice! I love it .... Better than the one in Ritz Carlton Sunday Brunch. That's all that I've ever tasted :) I don't really like macaroons because it's too colourful & very sweet (really bad for health i feel). The one from Harrods are just nice, not TOO sweet. Well, andrea wants it, so I just gave it a try :) Not a bad move afterall!

SV - 17Jul11

Violin class has become a bit stressful for me. Dr. Ng doesn't have a systematic teaching approach and I feel he has lost half of the interest in our group teaching because many student has left and he did not keep a record of where he has stop for the previous lesson. 

Victor, andrea's violin mate has a sister, he played very well and is always ahead of the class. He is now 4 songs ahead of andrea, because Dr. Ng never keep track of where he has left, he has followed victor's space. Weekly i have to rush to teach andrea memorize the song before playing, this happens for more than a month now, I want to put a stop to it. I just recently watch a video on youtube - twinkle variation is to teach children rhythm. all the songs has it's purpose and something to teach the children. "o come little children" to teach children up bow to start the song. All these Dr.Ng never emphasize and all i feel is rushing for new songs, which i felt very disappointed. 

I was very grateful that Dr.Ng has was andrea's 1st violin teacher. He is very interactive and always praise the children which gave them alot of motivation & confidence in playing violin. He is very experienced. I just hope things will turn out better. I've decided to end the group class. I will teach andrea myself for now, until she can read the notes and get all the learnt technique correct, we may join back Dr. Ng next time if there is still affinity :)

Opportunity again?

Exactly one year, someone called me for job opportunity again! I have a bad feeling, because it didn't turn out well exactly a year ago with shell, and also the job description is system analyst. I doubt it, hence i ask the HR if she is sure she has contacted the correct person because I have no technical background. HR told me they already had internal discussion, i was like Okay. HR continue saying they did a search on CRM SDD, and found my CV on jobstreet, i was like Okay. HR said she will send me the JD and asked me to go thru it and reply her if i'm interested. The funny part is, I went back and look at the JD and even search online (The JD she sent me is exactly the same as her company website) - but no 'CRM SDD'. Okay lah, CRM SDD is my thing, I can close my eye and do it, If they think I can do it, why not! hahaha ... but like i said, i tend to attract false opportunity in July, we will see how it goes this time. 

I love this company! I was so excited when they called. 

HR: Hi Ms. Eow, I'm calling from Digi telecommunication. Are you convenient to talk?

Me: erm, actually I'm using maxis

HR: Oh. actually there is an job opportunity for you in Digi

Me: Oh. Sorry "blush"

HR: *Continue talking*

How embarrassed!

Avillion Port Dickson

It was an impromptu decision to go Avillion Port Dickson. Since I've not been before, I will not decline :) We went in a big group, 3 families with kids plus 1 single man. The drive was pleasant because kids were sleeping in the car, hehehe ... The shocking thing happen was the Lobby's full upon our arrival! There is an oil&gas company's family day event, quickly we make our way to check-in as soon as possible. It does feel like a wet market with full of people when I arrived.

Avillion Port Dickson - Villas Room

Our room is just in front of you

At our balcony

Room with 2 Singles and 1 Queen (day bed)

Although it's a 5 star (according to hubby), the food was so so only. Overall the staff is helpful and the place is clean but I've no idea why there are ALOT of house fly, one irritating house fly was in my room throughout my stay, I have to make sure ben's bottle is always close. For the price of RM600 per night, i would say it's EXPENSIVE, but if you like the beach and had no time for PLR. This is the only choice. 

all about DNA

Many months ago, i have bookmark this  particular page. I've just read it today and it reinforced the message "Positive thinking & action". I've read many spiritual books and it somehow appear on this page. 

Copy from the page

"The #1 common new ability between people will be enhanced ability to manifest circumstances into their experience. Due to this, those who believe in a doom and gloom future for themselves will begin to manifest mass quantities of bad stuff into their life. This will also come in the form of other negative people who are also manifesting their own bad stuff. This is how they get congregated into geographic locations. By the law of attraction, they are so much alike that it just ends up that way.

On the contrary, the opposite holds true for the optimists of the world. They will all begin to manifest mass quantities of positive stuff. This will also come in the form of other people who are manifesting good. Then these groups by natural law end up in the same geographic locations.  If something happens in your life that causes you to have to move to another location, don’t push against it. If you do, you might end up surrounded by the wrong crowd."

