Fainted

Never had once I fainted outside ALONE. This morning i felt uneasy already - little dizzy and stomach discomfort, was asking hubby shall i go to work, as usual no respond from him, even he said something but it does not give any suggestion. Hence i decided to go to work and send andrea off. I told andrea I might ask grandpa to pick her up if i feel sick in office, she responded OK. 

While at work, it was OK because i sat on my desk all the while, when i feel my vision blur i stood up and go to the toilet, i thought it was normal because staring at the screen for too long. At 12.20 i got up and went to the lift, it has MANY people, so i took the lift up and down again to B2, it might because I've stood for too long and not because of stuffiness because when i was in the lift i thank god that the air con is just below me and i can feel the 'wind' - i thought nothing will happen. When the lift is heading down, i feel my legs are weak and suddenly my thinkpad drop on the floor unconsciously - my hands are weak too and everyone around me look at me, I started to see stars, i could not see properly anymore. Im panic and tell myself please don't faint, be strong be strong. My body does not listen to me, mei kuen was standing in front of me asking me if im OK, i told her i feel dizzy, she quickly gave me her hand to hold on to. I was very lucky to have her in the lift with me, at least i feel comfortable with someone that i know. She and her friend escort me to my car and i rest in my car before picking up andrea. mei kuen was one of the PM when i was in ITD. Thank God that you have send someone to be with me when i needed someone. I feel blessed

Called hubby, he asked how am I and said will bring me to see doctor at night. I rest at mum place, got up and feel dizzy somemore, i could not take it and asked dad to bring to doctor, doctor gave me injection at the buttock - stomach flu. Whole day is an episode that I do not want to repeat again, it's very scary and i feel uncomfortable. I give thanks to mei kuen and dad for giving me a hand when i need the most. I just hope ben will not get this because he is having fever today too :( 

What a DAY!

Cleared

Did the distant SRT clearing. I feel energy flowing in me when i read KW FB message (no kidding) - lasted for 15-20min every time he replied. The clearing is fast, he just responded my FB message today at 11am - told me he has did the SRT clearing and gave me some notes. He does not tell me about my past and I did not push as well because i find it is insignificant. Most importantly he gave me some insight, new focus. For my own record:

1. Clear Subconscious Clutter (I had alot), Clear Race Beliefs, Clear World Energies, Clear Curses, Clear Vows, Clear Multiple Souls (I had 98, he said its quite alot - he said the souls decided to follow us when we were born, he said everyone has it - depend on how many only), Clear Scarring, Clear Soul Programs [Standard Clearing Checklist]

98 lost souls has followed me for 29 years, Good Bye and I do not want any souls following me. Give me back my peace and I want my own life back. Go Follow the light instead. Thank You

2. My Soul Qualities for this lifetime - being born with Courage, purpose & direction, self esteem, obedience (KW said this is not as the word, this means I have strong connection with the universe - goddess or whatever you call it. It's like the next spiritual master. No wonder I'm on this path and I consider myself to be 'young' entering spiritual world). Challenges for this lifetime - Affection, Love, Security & Resource

3. Main issue engaging KW is my uncontrollable anger - intolerance to less than perfect [how true]. Blocks to positive expression - Listening, Acceptance, Peace, Determination 

4. Negative Motivation in me:-

a. Power (parallel universe) - Faulty understanding and approach to perfection. Meaning, I think I'm less than perfect to create anything and it can be a success. Actually I can do anything and is mighty. Action: KW recall all scattered energies (lifetime, ppl, places & things) and take part in creation of new universe. The BIG soul breakdown to many parts and is holding >100 'jobs'. KW reduced to a minimum of 8, so that me, nx me  and BIG soul can concentrate to work on divine plan 

b. Manipulation (parallel lifetime) - Harm relationship (mental < emotional) with my husband (father) where I'm the Mother. Meaning with children, I have emotional relationship with my husband. Parallel lifetime means, not only me, another me also having this problem. Action: fix myself.  

