Paintings I've Made

We have done:

(a) wet-on-wet

(b) Block crayon & stick crayon

(c) Colour pencils

I'm really glad that I picked up children bible few months ago before attending this class. I can feel more when teacher david said "let there be Light!"It's all about expression and feelings when doing all these. Soul Expression they said. My drawings are not good, but I'm proud of it anyway. My soul expressed all these and I do feel a sense of satisfaction! lol .... 

(a) Colour Wheel on the left. Separation of Sky and sea. Let There be Light on the top right. Some writings at the bottom

 (a) Moses see god in the bush on bottom left. Adam & eve has to plant food, corn field on the top right. Others I can't remember what is it, anyway it's in the bible. 

(b) adam & eve snake on the left. Talking about profession - black smith on the top right. 

 (c) Colour pencil, unfinished ground and plants. sorry .. haha ... 

1st Piano Recital

19 Lessons so far, andrea has progressed incredibly fast! Teacher did a small recital for her. Her little fingers are like kissing the key. After the recital I praised her, it has been really long that she last performed, so i forgive her, piano is the first afterall :)

During my Waldorf Teacher Training class, piano teacher gave andrea a new book "suzuki Piano" which i reluctant to buy. Steiner said children should know many classical songs, it's best that they can play it on their own, it sounds so familiar, hence I ask teacher Tina if Steiner meant suzuki music. Tina said suzuki has evolved for many many years, what we are getting now is not pure, but if suzuki music in KL does not teach theory, it's OK to go ahead for children below 7 (before changing of teeth). In my heart I felt so warm and proud of myself. At least I did something right for my children this time :) hehehe ...

Suzuki Piano cost me RM93, I seriously reluctant to buy, I didn't see the benefit of already completed suzuki violin book1 and now have to do suzuki piano book1. I asked my aunty who is a piano teacher and a piano teacher came to waldorf teacher training. Was trying to convince that piano teacher i saw in waldorf teacher training to teach andrea but she's very full :( guessed have to stick with the old teacher which andrea likes alot. I asked him, he explained to me that he is doing concurrently for andrea to sight read and play nice classical songs (i didn't protest after what teacher tina said). My only worried is that andrea played by ear since 3.5 years old, right now for her to sight read is tough, I'm afraid she would never pick it up, all the songs she played now - play by ear although the notes is in front of her. Teacher play, she got it and play it out without looking at the notes! HUGE gap here :(

Here are the 6 books I have bought for the past 19 lessons. My aunty who is a piano teacher said: "WOW, andrea is really fast!" I said really fast or not no one knows. Aunty said let me test her .. she asked andrea a few question, she got it all right, aunty said she can read the notes lah. I was like .. thats good. She never look at the notes on the book! I shall let go of these negative feelings, let the energy flow, let all the goodness flow to andrea, I do not wish to become the barrier too. All the best. Mummy love you.

Waldorf Teacher Training

I've learnt a new word here - Anthroposophy. They do not called it spirituality or any other term that we human has given to it. A new word! ah well ... it never sink into me like any other things in life, deep inside myself I already 'know', a name is not important to me. Maybe I hear more like 'spirituality' then I would maybe use Anthroposophy more often :)

I loved painting class the most, my soul was desperate for it maybe. Thank You teacher David. I was also guided to join grade 3, instead of grade 1&2, I take it as ... my childhood problem starts at age 9. My transition to be separated was not done properly, many times i feel alone and didn't want to be in a crowd. I lothe to be in a group of people honestly, especially interact club or leo club, when I see those human looked "shiok" to torture another human during their orientation I feel these bunch of people are from the lower vibration being (animals). During college, I met a group of friends that likes to laugh at other people so that they feel "shiok", i have the same disgusting feeling towards them. as within so without, I know something was wrong somewhere. I got the answer. age 9. Although their actions are not to my favour, I shall not have judgement or reaction of how they are behaving. (they are not doing it to me anyway). Now i understand why. 

During the class, we have 2 hours daily on 2 different books to discuss. These are all philosophy, spiritual ones, many participants has difficulty to understand what is being written, trying very hard to understand Steiner. Honestly, it's about how much 'spiritual' books you have read or heard in order to unlock your higher wisdom. The words are merely words, the meanings are in between the line. One participant said, she has to read ALOT (not spiritual books) to come into a conclusion but the conclusion is not what is being meant. I felt sad looking at a 'helpless' participant. I raised my hand and said: "my experience is to read and understand what you need to understand, the universe will bring you another form of understanding of this book to you, eventually you will understand the whole book. it may take years.  another method is to meditate on it, meditate on those vague sentences, sleep on it, while you are drive or eating or anything, you will have the answer. It's not about how much you read, it's about how much you can understand in between the lines. Meditate more, ask yourself to open up your third eye chakra (wisdom)." 

I'm glad to have attended this course. It talks about spirituality from conception - baby - toddler - young children - young adults - adults. I have not come across a spiritual books on these, this is my first! I'm glad to know, although i was guilty most of the time inside the class, but what has done - let it go. Human bound to make mistake, Human bound to have EGO, Human bound to be foolish. Detachment is the key, I cannot do it overnight, but let it be one step at a time. All my life, I wished for my children to be able to hold themselves up when I'm dead, I have found the key. However it is not as easy as ABC, I need to lead a spiritual life then only I could bring them onboard with me. Long journey, but at least we have started. Thank you! Another prayer answered. 

Swimming Lessons

After reading about Rudolf Steiner childhood and education, I was freaking scared as time is running out for andrea. First 7 years (before changing of teeth), the physical develops exponentially. Stamina we have as an adult, shapes from how much physical stuff we have done before changing of teeth. Obviously I didn't do much, as a city girl, my stamina is very low, even go out for shopping I would surrender after 1 hour. Andrea as a city girl, cannot be any better than me if I didn't do anything for her. We signed up swimming private lesson during this school holiday. 

Andrea loves it very much, and I was suprised. She was very afraid of water and has alot of fear in alot of things, water included. We are blessed to have this coach that she liked alot, this coach is very patient and talk to andrea alot. Andrea would tell me, you know what the coach tells me today, xxxxx So FUnny!! (almost every lesson) yeah, the coach always tell her funny things.. like call him durian cos he likes durian and stuff like that. Today she said, coach ask me want him to become my maid or not. what did you answer? I SAID DON"T WANT!. On 10th lessons now, she is into hands on freestyle .. Coach said she is able to swim nicely after 12 lessons. I've asked the coach to continue training the stamina before moving to another strokes. My main aim is to train stamina before changing of teeth, not so much on knowing how to swim or winning the race. Thank you for this experience for andrea.