Last day of Tweedle Wink

I left with a heavy heart, I made some friends there, i guess TW has more time for us mother to chat. In shichida, usually the parents, including myself came on the dot & also the age gap. So far the class that i have been with andrea, the mothers are usually much older than me. Hence, i do not find the urge to keh poh with them, i guess they feel the same too.

Teacher Violyn gave us the term report, the content is not very specific, so i just throw them away after i reach home. Nothing much, I feel it serve no purpose. For shichida we have the report weekly & us the parents  wrote our observation too, hence it would be more meaningful for the kid in the future. That's what i feel .....

Honestly i think ben is not suitable to TW now, as he now crawl to teacher to grab everything in front, this not only disturbing other kids, i think he is not concentrate enough too. Whole class is just input of information, however i think the music part is really good. We get to listen to tuning fork & also use sticks to do rhythm  play after listening to a short rhythm. For kids below 3, this is very helpful i feel. I hope i can find some class like this for ben cos shichida doesn't have this.

8 Months Old

Ben had his shots yesterday, both Hep B & Pneumococcal together. Initially he would already take this last month, somehow PD thinks that influenza shots is more important. Ben cried very loudly + screaming when dr poke him. Poor Boy....

Weight: 6.7kg, Height: 69cm. His Weight is way below the average line, so dr. recommended to feed him 3 times solid as ben still does not really like milk. Height & head is on average line. I just don't know how to boost up his weight. When andrea was at 7+ months, she also weight and height the same. I just hope ben will put on more weight than his sister, I need to cook more protein - toufu, fish, meat

Ben is now eating WHY NOT cereal in the morning, porridge for afternoon & evening. Sometimes if we are going out, he will take Wakodo or Pigeon baby food. He would have 1/3 scrape fruit, either Pear or Apple. Sometimes if he is lucky, hubby will buy papaya, banana, plum, apricot, peach, watermelon, melon for him. Not to mention, 10oz of milk from 6am-6pm daily.

Currently ben is very clingy to me (just started this week), he cannot be put down nor play on his own. He would cry for me, but the good thing is he sleeps alot. I guess he is growing? I think he sleeps alittle bit too much now. Well, baby is always changing, i hope he could play on his own next time.

Ben is going to shichida class next month, we will stop tweedle wink. I'm getting my deposit back tomorrow:) I wonder if Heguru is better .... Need to see the quality of Ben's sensei next next week only decide.

Andrea 3rd Birthday

My Little girl is officially 3 years old now, suddenly i feel so old & realized that i haven't done good enough for my kids. Where are all the things that i have learnt to bring up a healthy child? I guess i cannot do it 100% without a maid's help, I have two shortcomings which is - very quick temper & get stressed over a small stuff. I guess my 2 kids emotional development is affected & brain development has already shut down by half, because i have been raising my voice alot & screaming at them at times. I'm learning to change those 2, I hope both kids will have a healthier environment although we don't have a suitable maid right now. 

We had 2 Birthday celebrations for andrea - Family & School. I can see that she is more happy with family members, her smiles, u can see it's from the heart when we sang happy birthday song for her. I felt very happy when i saw her smiling & grinning like that in the restaurant that day. On the other hand, she is too timid at school i think, she did not even smile when everyone sang for her. However when i asked if she enjoy the celebration in school, she said - Yes. Well, i guess next year she will smile for her birthday ;)

Andrea also enjoy packing her party packs for her friends. We pack 43 in total, for everyone in school - 3,4,5 & 6 years old school. We did 10 by 10, sometimes andrea would get blur because there are too many things in one bag. Hence, I asked her to put drinks & crisps in the bags 1st, then only we put the other small stuff by grouping them on the floor then lastly put it  inside the bag. She enjoys doing it and asking me if there are anymore after the 43 bags!! 

2 weeks SAHM

I have moved back to my own home on 27th May 2010, I am still adjusting to the life of handling the 2 kids myself. I don't have much time on my own, all i do is house chores, cooking and bring the kids to the play ground in the evening. I feel life is very routine & I'm seriously not suited to do routine job ( This proves that no Bing fire in the Bazi chart really cannot do routine work). Thank God that my IBM Job is not routine. I could die of doing same old thing everyday........

There are alot of challenges:
1. Food to cook for Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner for my 2 kids. I tend not to repeat food for the same week & have to think of something that Andrea & Ben can eat the same food for lunch, so i don't have to cook 2 different dish.
2. Having time for andrea like reading to her, doing shichida worksheet with her and bringing her down to the play ground. My girl is behaving very good, I'm glad that she is a good helper at home.
3. Trying to wash all bottles & prepare food to cook when ben is napping. I always pray that he will not wake up half way when i have not finish my task. Hubby is a good helper in cleaning the floors every night, wash the dishes, fold clothes, tidy up the house etc .....
4. I have to go to the toilet/ shower with my toilet door open, afraid that the kids is screaming for me or having any accident when im in the toilet.
5. Ben is getting heavy, Baby Sling is good to relieve my muscle ache alittle. Ben still likes to cry for me to carry him whenever he feels bored. Today i was shock, because the grandma pick him up when he cries, he still continue to cry,  so i have no choice to carry him, he stop crying immediately. sigh... I'm in big trouble (grandma only comes 3 times in a week - morning)

I don't know when i will have my maid, i dare not hope because i know i will be disappointed again. The maid that we have confirmed last 2 weeks cannot work anymore, because she has a mass in her stomach, she has to undergo operation to remove it. Now I'm still waiting for new biodata. What a Life ....

