15 February 2012

3rd time to Japan?

My sister asked why I choose to go Japan again? What is there for us to like it so much? I couldn't answer her, I really do not know. For the 3rd visit that I have planned, i will stay at the same area (different hotel this time) and plan to go to almost the same place that I have visited last. There must be something but I do not know what it is, I stumble on this blog just now. I guess the Japanese culture is full of perseverance and I do not have it, hence i'm attracted to it. The energy of perseverance ..... I know I lack of it since 2010 .... 

After the SRT session with KW, he said i need to have perseverance. Current situation, where i feel seriously hopeless because I have not gotten my ppl mgr role. I have gone very far in 'begging' ppl that i know, 'looking' for life purpose the spiritual way, self hypnotize for awhile, shift my focus. I've gone all way out and come back to the same spot, I still cannot let go of not being a ppl mgr at this point of time! My life became so meaningless and i loathe everything and everyone in my life, including my kids. I have basically turn on the autopilot mode. I wish I am dead and I could start all over again. I have poverty consciousness ... I always afraid that the world has got not enough for me and my family, I need to fight for things that I need and I eat very fast and get really upset when people throw food. I want to change and I know my root cause, but it's not easy to change .... and this perseverance blog appeared today. I thank god for that. 

I give myself till end of this year, if no career advancement, i will stay home. I will strive for the best for my children instead of career. Gods and arch angels, please lay the path for my highest good. I remember perseverance. Amen
Dear Angels, I would like to know my purpose here on Earth and how I can incorporate that mission into a wonderfully fulfilling career that will support me financially. Please send me clear signs that I will easily notice and understand to guide me to my true life purpose. - from Doreen Virtue Official Fan Page
Update: During the divination class it says that I have spiritual past life there, that's why so attracted to it and it also indicate healing, so probably going back there to recollect my soul fragments by the river it says. Interesting!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

3 Not only so, but we[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us

Roman 3:3-5

God make us go through some period of sufferings to build our character and perseverance..
Hope you find your life purpose and make peace with it.