5. Negative Feelings in me:- straight to UNLOVED. He said usually ppl will linger on the chart and show a few, he said my connection is very strong, straight away gave him this. WHY i feel UNLOVED:- I believe in believe, for leaving spiritual realm for incarnation. Hence the 'need' of soul to do many things to proof worthiness. Meaning, i feel sad to leave spiritual realm, maybe i think that i was disowned by the BIG soul (i'm part of the BIG soul). It should be replaced by :- WILLING - a joyful and loving (unconditional) choice to connect experience life in physical world.

6. Negative ego in me:- VICTIM (affect thoughts). Meaning i always feel I'm a victim, how true! hahahhaa. 

7. Spiritual centered attitude to cultivate:-

a. Unchanging Self Worth. refer 4.a.

b. 'school' - learning on earth. Meaning learn whatever now and apply 

8. High Self says use Mahatma Energy to heal myself, I'm connected to this. Gosh, best healing tool! KW said usually other ppl will show like angels, christ, etc. Mahatma is 352 layers from the earth, jesus, buddha, kuan yin, etc are 22 layers from the earth. So he said my high self tell me to connect to Mahatma Energy instead. All the while that I'm feeling actually I know more than the religion, now it proofs me right! 

Anyway, all that was told, 80% I already know thru self-realization and also bazi. Nothing new to me, all i need to do - healing somemore until i reach the state where I have complete self control and see the magic pouring into my life. I feel Happy with this session because it confirms and summarizes things that I think I know about myself and also bring me closer to my BIG soul. He was too busy with >100 'jobs' and forgot that i was one of them, now that KW has consolidate and reduced to 8, I think BIG soul should be able to manage me better. Thank You.

10 things at 1yr 3mths

1. Just 2 weeks apart, ben knows eyes, ears, mouth, tongue, head, hands and legs. 

2. Hubby brought him to shichida class for 2 weeks now, ben can do rub hands, energy ball and close his eyes when sensei ask him to. Amazing! Sometimes i feel that hubby's energy are more clam than mine, both kids show amazing results when hubby is with them. I wonder WHY. I witness it at home, hubby asked ben to show me. I'm surprised! 

3. Ben can dance to music really well, grandma said but ben refuse to dance when i'm around. I wonder WHY

4. Ben started to do shichida worksheets (hold his hands and write the numbers and also help him to recognize colors)

5. He starts to jump, but still can't lift both legs. At his age i think is a little too early for 15months old to jump. By CHANCE, he can lift one leg up high and the other just above the floor. AMAZING!! The fun part is to look at him trying to jump. I shall capture it with camera - sometimes I'm just too lazy to rush for a camera. 

6. Purposely take andrea's pillow away from andrea and make her sister cry or scream - just for the fun of it! Naughty right? Cheeky boy!

7. Purposely take andrea's turtle away when she is not looking, when andrea snatch back, ben will take andrea's hello kitty and hug it. showing hello kitty is enough for him and he loves hello kitty more. Andrea will not snatch hello kitty from ben. 

8. walking up the stairs without holding hands or crawling. Walk like an adult when going up the stairs! 

9. Is able to reach the lift button now! 

10. Appreciate baby sign DVD now and loves to watch 325 astro at grandma house. 

1year 3months 3weeks & 6 days old

Detachment

Found Great Website on detachment

" Detachment is an inner state of calmness and being uninvolved on the emotional and mental planes. It is definitely not indifference. People who are indifferent do not care about anything, and are not active and initiative. On the other hand, people who possess emotional and mental detachment can be very active and caring, though they accept calmly whatever happens. Such people accept the good and the bad equally, because they enjoy inner balance and peace. If they cannot do or change something, it does not disturb their peace of mind. If they are convinced of the importance of some action, they will pursue it whole-heartedly, and can ignore distractions easily. "

To remind myself:

"What happens when somebody says to you something that you do not like? You will probably become angry, unhappy or insulted. Why is this so? Because you value other's people words and opinions more than you value your own thoughts and opinions of yourself. You let other's people thoughts, words and actions influence your happiness, actions and reactions. Your happiness and actions depend on them. On the other hand, if you are able to stay detached, you will not be disturbed. You will stay calm. You will even be able to benefit from what they say. You will not waste hours thinking about their words."

