In Labour

The unbearable pain came in at 2am, well it's not really 100% unbearable, but i must have really deep breath for it when the pain strike! I took the TENS machine from my mum earlier & was wearing it since 12am. As i didn't want to go to hospital in the midnight, so i guess i could wear them to pull thru the night & of course i thought it was just braxton hicks, cos the contraction was not really that regular. It varies from 7min to 10min. It is really confusing!

at 2.15am i told my husband that i cannot tahan till 6am, we have to go now because the TENS machine does not help much by then i feel. So we arrived hospital at 2am, i was thinking to myself, GOSH another round of midnight epidural, i hope that dr. will not be as sleepy as last time :(. The mid wife checked me at 3am and said i'm 7cm dilated and it's too late for epidural!!! I have to bear with the pain! I dind't have the chance to clear my bowel too! yucks!

my gynae came in after 10-15min & baby was delivered after 30min (from the time we arrived at hospital & delivered)! what a fast process, but it was really painful. I scream my lungs out, the midwife asked me not to shout! haha... laughing gas did helped abit i guessed.. i'm not sure. This is the 1st time i've experienced the labour pain & i'm surely do not want it to happen another time. Time to close shop ....

Braxton Hicks Contraction

It started on Friday night which is irregular (2-3 times before sleep) & does not hurt. Saturday hit me a few times in a day (does not hurt too). Sunday was more, every 10 min after lunch till dinner time (does not hurt too). At mid night, the pain is more intense but keep my eye on the clock to see if it's regular -> NOPE, not yet. Had a few intense pain till 7am but irregular & i'm now still monitoring. Anyway, baby please wait till tomorrow.

Preparing 2

I was hoping to see parkson sale - RM10 voucher with every purchase of RM150. Hence i went and search on the internet and saw that it was the last day of the promotion (16 Oct 09)! I was panic because I saw this only at 5pm, hubby and i rushed to parkson KLCC after dinner, arrived at 8.30pm. Shop till 9.30pm... the staff there helped us to carry our stuff to our car, how nice :) 

what we have bought:

1. 2 Avent BPA-free breast pump

2. Avent baby monitor

3. Avent BPA-free bottle for breast pump

4. 3 via gourmet set

5. Pigeon tooth brush for andrea (time to change)

6. Pigeon rapid sterilizer

Voucher to exchange:

1. 5 boxes of nappy liner

2. 6 packs of wet wipes

3. 2 Pigeon glass bottles

4. Pigeon booties & mittens

I was very happy because all these are at 10-20% discount & after discount i'm entitled for RM10 voucher for every RM150. I saved quite alot i feel :)

Pregnancy Week 37

Went for checkup today, hubby fetch me there & accompany me to consultation. Mum fetch me back from DSH. 

I did not forget to ask about the weight, dr. said from the scan it says 2.6KG, but she believes that it's more than that. I'm relieved, cos my sis said baby above 2.8KG consider OK. Alright, dr. checked how much i've dilated today.. bad news - only 1 cm. She said have to wait for another week & needs to do more walking! Aww.. im feeling tired all the time now. Baby please don't make mummy wait for too long :( 

I'm hooked to internet problem solving these days, I know i have not been relaxing as much as i should have. The internet problem just kills me, i cannot work from home, well home as in my own home. I have to go to my mum's place because my internet line died on me. You can't believe how exhausted i was at my mum house, it was not as comfortable as my own home because i need to lie down on someone's bed & sitting on someone's chair & table. My Andrea would come and disturb me once in a while & i'm sweating all over by the end of the day. It has been 3 days now. Tomorrow i will stay home although stupid TM still have not solve our internet line problem, because we have bought Maxis broadband prepaid yesterday and it's awesome! 

Pregnancy Week 36

Went for a checkup yesterday. Gynae said water is enough, measurements are OK. She has given me the admission form & advice me to admit to hospital if there is 1. Pain 2. Water Bag Burst 3. show. The pain she asked me not to wait till 5 min interval, has to come in earlier cos second child might be faster.

I've just called ING to get the guarantee letter but he said i need to wait. If the GL is ready they will SMS me, i wonder how long it takes. I remember 2 years ago was immediate! Maybe the malay guy attend to me is LAZY. Well, luckily i still can wait till next week :)

Have not tell my maid about she moving to my mum house temporarily because we have no room for her when the confinement lady is here. Will do this next week.

Preparing

We are busy preparing stuff for myself & baby's arrival. Of course, we are passing many andrea's stuff to baby, Im afraid that andrea would feel less attention when baby arrived, so we bought her some new stuff too:
1. New Bed (pinky bed from Ikea)
2. Blankets
3. Pillow + cover

Myself:
1. Breast pad
2. Nursing gown
3. Handkerchief

Baby:
1. Changing top
2. Drawers
3. Mamypoko NB

More to come ....

Heart Burnt

Before i start, it has been very hard to logon to blogspot these 2 days!

I experienced heart burnt 2 days ago, anytime the whole day. I cannot remember i experience this during Andrea's time. However it has reduced today, when i eat too full only i felt it. Gynae went for holiday hence i only see her in 1 month's time, it suppose to be 3 weeks, hope everything is going fine. 2 weeks time to next visit!

