Breast Pad

I breastfeed both of my kids, i want to jot down what breast pad i've used :)

Andrea's time i only use NUK & mothercare breast pad. Ben time i use NUK, PIGEON & mothercare breast pad.

NUK & pigeon is for heavy use, when i know i do not have time to change. However, pigeon is cheaper last time & is softer, so i stock up ALOT. Now i do not know if i can use all of it when i stop breastfeeding ben. However pigeon breast pad is very expensive now RM27 for 24 pieces (sometimes u will get 2 for 1), last time was RM36 for 36 pieces (i always buy when they have 2 for 1 offer). NUK in the other hand is RM24 for 24 pieces (i also bought it when they have 2 for 1 offer).

Mothercare breast pad went thru alot of changes from andrea's time to ben. Actually i prefer mothercare's, cos i can change frequently (i don't like to wear the same pad for more than 4 hrs). I use mothercare's when im at home. Andrea's time the cotton was alright but when i stock up for ben's arrival, the cotton was so thin, the pad is not enough for my leaking breast even only for 1 hour! After that i gave them another chance, i went to another branch to buy it, the cotton then is not so thin anymore. Just recently i just bought another box, IT'S PERFECT!! They have changed the surface ... there is no little cotton string attached to my breast anymore (although not much last time but im very particular, now it's 100% clean). With the new surface improved & satisfied cotton thickness, I'm happy to stock up somemore for home use. The price is unchanged, M39 for 100 pieces.

Andrea 2yrs 9 mths

Andrea has been an angel for the past two days, she did not cry when i drop her off at school & she left the pillow at home too. She is back to normal now, i can see that she is more cheerful after isabelle's party on Sunday. She even told me that norelle asked her not to bring pillow to school yesterday and she really left her pillow at home this morning. I'm happy that she has friends at school that can bring up her self confidence & make her a more cheerful person.

amazing things happened:
1.c untuk ciku, b untuk buku [i was shock!]
2.image play at home. she become the mummy & all her plushie become her baby
3.image play with me. she become bus driver & bring me to the destination i want. alot of sound effect [very fun! hahaa]
4.can sing alot of chinese songs & some malay songs with action somemore
5.loves her brother ben - sing song to him, read to him and talk to him or do some stunts for him to see.
6.help me to fold handkerchief and her own pants
7.likes to run about (run in circle) with friends [saw it at isabelle's party]
8.know what she wants & not [very demanding at times]
9.tells me she wants birthday party for her 3 yr old birthday & want snoopy cake [pengsan, i dunno if i can find any] & want to invite all her friends [too many birthday party she went to i guess]. somemore she says - one snoopy cake for the party & one hello kitty cake at school! I don't know if i can fulfil that! hahaha.. terrible kid!
10.Can throw her pillow & soft toys very very high, almost reach the fan!

1 day to 5 Months Old

Benjamin has grown alot.
1.he looks smarter & intelligent. His eyes is very fast & he is super responsive
2.he likes to make lots of noise, i love that... it shows that he can speak really soon
3.he can sign 'milk' .. i think... lol... i asked him a few times and he open & close his palm slowly.. dunno issit natural reflex. I only teach him 'milk' currently
4.he has very strong backbone. can sit in the bath tub steadily, i only need one hand to hold him now.
5.he has very strong muscles too. always trying very hard to fall out from bumbo seat, i hope he will not fall. keep on bouncing his butt up6.he can squat, erm tummy down squatting. i never seen a baby doing this. i was so amaze seeing him doing it, i thought he can crawl right away. but he just squat like that, release but still at the same spot! haha...
7.he will call you when u walk past him or cry if he sees me walk away when he wants me to carry him
8.he is now pulling my hair, mama hair, and kung kung ears.
9.he likes to watch andrea's every move & every word. he will stare at his sister & make some sound sometimes.
10.he is still a light eater - 2oz every 2 hrs. I don't know what to do

Rotan

I cane andrea yesterday night, i know i shouldn't do it based on shichida method, GD & Tweedle Wink. I have to say sorry cos i really cannot control myself. The crying is driving me crazy & recently i became super superstitious because i can't find WHY am i going thru this (work & family is driving me nuts)

Andrea behaves very good today, did not cry when i send her to school & did not fuss over small little things the whole day. Daddy also did a good job by prepping her in the middle of the night.