The author of this website obviously knows alot of things, from law of attraction book that I've read, Imaging from shichida, non-duality from spiritual webpage, motivation book tips were all consolidated here in this website. Alot to read but it's good for self development. Glad that i have found a page where everything in ONE. Thanks Remez Sasson!

another source:

If resistance to meditation is a common feature of your practice, then you should suspect some subtle error in your basic attitude. Meditation is not a ritual conducted in a particular posture. It is not a painful exercise, or period of enforced boredom. And it is not some grim, solemn obligation. Meditation is mindfulness. It is a new way of seeing and it is a form of play. Meditation is your friend. Come to regard it as such and resistance will wash away like smoke on a summer breeze. - from mydeepmeditation

Ever Changing

Got into office, get documents ready for AMEX application, saw email from prem - global decided to move the training to Q2 because Q1 travel expense submission is closed. Was not feeling disappointed because checked the airline and saw the only airline i can take (shortest route) is KLM and take 17 hours with 1 transit! Honestly I'm not those human/ soul that likes to travel without luxury or at least comfort. At least i need MAS airline and have some friends to chat for 17hours flight! All 3 years going back and forth to UK and KL, i ONLY take MAS. Seriously i think to myself, NO THANK YOU to IBM. Jet Lag somemore? It's a tough adjustment, maybe because I've been there to vienna, so it does not really interest me at all. Anyway - want to work? Have to obey. That's the rule. Whatever lah - but hope not Vienna lah,SPAIN better. kekeke

Had Mental illness, that went on and off, mum advise me to see doctor and take medicine. That is a short term cure to me, I've yet to find out the root cause. It may sound scary but i'm engaging SRT (Spritual Respond Therapy) to find out my root cause - back to the past life. Being an insane woman has actually freak myself out because at this level i can no longer control myself. Every little thing provokes me and lost myself. I feel pain inside when i lost control and I cannot turn to anyone because no one can understand me. Remembering life is ever changing, I hope to change for the best! 

Re-attend Reiki 2. Learn many things and hear many wonderful experiences. Things i want to jot down:

1.When request for something, say it three times - the universe will only respond [have to feel it as well]

2. During attunement, my left side of the body [shoulder area] is soar. I asked KW issit because my head-neck-shoulder-arm still hurting that's why i still feel the strong energy being absorb there. KW respond differently this time. He said: Your Heart Chakra needs lots of healing., let go of your logic and beliefs. HOW HE KNOWs? after this i share with him my soreness on my heart chakra after scolding my maid and ask him what can i do because I have serious mental illness now :( 

I come back and google Where is your heart : The heart is located under the rib cage, to the left of the breastbone (sternum) and between the lungs. All the while, it could be my HEART, not my left shoulder-arm that carry ben till it become weak. I have long term mental illness - my heart chakra is seriously damage without my knowledge until last saturday. I have 1 incident that i nearly got blind when andrea was 1yr+, i had serious head spinning when ben is below 1yr old. I have high cholesterol in my last blood check up. Why am i so unhappy after graduation - life is ever changing - be wise.choose.be happy

2011 resolution - detachment and emptiness.

Wish granted

My last post, I asked universe to give me time & space, sometime away from all the issues I have. Universe grant me what i needed - company trip to Vienna, Austria for 5 working days, in total would be about 7 days to fly there and come back. Happy or sad? Was extremely excited when I first got the news because this education was initially plan to be in KL and i had to become the admin to book rooms for the whole world! Now the whole world is going to Vienna! Yeay! No need to become admin :) Back on earth - grounded and felt sad because i'm gonna leave my kids behind for work and I had to go ALONE -  Representing ASEAN :( Got other Business Controls friends lah, but not very close, those close ones had move on to another role like Korea, ANZ & China. Will definitely make new friends :) 