My Findings: 

1. Kelly Howell guided relaxation mention about DNA healing - I was confuse why she want to mention DNA. This page shows that DNA affect human greatly

2. Read soul psychology - I was confuse about the 3rd dimension, 4th dimension, 5th and so on. Now i understand the DNA plays an important role for these changes of dimensions

3. KW mentioned that for year 2012 is not the end of the world, those people will commit suicide because they cannot take what is happening to them. This page further explain the DNA Shift cause the subtle energies (all of the memories and emotional baggage is stored from this life time and others) to be purge from our system. All low frequency suppressed emotions and memories began flooding to the surface, almost everyone on earth experienced this. If we do not allow it, we either not going to make it, or are headed for a full on fragmentation of consciousness.

4. Now i fully understand what I've been thru is a purging of emotional baggage and I know it hasn't finish yet because just got introduced to Kelly Howell mp3. This is my second phase of DNA shift clearing I think - listening to Kelly Howell can really reprogram my subconscious mind. This i have yet to confirm, but i can 'feel' is working for me.   

note: If you have not realized it, it's good to think and act positive now - as this is a tough job to do, we need to help each other and remind each other for a better life.

Tuesday

Feeling refreshed this morning, had time for 1 hour healing meditation + stretching. Ben and Andrea was very cooperative, they didn't wake up or make a fuss when I was busy meditating + stretching. Kids woke up at 7.15am, rushed for preparing breakfast + packing my stuff. Left home at 7.40am. Andrea sang the whole perpetual motion by herself - that makes me more happy. We arrived 8.15am today and had sometime to read her story book. That's what we do everyday morning if we arrived early. we bid our good bye at 8.40am. 

Colleague was feeling lousy, so we took a walk at 10am. I bought my favorite Starbucks hot chocolate. Enjoy the drinks - had some followup to do - chasing and ticking to-do on my list. Feeling satisfied. Had lunch with my ex-teammate, had good chat. Bought groceries at Jusco before picking up andrea. Andrea has been eating fast, everytime i arrive at 1pm she already finish, so i went their earlier today - 12.50 arrived, also finish already. Great! I had more time to chit-chat at my mum place before going home for work. 

Stop by at new house. Everything looking great. Today the tiles-man going to finish up their work, next would be wall painting. Poor hubby has to run up and down just to meet the contractors timeline, he handles everything (luckily he's a ji earth, i don't think i can handle such stress), I'm always happy to go to the new house just to see the nice progress and nice people working for my house. I bought drinks for them everytime I go. I feel grateful they don't scream or shout or show grumpy face while working. lol ... create good qi for my new house.

Sing

I love singing but I'm not good. Looking at these boys singing "I have a dream" makes me feel contentment and I truly admire them :) That's my next plan to send andrea to vocal class. Singing is an emotional expression, the least emotional baggage you carry, the more you can release in many ways, you will be a happier and healthy person in general. Don't keep your sadness, anger, disappointment, worries, frustration etc - RELEASE ...... Life is Beautiful :)

people who irritates you

This week my wisdom taught me that, no matter who irritates you [how much you wish you never see them again or how you wish they stop acting in certain way], you must find a way to dissolve it. This is particularly hard for me to 'dissolve' the feelings (some may find it easy), I've done something wrong yesterday by telling my colleague about my maid issue. I've unintentionally emitted the negative conversation to her, she seems empathy - after talking for 15min (to me it's VERY long) i immediately change topic. I also have one irritating colleague because i find her fake and loves to manipulate people around her, including me making a fool out of me etc. I had to suppress my feelings because I cannot refrain myself from talking or having lunch with her - it may create more problem in the future. Hence, coming to office may trigger my uneasiness anytime.

The problem does really lies with me, I do not only have these problem outside but also with my husband. I always told my husband when the time is here, we will stop arguing, when we need to go separate ways we will without having to go thru much trouble. I have been wanting to heal myself, i know my problem is that I do not have enough love for myself (my husband and many of us also have this problem, that is why I'm attracting these people to my life). Everyday morning healing, i heal my heart the longest - hoping that my heart chakra can be open & repair itself. Until I was introduced to Kelly Howell recently, i hope her attract love can help me to transform faster (loving myself more and attract people with lots of love). Her guided healing is wonderful, after 30min i immediately feel loosen up and my body is fluid. simply amazing.  

People who irritates you is not because of that person, it's us who does not have a concrete base for LOVE. LOVE is not what you think it is, it's more than what you think. Meditate and find it out for yourself. Let your angels guide you. God Bless. 

The truth about life

I saw this on FB last Sunday, immediately I felt his emotion and empathize. Partly because I've been thru it (i guess everyone has said this to themselves at least once in their life) and partly because I know him personally. All of us make decision in life base on our judgement, what we want in life, what other would see in us, etc. Not many make decision based on PASSION. This is because most of our parents told us that PASSION would not make money or you must listen to parents or were told that we are too naive to think this is the perfect job/ house/ car/ business/ etc to have in this lifetime.