I finally chant to Gohonzon yesterday night because i feel i seriously cannot control my heart & soul anymore. Alpha wave CD does help but it does not give me a solution, it only helps me to control my temper but it's not long term solution. After andrea slept, i went to gohonzon & start chanting.. cried initially because i fail to control my emotion again & began to feel strong because somehow someone telling me that "anger" has cause me this much pain.

I think back, i was such an angry person since benjamin's birth.. im angry with my old maid, my confinement lady, my mum, my husband, my boss, andrea, benjamin & myself. I did not have any solution either yesterday, at least i find my root cause, i will continue to chant to gohonzon today to fix my anger. I tell myself i cannot feel like this again & I'm confident that by chanting Nam Myo Ho Ren Ge Kyo can help me get back on my own feet again.

No Maid

I don't know what went wrong, i think i need to make some donation to some charity or believe in going to temple or believe in things that i have never want to belief last time. How can my life went this bad? sigh... but i'm ok right now to face another shocking news ... for the past 5 months things has not been smooth & I wonder will it ever STOPS!

Old maid went to airport and is being sent home because she could not produce the wedding invitation. Emigration asked what is she doing in KL, she said attending a wedding. Somehow she told me 1st interview went thru, but the 2nd interview asked to produce the invitation card because she saw that my husband's name in her air ticket & her old working permit. sigh... how can I overlook that.. i'm a BC right... blame it on the cloudy mind i had, not enough sleep & has to handle such a large amount of stress at home & at work.

I guess, i won't have maid until mid may now. If LUCKY, mid may i will have my maid back. But in such situation, will she still wants to come back? Her luggage is sent to Australia somemore today due to wrong tagging, sigh... I don't know if she can get her luggage back. sigh.. lol... not only i'm having bad luck!

Shall i resign? It's too much for me to handle. Mum is going to china in 2 weeks :( HELP!

Laughing

Ben loves to play andrea's beach ball. He can laugh out loud 'keh keh keh' whenever he sees us play or we let him kick the ball. If you want to hear him laugh... give him a beach ball :)

Benjamin loves to talk to ppl now, he can make lots of sound. Even we put him down alone, he makes lots of sound & of course later start calling for ppl. If he sees no one, he will then scream for ppl to pick him up! :s

Ben has many expression now too. He is VeRY happy to see me back from work. If i walk close he will stood his body up and smile, indicating he wants to be carried. I love my boy too much & feeling sad again because he needs to stay with the maid alone again. I hope he is OK with it. We are bringing our old maid back.

ben at 4 months

Time flies! Ben is at 4 months. Ben smiles alot, whoever talk to him he will smile. When i'm unhappy or feeling tired, i like to talk to him because he will respond to me and makes me happy again! Ben is drinking 2 oz - 2 1/2oz now, grandma did it for the past few days. Hope this will continue to be good.

I've been asking ben... "why you didn't bring your own maid here like your jie jie, why you make me suffer so much since you are born??" We have been looking for maid but none we like, the confinement lady also sucks... i wonder why... after i talk to ben, few days later, my old maid called me & tell me she wants to come back to work. Well.... she needs to wait for 3 months before going thru the agency process again. Hope her decision will not change during this period.

Ben can flip over on his tummy and flip over on his back very quickly now. But he is a little bit lazy because he cannot entertain himself by flipping, he would rather make lots of sound asking us to carry him. Ben is very responsive, when he wants something like carrying or milk, he sees you coming or holding his milk, he will make sound like 'he he he' and shake his leg vigorously, showing that he is happy. haha, this makes me laugh all the time.

I am very tired taking care of the house, but im glad that my mum is there to help. I cherish every moment with ben & staying over at my parents place. I know when my old maid is back, we will not spend this much of time together anymore. When old maid is back, i will not have this much time for ben anymore too. I need to work & earn more money.....

TW - 27 Feb 2010

I personally won't recommend TW. Because it's a franchise and the owner tend to be business minded & they don't really care if your kid get the best out of it. The class on that day has 4 children, including ben. 3 of them are age 1+, i seriously feel ben is not suitable for the class. The owner has told me that the material used is the same for age 0-3, i wasn't thinking properly when i was signing up that day. Until that day, i feel like 0-3 is such a big gap, and they should at least break down 0-1, 1-2 & 2-3 group. Materials could be the same, but the teacher conducting the class shall be different.

RM1200 paying shichida or TW, i would not recommend TW. However 1 of my friend sending her daughter to TW said her daughter likes it. So maybe it's just the 0-3 year old is not worth the money. I hope they can refund my money next week.