ABC song

Benjamin had started singing ABC song last week. He can get about 50% of the alphabets right, the others were just mumbling. He will looking into my eye when sing together with me, bounce his body and nod his head while singing! I have not experience this with andrea last time, benjamin gave me the feeling of he is trying real hard to sing this ABC songs and is enjoying doing it with me :) Pei invited us for dinner at The olive tree, I missed indian restaurant food, going there makes me feel I'm back to UK. Benjamin loves indian songs, he would clap and bounce with the singer on the stage. 

Ben shows great improvement in music class. Even teacher walk up to me after class, told me that benjamin is taking part now and is very proud of him. Although it's ben's nap time during his class, I'm sure he is enjoying it :) I sing and repeat the songs that teacher sing in the class for that week, I guess this has increase his interest tremendously. Benjamin loves to play all the musical instrument from Mellisa and dough I bought for andrea last time. Recently he had took out 2 big tong (biscuit bucket) and hit on it using wooden stick. I can see that he loves to explore new things. He would hit and bang and make noise from all the instrument everyday!! 

1yr 11 months

random

days and weeks went by quickly. I am still busy with the new house. The worst nightmare happened yesterday, where ikea installed my LG top, the dust is everywhere. During my uni days, dust which is small particles are extremely dangerous in a factory because they will cause EXPLOSION with a tiny little spark. Yesterday my new house did not explode but my emotional explosion is far greater than that. hahaa ... I was not happy because I need to re-clean the house. My muscle aching have not recovered and now have to over use it again :( Anyway, I listen to universal mind and I felt better :) 

I called kingsley yesterday to ask about transportation. 1 term (4 months) = RM1200. I hope andrea is fine with the school van. I learn that they have a very long waiting list now, oh ... i cannot believe it. I saw from their FB page that there are mat salleh teachers and student now too. Getting better I guess. Admin told me that year 1 is full, i said you guys give siblings priority right, she asked about ben's age. Admin suggest to send ben to nursery (3yrold), i comment that they do not have facilities for little kid, she said they do now and invite me to take a look. Well, i guess i will only send ben to their reception or year 1 like andrea. 3 year old is still very delicate I feel, place like summer academy will be more appropriate. will see how it goes.

propolis 70% tinture has arrived. I hope it will help me.

Performance at Taylor's Lakeside Campus

Andrea was invited by Dr. Ng to play at Taylor's Lakeside Campus for Malaysia International Music Expo (MIME) 2011. It was  great experience as I have not seen andrea been so scared before. Her songs were mostly out of tune ... but great experience :)

songs played: Andantino & perpetual motion

4 years and 3 months old

Things will come round

I have tried very hard to get a people manager job for myself. When I feel like giving up, I always ask myself if I've tried Hard enough and if I've tried Long enough. I have this powerful WANT in myself for more than 2 months now and feel abit demotivated and have told myself yesterday - maybe I shall go back to spiritual and listen to my inner voice, what really my divine plan is. Hence, I've bought kelly howell - destiny retrieval, as I plan to drop the material vision (becoming people manager) and go back to the source. Just THEN ... miracle happen!

Well, it's not really miracle as he did not say he wants to take me. The functional manager asked me to send my CV to him and will talk later today or tomorrow over the phone. Why I wrote things comes around because - you know i hate Indian and  swear that I will not work with Indian anymore. This functional manager sits in India and he is an Indian. I don't know if he will give me a chance to become people manager but I want to say - I don't really hate Indian, I love them and is ever ready to serve who ever that is ready to give me a chance. I know this path would not be easy but at least once in a life time, I get to experience managing people. everything will turn out to be easy peasy when my golden hand touches it! I always believe in that :) 

I just pray that his Indian slang is computable. My 2 months hard work will end here if I do not get what I want. Have I tried long enough? maybe not but because the universe time is quickening, i think 2 months is long enough for me to try. Maybe it's time for me to move on to other task :)

Ben 1Yr 10Months

1. Attend Musikgarten once a week starting from sept 2011 [still look uncomfortable in class but when ask if he enjoy the class, he said 'yes' :)]

2. Very Very good in shichida ESP, I'm very proud of him

3. Loves kids e world, he can swing himself, hang himself on coconut tree, slides and maze! all by himself

4. Enjoy good laugh type of person. will repeat an action and laugh until he drops

5. Favorite home work - cutting and pasting kumon workbook

6. Enjoy night time read. Ben will bring book and ask me to read - so sweet!

7. Can count 1-10 but refuse to say all the numbers by himself in one go

8. Loves to eat and almost everytime eat like a wolf

9. Starting to say 3 words in a sentence, Just recently can call 'mummy' instead of 'mimi'

10. loves to stick to ME!

