Pregnancy

My girl turned 8 months 2 days ago. She was with me 1 year 5 months since i missed my menses last year. Still remembering the excitement i had holding the clearblue stick showing my husband and was quite doubtful on the other side because my menses are irregular. I was feeling ill for the week, we went and see our family doctor few days back and gotten some medicine (i was having flu & feeling bloated i think). however the condition get worst after taking the medication. Went back to the doctor and he suggested to have a pregnancy test.

I was quite happy because we only tried for 1-2 months to have my baby, i thought i would never have a baby because of my irregular menses. Since then, i felt very sleepy all day & weak till 4 months. Luckily i was with IBM & my manager allows me to work from home half day till 4 months. Vomiting only starts from 4 months to 7 months. However i dun vomit at work, only in the evening, before and after dinner. I get free leg massage everyday for 9 months and also free ride to work from hubby. I don't always get extra service from hubby unless I'm ill (real/pretend)/ pregnant/ breastfeeding.

I had alot of depression during 9 months of pregnancy.

Month 1-3, not sure if i am ready for a child/ becoming a mum. Although i have been planning but when it hits me i am confuse. Hubby did not gave me the emotional support that i need, and i cry very often. Luckly my mum is there to comfort.

Month 4-8, get overly concern about my size and pregnancy clothing. I put on alot of weight and i look superly ugly and reluctant to take photos thoughout the pregnancy. I have problem searching for maternity clothes as i only wear certain brand clothing. This limits my choice of maternity clothes as well, because only dorothy perkins & top shop has maternity clothes. After i gave birth, zara carry maternity range as well. Hence, I'm not too worry for the next pregnancy. hehe...

Month 9, hoping my girl will pop out very soon because i feel very heavy and uncomfortable at night. My girl pop out at 38 weeks! I'm glad :)

Throughout the pregnancy, my mum make chicken essence soup & bird nest for me. That's all the good nutrient i've taken. My favourite food during pregnancy are Potatos & coke! and ice-cream Too! All fattening food huh! Anyway, I have put on 12KG in total throughout the pregnancy, i think it's ok. cos doctor did not ask me to go on diet!

Weight lost very dramatically after given birth. Lost 7 KG after 1 week, 9 KG after one month, 11 KG after two months and 13 KG after three months! I breastfed my girl and i have ALOT of milk, i think this is the reason why i lost weight this fast! I am slowing down my milk expression now, planning to stop anytime soon. My Milk storage now sufficient for another 2 months :p Hence, my girl will have breastmilk till 10 months, at least!

I had my checkup and delivery at Damansara Specialist Hospital under Suzanna Huam. I won't recommend friends to go to her as she has recommend a anaesthetist that nearly scare me to death and i think my nerve is affected due to his careless mistake. This malay anaesthetist poke me 3 times to insert the needle (epidural) and before he do it, he re-emphasize that this will cause me paralyse if he is not careful. Damn shit! where on earth doctor will say this, because i have already signed on the consent letter and he still wants me to say OK verbally to him! I lost all the confident i had in him and there it goes, three pokes & scolding from him. After second poke i asked if i can rest for awhile, he said if you wanna rest, i won't do it for you!!! I was SO HELPLESS and feeling abused! My total hospital fee cost RM5K. It was a very bad delivery experience...