Besides, i also feel heartbeat like in my tummy, but im really sure it's not braxton hicks. During andrea's time i also do not have these heartbeat like feeling. It has started since 6 months or so. However, im pretty sure it's not heartbeat because it's way too slow for a baby's heartbeat. I've asked gynae last visit, she said yeah, some ppl says baby hiccup inside, and said do not worry. I seriously do not know if this is normal. sigh.... a month to go, hope everything goes smoothly.

Leg Cramp

Leg Cramp has only came in at 32 weeks this pregnancy. Maybe i walk lesser this time as i work from home most of the time. Yesterday i had one attack & had one a week ago. So far only twice, so still not so bad. Had been taking black sesame powder, alternate days or lesser (forgot sometimes). I guess now should be able to remember because of the cramp!

Baby weight 1.9KG yesterday, i wonder if he will reach 3KG when delivered. I do not know tif he boy theory is correct, many says: ahh, boys usually are smaller! Don't worry.... but i know some who delivered boy were very big too! Just hope he is a strong & healthy baby!

Emotional Unstable

Due to the changing hormones, i have difficult time to calm myself. Every little things will provoke me or worries me, I'm so tired. Work has not been very pleasant, now i think it's my hormone causing all these unhappiness. Andrea is with me again this week & my maid is driving me crazy.

SHE WANTED TO USE ANDREA'S ROLLING PIN TO ROLL THE PIZZA DOUGH!

That is a toy OKay, although it's made of wood and looks like it can be used as a rolling pin to the dough, but NO! Crazy... she showed black face and refuse to eat the ham we left for her for breakfast. I throw that ham away after that in front of her.

Andrea has been pretending to cry lately too, or a real cry always with the maid. During bath time, meal times (3 times a day) & play time. It's driving me crazy, how can playing also CRY! I think my hormone is killing me, i cannot take all these small little things anymore. When is baby coming out?!

I feel so heavy

These few days, even i stand i need to hold on something to help me get up. Despite my not very favourable weight gain, thus far i have increased 6 kg at month 8, still i need this support & feel very tired even when only stand for 5 min. I no longer could carry andrea for long, hold heavy groceries bags & lie on the floor. 

What's different from previous pregnancy:

1. do not have to do housework but now need to read & sing to andrea for hours

2. now still need to drive and pump my own petrol at month 7-9, andrea needs some entertainment sometimes during Saturday. I'm afraid i can't do it when my legs cannot take the pressure

3. Cannot go out to have my favourite food as much as i can, due to H1N1. Hope my boy will not be a picky eater next time. Andrea started to show favourism towards the food i like to eat during pregnancy, such as japanese food, dine in Fridays/ Chillies, Pizza etc

4. No preparation thus far for the delivery, did not buy anything & have not think of where to put my confinement lady. No room for her as my maid has already occupy the maid's room. Most probably sleep with me, dunno OK or not.

5. Play alot of facebook game this pregnancy instead of reading, hope there are no bad influence to the baby

30 Weeks

I'm on my 30 weeks now & sad to say that i have not been practising Taikyo. It's really hard to do meditation when i'm having so much worries & stressed :( At night time, i would sleep at 9pm together with Andrea & woke up to start work at 8.30am. I know it's an excuse but i just could not do the meditation, easily get distracted because i'm thinking TOO MUCH recently. I just can't help it. How??....

Maybe shall try after work at 5pm. Hope i have got the mood.

Baby is kicking really hard now and likes to wriggle inside me. I've started bird nest last week, hope he gets some protein & grow bigger & fair like andrea. Hope he will be born no lesser than 3KG.

Eating Healthily

I'm trying to eat healthy this pregnancy. Learn about food that i should eat & should not eat during the shichida prenatal class. I have cut down my coke consumption ALOT, i think i do still drink once or twice a month. I just drank half a can on Tuesday afternoon, but i ate lots of sardine yesterday night :p

I will add my letchitin & wheat germ in my lunch if i can (if i take soya bean or porridge). I think i had it once a week, well.. maybe too little huh... will try to consume more. I also had black sesame added to my dinner once a week. Mum will cook millet & brown rice added to white rice once a week too.

Shichida is an excellent program but their service is not that excellent. I've attended their prenatal course about 1 1/2 months ago, the brain supplement that i ordered still have not arrived yet! It's taking too long! I've found online that one of the organic shop in Singapore is selling it, they just responded to my email today. I'm waiting for their account number so that i can TT money to them. I hope the delivery will not take too long. I'm 5 months preggy already, 4 months to go, i need to eat whatever i can! *Imaging that I'm getting it next week*

No time

I have no time to send energy ball to my baby for the past few weeks. Baby too did not kick as much and when i ask him to kick, he ignore me :(

Has been busy with my work (month end), life threatening event happening (so many ppl is sick - hubby, sis & one cousin who does not has any consideration), Farewell, Birthdays.... All in the month of June...