I love my boy, and I wish he will never grow up. I look at andrea, she is very big now - no more baby fats on her face and when i hug her, she cannot fit into my arms anymore :( When andrea is afraid, she doesn't run to me like last time, she can solve her own problem and know what to do most of the time. My babies are growing up. I wish benjamin can stay like this for a bit longer :) I miss hugging my babies in my arms and crying for me when they need me. 

1 Year 10 Months

Weekends

wow, the weekend just flew by. My Kitchen Cabinet frame is up on last Friday, I feel sense of satisfaction although it's only the frame. Saturday after bringing ben to Musikgarten, I rushed to new house, Ikea pax and study (galant & effective) is there, they spent 5 hours fixing it. I was so tired *watching* them. Helped hubby to install toilet basket and glass. Sweep abit before going home. We tah pao that night because we needed to go Ikea after dinner to exchange for broken item & refund for extra item. We reached home at 11pm. What a LONG day ....... 

Sunday! In order to compensate my poor babies for not going out on Saturday. Hubby brought them to westin for breakfast then off to kids e world at the gardens. After lunch at Hokkaido restaurant, we went to gong cha for dessert and both of them fell asleep in the car. We pray very hard they will not wake up when we arrived home, and they didn't :) We then rushed to new house to do vacuum and mopping for an hour. Rushed back to shower and off we go to Shichida. after Shichida we rushed back for dinner and off we go for family reunion dinner at Mid Valley. We arrived home around 9pm and andrea wants to play with lantern. We played for a while, I sent both of them to bed at 10pm. I feel asleep too ...... Oh ... we shared the delectable macaroons (4 of us), we enjoy it so much. I think will buy the 3rd time :)

Today 12 Sept, is full moon. I will meditate tonight. Love and Light.

Pre-Moving House

1. I've donated 2 big bags of children clothes and shoe last Saturday

2. I will be posting up used baby furniture for sale next week

3. I have got cleaner to clean my new house once a week 

4. I have done the wood flooring upstairs - it's shinny as gold :)

5. Hubby and I did the children furniture, took us 2 full days to assemble last week

6. Kitchen cabinet coming tomorrow!! (without the top)

7. I shall throw more stuff at home like .... i dunno ... shall see

8. I want to pack DVD/CD into the new storage i bought from ikea yesterday

I'm very excited :) Can't wait to move and have my feet planted on the grass everyday (to neutralize my energy) and also to soak in the bath tub with sea salt when feeling low. I can't wait to see my kids to behave independently - change themselves and make their own beds. I've got all kids size furniture from ikea, I read somewhere that it helps the children to be independent if you get them the right furniture size. Will See :) I can't wait for my piano to be back home with me, I miss playing my all time favorite songs and also start practicing to accompany andrea's suzuki violin book 1. All my furniture + curtains will be in by 29th :) Thank You God for creating this exciting moment.

Gratitude

I was feeling ill (neck + headache) since we came back from malacca. Things doesn't seems as bright as I like it to be. I have tried energy healing, panadol .... it helps to relieve for a short while and was pondering if I shall try ISIS blue energy. wart treatment was no fun, i felt down the night before - remembering the pain i must endure and never see 100% recovery after 1 month treatment. I read somewhere that, disease is not necessary due to some emotional issue, it sometimes are some life lesson that we must go thru. I learn to see my wart treatment this way, even energy healing can't heal right away, you need to have a few treatment - like chinese treatment. All you need to is have FAITH and believe that all is well. Take your mind off of the disease - focus on happy things like giving thanks and have gratitude. 

Hubby was very kind to me, he supports me all the way when I had maid issue few days ago. Hubby brought me to ben's general food store yesterday to buy some jam and pasta sauce. The strawberry and apple jam is VERY delicious! I enjoy looking at all the imported food and picking those I feel attracted to. there is one man saying out loud - this mustard cost RM40 how to eat. I was thinking if the universe asking me to stop putting stuff into my basket :p oh well, i didn't spend more than RM100 yesterday night. I went to Ikea just now to get quotation for PAX, Galant & effective. I got the parking right in front of the escalator and also got everything done less than 1 hour. The ikea staff served me was very helpful ;) I had my favorite curry puff from ikea to soothe my painful wart. hehe ... 