Ben's pearly white

Benjamin had his 1st tooth out at the bottom, the other side is not out yet. I hope the other side + the top teeth will be out in no time, he is fussing alot :( Despite feeding him grip water, i don't know what else i can relieve his irritation.

Beside this, he is learning to sleep thru the night i guess, these few nights he did not wake up after 12am. I had to wake up 5am+ to express my milk :( It's so painful that i cannot continue to sleep till 7am! However i think it's good because i can now store my milk in 8oz cup. Recently the amount i have had drop significantly during my usual pumping time, rarely i have 6oz full cup for storing, not to mention 8oz full cup. I just hope i have milk until ben had better appetite, to eat at least 3-4oz every 3 hours.

Ben also had 2 time solid right now + 1 portion of fruits. I had introduce him to a wide variety of food. Food from shelves (morning cereal + rice cereal to add to my home made puree), Jar food like heinz and my own cooking (i tried to cook food where ben & andrea can eat together for lunch). I follow most of the recipe book that i have bought last time, it does come in handy right now.

Short Trip to Singapore

Daddy's promise to andrea, to bring her to Singapore if she has 60 stamps (she get 1 stamp for going to school). This is how we reward her for going to school, but i have not expected she likes school as much as she does now. She really enjoy her dancing & singing class, during Parents Day at school, she did so well. I'm very Proud of her. 

We enjoyed our trip, the happiest person is andrea i guess, she bought so many things & enjoy watching her pink dolphin show. Daddy bought her a pink dolphin soft toys, she is still carrying it 24x7. We stayed at Swissotel, same hotel as we were here the last trip for amy's wedding. This time we park at the valet, it's so much more convenient, but of course cost more, but i guess it's worth the money. Room wise, we had the refurbish floor again, so overall our stay is very comfy.

We arrived at Singapore about noon, we headed to ang mo kio to have lunch - fish & co. The FISH is SUPERB, do some grocery shopping & headed to hotel for check-in. Dinner we had Crepe, healthy food yet yummy. After dinner we went to Robinson for household shopping.

Next morning, we went to the Zoo. This time we watched 2 animal feeding session - Elephant, Polar Bear & 2 shows (rainforest & penguin). At lunch time we had KFC, the fish burger also very NICE! Anyway, too bad it's raining, andrea was sad she couldn't play at the playground. Daddy bought her a small umbrella, i guess she is all happy again. After the kids nap, we went to Isetan for some household shopping again. We had Japanese food - Ramen.

The 3rd Day, we went to underwater sea at sentosa island, we wanted to see pink dolphin. Only Jelly fish amaze andrea at the aquarium, others were so so only. After that we went to the new compound where they keep & train their pink dolphin. The show was very short, but andrea enjoys it! After their nap at the hotel, we went to Takashimaya for household shopping, they have wide selection of household here. For dinner we had Cocoa, It's the best I have ever tried for so many years now. When Cocoa was just started in Malaysia, it was very nice. I'm glad i had a chance to eat it again in Singapore.

On our last day, we went to Vivo City. Did some shopping & leave Singapore by 12 pm. I love this trip.

Reiki Journey - 2

Needless to say, i do not have time to do it. I need about 60 min every night to do self healing, however im always too tired to finish it or i will be disturbed by ben (need to breastfeed him). However, i have successfully finish the whole course yesterday night and was feeling extremely energized after that. Sad to say, thus far i only have completed 2-3 times only.

I will try my best to do it every night & i hope when my new maid is here, i can join the monthly reiki class in KL. I think this is very good in terms of connecting the mind-body-soul. I seriously need this after a long tiring journey without a maid.

Both were attacked by virus

We brought both of them to the hospital yesterday because both of them were coughing, but andrea was worse because she complain that she couldn't breathe. Dr. musa was on half day leave, so we went and see Dr. siva. The visit was very pleasant as andrea did not fuss, i think it's because Dr has her favourite hello kitty sticker! I'm glad that i don't have to go thru emotional stress when visiting doctor this time.

Today andrea seems better, i think the nostril spray is really useful, we got this from doctor musa last time but did not know it can be used this way. Andrea's fever still hovering at 37 degrees, so we fed her paracetamol before she goes to school. She really likes school nowadays.

Benjamin on the other hand gone bad to worse today. He had fever the whole night yesterday till now. This morning touches 38 degrees, so i fed him paracetamol, now the fever is lingering around 37.5 degrees Celsius. I hope he will get well soon, I'm so worried & tired. He slept alot this morning, and drink alot too, in total from 8am to 1pm he had already drank 10 oz! I can feel the heat in his body that suck up all his fluid in the body. This is the 1st time he had fever for so long, about 12 hours now, it have no subside to 36 + degrees :( Despite breastfeeding him, he caught sickness from the sister 2 times already. Poor boy....