Hope July will be a peaceful month :)

down with flu again

It was started with Andrea, she has a runny nose past 2 days, we fed her paracetamol & Zyrtec & it stopped after a day or two. On her second day of flu i caught the virus! How fast and how weak i am, I hate it, now im with stuck nose, runny sometimes & feeling extremely tired :( I have some phlegm too, oh dear... pls be over soon

Went and visit the gynae again to get some medicine, surprisingly she gave me Zyrtec as well but in pills form. Baby baby, thank you to be so cooperative yesterday :)

I feel little kicks

After the prenatal class, i did not do the whole meditation process, i did a little bit.. like relaxing and sending energy ball for the past 2 nights. Yesterday night andrea was not feeling well, and she keeps on crying... i was awake and settle back to sleep when hubby is awake. I feel this little kicks on my lower tummy, i think baby is awake too... haha.. I hope these are not my imagination.. if not i think im in trouble.

The problem with shichida meditation is, everything in your mind. You send signal, send image to your baby, and u image your baby... i do not know this little kicks is real or just in my mind! gosh! Anyway... I trust my baby is feeling very happy now. Mummy Love you...

Shichida Prenatal Class

I'm glad that i've attended this cos it taught me about food that Nury institute did not elaborate in detailed. The course outline are more or less the same as Nury Institute. Nury institute was based on Glen Dorman's Finding and Shichida is based on Shichida's findings + jocelyn's research & experiences. I learnt about natural food from jocelyn & will try those & hopefully my baby will be healthier. However the 2 days course exchaust me, i'm feeling tired and nausea like b4!!

Now only i know that Andrea soft spot took so long to close, it is due to too much soft drinks intake during pregnancy! I drank coke everytime i'm out for dinner! 1 can of coke remove 18 sardines = amount of calcium removed from mother & baby! How scary.... :( I owe it to Andrea. Who say you can eat anything during pregnancy?? I believed that and see my little girl now she is so thin and soft spot has not closed 100% :( I'm really not a qualified mummy. I owe it to my girl, too much... I hope i could do better this time.

Shichida additional thing was that all the 5 senses is used, just like what Andrea did in class. There are a few non-shichida mothers, 1st time mum i guess, I'm not sure if they can fully understand & accept what is being taught! hahaha... I could hardly believe it until andrea joins shichida, i dind't know i could practise it on an unborn baby too. Its all in the mind and mothers need to open their right brain too, or shall i say use the alpha wavelength... i'm still practising and getting myself into this wavelength. Need full concentration.

Back to work

I've been working from home for almost 1 1/2 months, time flies, however i've not completely recovered from my cough, flu & morning sickness yet. I'm at my week 16 & 1 day today, 4 months already but still not yet ended... hope it will go away soon. I'm worried right now, because i do not know if there is any problem with my stomach, why is it still feeling bloated and nausea too..

1st day at work, feeling extremely weak. I'm just back from my lunch & feeling sleepy right now. Sigh.... during the past 15 weeks, i've not done much, lazy around as usual and sleep whenever i can. I did not bring andrea to any class and hubby did all the work for me from small little things to big things. I've no idea how can i survive without him.

I'm going for a break this weekend. Hope i could enjoy myself and morning sickness will end by end of this week! finger crossed!

a Little bit Better

These two days i feel a little bit better, nausea does not strike 24 hours anymore. I could have better sleep now despite still throwing up my breakfast/ lunch/ dinner, i felt very much like a human right now. The feeling of wanting to vomit really kills me, and how long does it last? about 2 months i think or a little bit lesser than that, Please Do Not Return!

I have also confirmed a place for Pre-natal class at Shichida in May, i hope i could gain some useful knowledge from there. I have also been working from home whole day for 3 weeks now, hopefully by May i have full energy to go back to work. I'm still feeling weak, can't stand for too long, can't concentrate for too long, can't walk for too long... all i did was lying down or sitting down.

No close friend is having a baby right now, i will be all alone going thru this pregnancy. I remembered having few pregnant friends together is fun and i feel more emotional secured, as in we complain the same thing and comfort each other because we are going thru the same, we exchange information on what to eat & exchange doctors advise etc, it's quite fun & enjoyable. I felt terrible this time, maybe i do not have anyone to talk to because hubby does not really provide me enough emotional support & with andrea around, it increases my stress level.

all in all, i hope i can go thru this & be a happy mummy!

How am i doing?

More than a week, im still feeling the same. I do not want to elaborate nor mentioned about MS, i just hope that it will go away by end of week 12! Keeping my finger crossed.

I work from home the whole week this week, thank god that i do not have telecon this week. However i do feel emotional threaten this week because of an evil friend that i have made and mistakenly brought her close to me at work. Since the day i told her that im pregnant, she start telling me real ghost related story that has actually happen around her or happen to her. I do not know how vicious this lady is but it does really affect my emotion. Hope my faith is strong and i could overcome this threat. Gohonzon, please keep me away from all these evils & give me strength to face it.

Not quite over yet

Life has been depressing. I cannot eat alot, i feel like vomiting 24hrs, feeling tired 24hrs, feel sleepy 24hrs, has metallic tongue, no energy to play with andrea or read to andrea, I feel that my life is so meaningless right now. When will this awful feeling disappear? I hate it.