Anyway, this is my first company trip. The previous trip suppose to go US, but then they only select the pilot countries - china & Germany to go. So all other countries like myself have to stay back, we actually submitting the visa already, however company was still not doing very good i guess so cut down the expenses. That was Productivity Tool portion, i guess they do not have alot of budget. This business controls has alot of money i guess, when i was on LOA last year they went to Korea. Actually i prefer Korea, but well ... anything lah. as long as don't come to KL. Hate being a host, especially have to entertain all the headquarters people, American slang is actually very hard to understand and they don't understand me as well. GOSH! Nightmare when talking over the phone. One of them can take Indian slang! Impressive! 

Having to work in an ASEAN role is great because you can hear people talking English in different slang. hahaha, worst part is that you cannot hear what they say, initially i had problem with Thailand, Vietnam and India people. It's so embarrassing that you had to ask them repeat themselves. On the other hand, i had to talk word by word like an robot when i give education over the phone. Those were the days. Right now they used to my Malaysian slang, I feel more at ease :) work can be fun when they give us yearly travel like this to do shopping in other countries :) 

Sei Hei Ki

Want to get away from reality, thought want to move out to somewhere so i can have a peace of mind. I can't do it because my EG (eating god) is not clashed but hubby one is, so maybe he will just leave us without saying anything this year. I want to go somewhere but dunno where to go, my parents place? no .... friends place? no .... Hotel? maybe. I think if i ever want a peace of mind my choice will be Hotel :) IBM Corporate rate is quite cheap anyway. 

My heart chakra is very very soar. I can feel it at the back of my spine, did fish pose this morning and felt better now it came back again. Did healing this morning but gone to waste because i release my anger again this morning because 'she' open the new zara hair accessories and THROW away the BAG! I scream again. I scream so much yesterday that I feel so so weak, I slept 3 hours in the afternoon but slept again at 9pm at night. I feel so exhausted and feel that the bad energy is so heavy inside myself especially my heart chakra. I'm really very weak now, I don't like to be angry but I can hardly control the anger when things don't go my way. I don't wish to look at 'her' face because it will bring anger to me - the problem is in me, i know, but how not to be angry when i feel so disappointed in myself for picking her to become my maid. Looking at her face, remind me of how foolish I am for picking her in the first place. Her present makes me so upset because I treat her so good - let her have mobile and buy reload for her, buy clothes and shorts, purposely buy biscuit because scared she is hungry, use the washing machine to wash her clothes, let her have our share of all the good things like peaches, chocolates, juices, restaurant food etc. Is all worth it? I feel so stupid for doing all these! No body appreciate it, back to square 1 for my problem. I'm so tired and do not want to look at it anymore. 

Hubby say I'm no use because I don't know how to manage people. No wonder in IBM I have no opportunity to become people manager. I know that is true but I do feel helpless and sad even people don't say it, i know it myself. Now Hubby tell me in the face, I feel extremely sad because I'm a failure in work and I'm a failure as a SAHM and a total failure to be the boss for 'her'.  What on earth can I do? I don't know, I feel like going to the temple to become a nan because there is no hope, no happiness and no more love. God bless me. I need peace to build my stamina again. I know peace is inside myself, but please universe, give me peace - time & space [Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen]. Thank you

Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen - No Past, Present, Future

Sei Hei Ki - Purify, Cleanse & protect Emotion

Fantastic Weekend

Had a fruitful weekend! Feel so much connection and enjoy every moment of it :)

1. Visit a good friend, catch up and best of all she just conceive with second child! Her son is as big as andrea, boy being boy they are more active and approachable. 

2. Had lunch with unimates at Fukuya, it's good to see old friends once a year. Has been talking to them over phones and FB, it's really good to see them face to face once in a while, so we don't only talk to the phone and computer screen. Will upload the photos tonight. My weekends are SUPER busy, i love weekdays :) 

3. Dinner with Alvin and his wife, was caught by surprise that he already got married more than one year ago! He has got a semi-D in leeds and will definitely pay a visit (free accommodation!) when my boy can eat fish and chips!