We have unconsciously limiting our inner power. Hence we felt helpless. Any path that you choose is correct, you do not have to doubt yourself. Believe in yourself - maximize your inner power and shine like a sun. My heartfelt prayers to all humankind who is in doubt. I've been thru that, what I can advise is to - get Brainsync mp3 to help you - if you don't know how to meditate. Find peace within yourself, you will know what to do. Your angels are ever ready to help, just tell them what to do. 

Doctors are healers for all humankind. Why on earth the government had to treat them like that? GOSH! I still cannot accept it .... 

Healing Circle

I'm really bless with alot of things in life, I have never heard and came across with healing circle. This is my second time and it is really a great group support for reiki practitioner. The second healing circle allow me to meet with other reiki practitioner who has already completed their reiki module, i had alot of questions and beside KW answering, I really appreciate the higher level practitioner answered my questions too. This gives me confidence to continue my reiki journey. Thank you everyone in the group yesterday.

1. I was feeling really not myself for the past month. Although bazi indicate recognition and all that but it was day breaker for me for the whole month. I expect many irritation and uneasiness, hence I let those feelings come and go without much attention given, until one point i lost passion in morning healing. I was feeling rather tired because i would sleep until 7 am but still need a nap in the noon. I know something is not right. I asked about my condition, 2 of them told me they have same experience, because you are too used to the energy hence you can't feel it that strongly now. I stated meditate this afternoon

2. I had dizziness again? I don't know what happen, could be the oily rice during weekend lunch, could be working too hard for denbulb, could be after scolded my maid on Saturday, could be my unknown sickness is revealing. Gosh .... Afraid of death? Yeah maybe, but I learn to prepare my own death. I just do not like the feeling of being sick - feel so helpless and hoping someone would catch you when you fall. I'm so thankful that my dad could fetch andrea today, so I can meditate at home. Burn Epsom salt and meditate for 1 hr and sleep for another hour. I hope reiki energy can heal the unknown dizziness. Or else i need another round of medical checkup :(

3. What I learn during the healing circle - detox yourself (place hands on r sacral, front & back), improve your hand sensing/ scanning (meditate only on one finger), try Kelly Howell mp3s (going to buy soon - something like inner talk), when you feel the connection before you sleep - let it run, not harmful - always put up golden protective bubble (i asked this question, was too stupid to cut it off because i read somewhere that says other 'stuff' is using ur energy, hmph ...), that's all .....

Body Parts

Benjamin can even point the body parts you say to him on YOUR body! How cool :) He can even say 70% of the words below:

1. Head

2. Hair

3. Forehead

4. Eye

5. Eye Brow

6. Nose

7. Mouth

8. Tongue

9. Teeth

10. Chin

11. Neck

12. Shoulder

13. Hand

14. Fingers

15. Belly

16. Belly Button

17. bum bum

18. Knees

19. Leg

20. Toes

1 Year 8 Months 1 Week old

Welcome July!

July is my birthday month :) Hectic June has passed and I hope house renovation will go on smoothly without budget explosion! hahaha ... I do not have photos on my house renovation, I've realized that I'm not very good in enjoying the process/ journey in every aspect of my life, I just want the end results. There is good and bad - good thing is I won't have time thinking of the past, all I do is moving forward and achieve more. Bad thing is I've missed alot of good memories - right now I learn to keep good memories with my family, other stuff can just fly by, I don't really care of the process anyway :) 

updates on the house, we have so many contractors coming in and out for the past 1 week. Renovation started about 17 working days now. wet works are all done, electrical wiring done, piping done. Next - plaster ceiling, floor tiles, painting & sliding doors. Then we are ready to order kitchen cabinet and start asking my furniture men to deliver my furniture. Hope by early September my curtain men is ready to advise  us the colour. Went to philip at mutiara damansara bought RM500 light is more CHEAPSKATE (outer look is really nice but inside is CHEAP) than IKEA RM200. Who say ikea sell cheap and no quality things?

I'm going for healing circle on Sunday (can't wait!). We are going to Port Dickson next weekend for hubby's friend gathering. I have alot to do on my Internet stuff [if you are not full time it's really taxing :(]. Andrea's violin show case at Bentley end of the month! Work still the same no change - Thank God. I feel exhausted because hubby has been acting impatient and confuse all the time because of the new house renovation. I need to tell myself to separate from him, I feel emotional attack and become impatient and confuse like him in my everyday life. Phew... negative energy get AWAY from me !!!