withdrawal notice

FInally done with the withdrawal notice letter to the school. How time flies and I miss every minute of having small little kids who always listen to me, wanting me to carry, to read books for her, sing with her and watching her do things by herself like eating and dressing up. 

Andrea turning 5 year old in June. Yesterday night, I had a strong feeling of not wanting benjamin to grow up that fast, he is coming to 3 this year :( I hug him and he let me (usually he would push me away, BOYs!). Andrea is too 'big' for me to hug on the bed, I always remember as she is the only angel in my life who speaks so softly, eat so slowly, often likes to watch (passive) and love to be pretty (something must be on her head - hairband or clips). She is truly my little princess! I have no trouble teaching andrea anything. She learn fast! I do not know if ben could catch up to her:

1. Would read many many books everyday and eagerly listen to me all the time

2. Andrea could read books by memory and at 4 years old she could read easy words from letter land level 1 & 2. (I thought she couldn't read, I bought 2 books home and she told me she wants to read on her own, my jaw DROPPED). I never flash any flash card to her as she doesn't like looking at it. I feel letter land from school helped and also my daily reading helps too. I guessed :) 

3. Andrea played suzuki pieces until Minuet 1 at age 4

4. Andrea could do addition and subtraction with no difficulty at age 4.5

5. Andrea could do IQ genius 1 at age 3.5 (completed)

6. Andrea could do ELC 24 pieces puzzle at age 3.5 on her own

7. Andrea could do colour code by smart games at age 4 (completed)

8. Andrea's violin bow hold and posture has improved

9. Andrea could do linking memory (shichida) at age 2.5

10. Andrea is my precious little girl who is full of passion

Many things listed above i doubt ben can do it because ben cannot sit still. As my little girl is growing up, i hope that i can shape her character, how she handles her own world and be compassionate. I pray for a good school so I do not need to worry about extra school tuition, I need sometime for character building and introduce spirituality so they could trust in their infinite capability a human has. Bless be.

Oh No! BOOKS!

Oh my GOD, i cannot believe that i've placed 3 order at bookdepository for the month of April! I must seriously stop buying books for at least 6 months :( I'm really tempted to buy ... for now that i do not have income, i must stop buying all these for my future ... lol ... they are so cheap .. 10% off everything for the month of april and may!!! 

Well ... Wanted to buy andrea's workbook but it has been strike off my list. I guess when she goes to year 1, it will not be too late anyway, she is so smart she can catch up anytime! 

1. The Karma Release Meditation: Let Angels Set You Free

2. Nurturing Spirituality in Children: Simple Hands-On Activities (for gift)

3. Art Lab For Kids: 52 Creative Adventures in Drawing, Painting, Printmaking, Paper, and Mixed Media - For Budding Artists of All Ages

4. Cake Pops

5. Alphabet Songs CD

Gosh, i guess with careful spending ... I still can convince myself to buy somemore. haha ... CIMB just called me, asked if it was me! lol .. even the bank is suspicious ... I think no more buying for 6 months. Thank You!

New place for suzuki violin

A dedicated teacher is important for the growth of their student. I have seen the passion and dedication in dr. ng when we 1st join, however the passion faded when he has lesser younger students and told me that he even asked some student to stop because they were not teachable. He did not ask andrea to stop but often late for class, the worst thing happen was, he never inform me the actual date he is back from london. I was standing at his door step with andrea under the sun, pressing his door bell but to no avail. I was devastated. 

I then join music pro at dataran sunway since January 2012, teacher jecintha is my friend's friend who took suzuki certification together back in KK, sabah. She is very dedicated to teach young children as her students are all very young i.e 3 year old. We have been with her for almost 4 months now, we learn correct bow hold, violin hold, sing solfege, notes reading. However there is no new pieces played so far. I felt unhappy and andrea too felt bored, not because of the teacher, because of the sudden change of teaching method. 

We used to play ALOT of songs when with dr. ng. We played suzuki book 1 till minuet 1 and 2 encore books for the past 1 year, now almost 4 months ... no new pieces. I can see that andrea's violin and bow hold has improved but always needs reminder still. She is starting to pick up reading notes, I hope she can pick it up fast before I decide to quit. I felt hanging, How come there is no balance in between, either you get a very experience teacher where he will teach you all the playing method and performing experience but your basics he would not bother. Now this teacher who teach you all the correct basic stuff, however do not have 'fun' in class and no performing opportunity in the academy. 'fun' here means andrea enjoy teacher plays the piano and she plays the violin, here teacher look at her playing - seldom play for her not to mention play duet with her. I believe there is an academy/ teacher who provide balance for these quality that we are looking for. I pray this to be delivered to me and andrea. Thank You. 

Ben - 2Years 5Mths

How time flies! I felt bad for not updating earlier....

1. Benjamin talk in sentence with correct grammar now. Instead of 'Open me', he would say 'open for me pls'. He can say long sentence like 'you cannot follow me upstairs, you stay down stairs K'. lol

2. Ben still choose his own shirt to wear every morning

3. Able to eat on his own but is superbly active hence I will feed sometimes

4. Loves to do cooking and could pretend/ Imagine more. Ben would tell me it's hot, where is my glove. I said you don't have a glove, he took out my Melissa &Dough sandwich making as his glove. lol. He also took my art craft beads as his 'rice' 

5. Ben can understand when I talk to him like hitting andrea is painful (hug andrea after that), your elephant is covered with leaves! (tried cleaning with his hands), Books are not for throwing (he will pick it up). Ben is independent, even going toilet he doesn't want us to help!

6. night time 50% Diaper wet-free!

7. Still love his letterland book very much. He would hold the book like teacher and tell me stories. lol! The only book I can read from front to back is only letterland. 