Although I am on MC and should be resting, I need to work half day PM today because the bi-weekly call cannot be missed. How I wish I only work 3 days a week or work from home every afternoon :) Thank you for the flexibility and comfort I have for now.

being eldest

I'm truly grateful that I have andrea as the eldest child. I admit that many times, i would ask her to give in to her little brother and also take her for granted. andrea is a very independent child, she seek attention like all other kids but in a moderate way and would just go away if she doesn't gets it. Andrea is very persistent in things that she wants, She would try all the ways to get what she wants and is very good in reasoning until I almost always give her what she wants. Her passion for violin never dies, even I threaten and discourage her many many times, she still insist to continue violin (although is very lazy to practice) - andrea is willing to learn and I always see the sparkle in her eyes when dr.ng's teaching her. Andrea loves encouragement and praise, she will do extra miles for violin or any homework given, she learn very fast and alot when she is feeling Happy and Contented. 

Andrea loves her little brother alot, at times they would fight and hurt each other. Most of the time she will tell me she has treated her brother very well today. Andrea knows I'm upset when benjamin is crying, from this I learn to punish benjamin in front of andrea when the boy gets too fighty and unreasonable. Andrea would share her favorite food with ben and me, even that is the last piece - benjamin on the other hand would say "NO!" then wallop the whole piece. Andrea help me to wear shoes for ben and also keeping the toys and stationary away for ben. I remember being the eldest in the family is always about giving, and at one point I would feel the world is so unfair, then I would tell myself - WHY SHOULD I tolerate. I learnt that lesson myself in my own family, I hope I will not let andrea feel the same way that I felt when I was young. Caring with the love of the heart instead of responsibility will solve this problem - i think ......

Divine Guidance Oracle Card (5 Sept)

Your Divine Guidance Reading Results
Energetically, you are beginning to draw in the loving people you need to help you move forward on your path and in your life. These people offer you both emotional and spiritual support so that you may see and feel your own value in the world. Remember, you have just as much of a positive effect in their lives, as they do in yours. While what you have to give is very important, it is just as important that you allow yourself to receive too. In doing so, you are creating a beautiful energy exchange of growth and support for all.

This is so accurate. I'm so grateful to have this tool for the angels to tell me I'm on the right path and confirm that you are always watching over me. I had a painful experience with my maid AGAIN. Same mistake over and over again. How much can I endure? I have done my part to endure, telling myself the universe wants me to learn how to handle a person like this, but yesterday I did not agree - I told myself - my LIFE is to attract people who can help me, not to 'teach' her how to become a better person. I put a stop to that non-sense I've been telling myself. I have been telling myself - I"M not a HOST to bacteria/ virus (due to the wart). I am healthy to help people around me. My maid was a parasite to me (that's what I feel before).

Before hitting the sack, the maid provoke me by walking around the house doing nothing. the drama ended up talking to her by opening up her heart. I ask her - Tell me for your past 20 years, tell me 1 thing that makes you proud of yourself (she is always day dreaming and do many mistakes - so i wonder if she has a dream or know what is the taste of success). She told me she is very proud of herself when she work as a cashier, she earns money for the parents. I said back to school days, she cannot tell me any and told me about her sad stories instead. I told her that her root cause is that she already gave up on herself and believes that her opportunity/ chance is on other ppl's hand. Confirm to her that, she had not tried hard ENOUGH. I scolded her that her prayer is not working because she said the WRONG prayer. Then she told me, she scolded GOD and now realised that she prayed wrongly. HAHAAHA... i think the GOD heard her and send me to tell her this. Oh Well ... all is good. God Bless Her :) 

I told the maid prayer cannot be: "I pray that my employer will like me", "I pray that the kids will like me". 

it should be: "I will be very observant and alert, God pls give me chance to prove it to my employer", "I will grab all the chance I have to read/ play with the kids, God pls give me spare time to spend time with the kids so they will love me too"

Many thinks that GOD will decide the path you should take. The truth is, you need to do your part - your decision and know what to do if GOD give u a chance. God has no power to make you rich or make anyone like you or give everything you want to you if you do not decide the best successful path. Blaming on everyone but you is the most foolish thing to do. From my conversation with my MAID, I guess many people in this world prayed just like her. You need to know what to do before God can lend you a helping hand. Love and Light

The Majestic Malacca

What I like:
1. Fresh flower scent filled the reception area every time (morning till night) I passed by.
2. tit bits everywhere - my kids and I love it :p
3. It's at the town centre, very convenient
4. we ordered kids meal and got it for free :)
5. most importantly, there's not much people - I enjoy the peace and space :)

The Majestic