Winter Solstice

I 'thought' it would be in good hands that I would have 'tong yuen' to eat. I guess I have gave it alot of confidence - in the end I do not get to eat any at all. How do I feel? I feel incomplete, it's of course part of it is the 'tong yuen' the other part is that - winter solstice is a day to be celebrated for chinese and the energy on that day is meant to be celebrated with family. We gave it away by talking to the maid about the porn she watched on my kid's ipad. I admit that I am dependent on things that i want, I have "more important things" to do (like lecturing my maid) - I learnt that I should let go of the lecturing nonsense in future and do what is important for that day! Prioritization. Anyway, I do hope and pray for a better companion and family to support my emotional needs when next time I have a "more important things" to do. Life really can't be solitary, where I need to do everything I want BY MYSELF! Like I told hubby yesterday night, I will go with someone who gave me that emotional support. Happy Winter Solstice.