8. Singing lots of songs - full songs! many chinese songs he watch on VCD also started to sing, too many i cannot recall .... gosh! many english songs on my car CD also started to sing very clearly. 

9. Starting to say he loves his daddy. Last time when we ask, do you love daddy, he would shake his head or say no :)

10. Wear his own shoe, if we help him he would scream! 

11. Still sleeping with me, even I put him down on his own bed, he would climb up to my bed! Still poking my belly and also his own belly.

12. Shichida homework getting tougher, he has little patient to do it. I'm grateful that he can do some easy maze from shichida now. 

13. Loves drawing. The best drawing is 'jellyfish'

14. Teacher said benjamin is participating at school and also help to take care of other kids. Help his friend to get more food & sometimes feed joshua who is still crying till date. 

15. I think he gets abit bored with music class, he doesn't sit still now and would do funny faces at me when teacher teaching. Sometimes he would walk around aimlessly and I had to ask him if he wants to go home. he always say No! Then i said, pls sit down then. 

Tokyo 2012

Japan is a place I felt really comfortable with, well I also really like UK, just that the flight is more than 10 hours, if not I would like to go back to UK one day for holiday :) 

It's my 3rd time visiting, 2nd time for andrea and 1st time for benjamin :) This time around, although we stayed in the same area (shinjuku) and only Tokyo, we varied our attraction place. Thank God for a friend of hubs that help us book those local farms and cruise. Overall the kids really enjoy and oh yes, need to record this. Andrea's 1st time to tokyo she vomited in the airplane which makes me wanna hide, after the whole incidence the smell stings! Benjamin 1st time to tokyo he vomited in the train on the way back from puroland. I also wanna hide. Thank god I have plentiful of wet wipe and a plastic bag, but it still stings :( Good Experience from my babies! 

Day 1: Disneyland. Stayed in Tokyo Disneyland Hotel. As good as before :) 

Day 2: Lunch with hub's friend. Symphony Cruise. 

Day 3: Mother Farm

Day 4: Ueno Park and Ueno Zoo. Shopping at Isetan

Day 5: Puroland. Shopping at Takashimaya

This time we stayed in Hilton Tokyo. Complimentary wi-fi, LIKE :) 

Bought our groceries at Keio shopping mall. All the travelling by subway, no problem with the kids. 

 It's Sakura season, It's so beautiful :)

back from tokyo

There is so much in my head, but when i sat down and wanted to write, nothing came out. aww ... I guess I should wait for the perfect timing to write something meaningful. 

My trip is really enjoying, being the fact that I'm the third time there everything would seems abit familiar, hence no sweat at all. I have included alot of animals visit for the kids, and they really love it. I love the flowers and peace i had when I was there. oh oh .. my 4 months blocked period came on the 1st day i arrived in tokyo! What great blessing! lol ... This trip as per the card says, a Healing Trip. Thank you ISIS :) 

I bought myself a to-do list from muji, I have achieved alot of things these 3 days, life's good so far. Being a SAHM can be lazy sometimes, especially I do not need to do housework for the time being, I hope i can cope with it when my maid contract ends in Jan. *gulp*

I need to read all the books I've started half way, another 2 more to go, then I would start a blog on motherhood - what i do for my kids. Being blessed with time and money, i shall share the knowledge i have for kids and their development. For our star children, our future laid in the hands of MOTHERS! 

I always thought why the japanese are soft spoken and how on earth I can be as soft spoken as them. After this trip and seeing the sakura, this place contains high feminine energy. My energy was imbalance (in a female body but with high male energy) but when I'm there i feel the sense on balance. My period came. I enjoy every moment when i was there. I love everything over there and everything that had happened. It's heaven on earth for me. 

For MOTHERS who cares alot for their kids and is a Stay-at-home-mum. Please email me. I would like to keep in touch with you. I need to grow the circle of friends who strive for the best for their star children. Bless be!

Daisy flowers at Disneyland Tokyo

Hello April

For I realized, i only can write my blog when I'm in the office or the house is really really quiet like at 5am. I don't know how writers do, but I feel it's the same, you need to be 'connected' to write something deep inside yourself. Well, I have a reason to wake up early :) 

Time passed by very quickly, 3 of my friend ask how is my SAHM life on 4 apr 2012. I told them it's just 3 days, I don't feel anything really. Maybe my kids are independent enough, Maybe I still have my maid, Maybe I'm being ignorant. haha ...  I've started to do something meaningful on the 3rd day - buy groceries, create new financial spreadsheets, settled maid food and pocket money while I'm away for holiday, tidy up all the receipts and read some lotus sutra pages online. 

1st day trying to settled in, however was emotionally attacked by ex-colleague of mine. Settled the emotion on the 2nd day. Trying to pack stuff to Tokyo but realized it's 6 days long, and IF i pack, there wouldn't be any jeans/ sleep suit left for the remaining days. Postpone it to Saturday, but will try to pack things that i can starting today. Today is the 4th day, planned to do some 'cold knocking' but early morning I struggle to decide what I want to do today, as today is a long long day, will only pick andrea up at 2.30pm. I have this problem now as i dunno how to fill my days efficiently. My car can drive 600km, however in 3 days I need to pump petrol again, as i need to go damansara thru & flo 2 times a day, total up already 160KM one day! tired is one thing, money is another thing. Since hubby didn't make noise I guess I don't have to think too much about money for now. However, need a long term plan. 

I'm still floaty, have been chanting and meditating for 3 days now. I hope to find peace in within which I lack. Every little things people said especially hubby will provoke me big time. Oh my ... I don't know when will this pass. My menstrual stop since 4 months ago, I don't know what's wrong, I hope i will not need to go for surgery or something as i feel i have burden hubby enough. why o why my body is still not perfect. hm .... If you think being unhappy is ok, please think twice as you may end up like me :(