4. Sunday as usual - Violin and Shichida

5. Sunday Dinner at Ming Room again, try ALL of their set with parents and Kim + bf. RM88++, RM128++, RM148++ set. Phew, it was really delicious! Satisfied! Good thing is i can try all of them, ask for 1 mouth donation from everyone. hahaha... The dessert is heaven - Durian pudding, Melon sago and Almond pudding!

Tomorrow holiday again! Yippie!! Will be going to Ikea to buy towel rack, saw at Gudang the one I like cost RM1180, I think can buy 10 racks from Ikea! hahaha ... Many things I like is crazily overpriced, I hope one day I can afford those overpriced item like I always buy from Ikea :) The day will come when I can control myself/ mind fully. Now still quite cacat - machine turn on and off sometimes.

Free Meditation Link

Since back from KK, I've lost my focus to meditate. Yes, i still meditate, but the warmth on my hand has reduced tremendously, however i still feel the heat when my hand left the previous position. WHY? 

1. Contacted with too many people (we carry different energy)

2. Too many things in my head (job/ business) + still adjusting to new maid

We are mirror of each other, even you don't gossip with me, show anger towards me, but the energy you carry i can feel it. The energy is very dense. Phew .... During CNY really met with alot of people and somehow it affected me, not that i want the negative energy to be transferred to me, but somehow it will. That is why JY said, mix with successful people and you will be successful, mix with poor people and you will be poor for this lifetime. It is somehow transferred and cannot be seen with our naked eyes, that is why monk and people who meditate avoid the crowd. Can i avoid? of course not lah, how to survive ALONE in this universe? I pray that I only attract people who has lots of LOVE, compassionate, kind and helpful. Kindly repelled mean and gossiping folks that brings no value to the universe. 

Meditation + affirmation has bring me to a new level - i experienced emptiness mind when meditating. currently i try to achieve that emptiness i've experienced before CNY, however it's tough unless I'm really relax and be able to concentrate. It's nice feeling when you bring your awareness back, it's like a whole new you. Need to practice somemore and hope my rojak mind will stop rojaking and give me a peace of mind. Shoulder pain gone but dizziness is not completely off yet. menstrual suppose to come but didn't, don't know what's wrong inside, past 1 month already, maybe 2 months once again? but let my body to be at ease, growing fatter and dizzy - hormone imbalance i think. I Love you body, please go back to your original state. 

Found this website on meditation: 

http://www.freemeditations.com/

I like this from the website:

Widen the vision of my unseeing minds eye so in passing faces I'll recognize not just a stranger, unloved, and unknown, but a friend with a heart and soul that is much like my own.

Baby Sign

Ben start signing extensively:

1. andrea sleeping while daddy carrying her in the lift - ben sign "sleep" showing daddy that andrea is sleeping

2. sign "more" when we took out something he wants to eat

3. sign "smelly" when he poop or we say smelly
4. sign "where" when we ask him where?

5. sign "fan", "duck", "frog", "flower", "bib", "milk", "hat", "comb", "shoe & socks" - point to the leg, "fish", "butterfly", "rabbit", "pig", "elephant", "cake - clap his hand ie sing happy birthday song" - when i read him his picture book

Maid start to teach him 

1. eyes

2. nose

3. ears

4. hands

5. hair

Last but not least DANCING. lol .... 

Still only say 'nana' = Banana, but somehow everything he point now, he will say 'nana'. Don't know why .... hahaha. Start potty train or not? Not yet, slow right? Need to buy panty first, mummy is the one who doesn't put effort. tsk tsk .... OK tomorrow i buy if can :) 

1year 3 months 2 weeks old

Hyatt Regency Kota Kinabalu

We always opt for the club room when we stay in a hotel, 24 hours free beverages, free wi-fi, free cocktail & tea and most importantly less people (private space). With 2 kids around i needed that alot because i do not have 100% concentration 'watching' over my kids, they just do whatever they want when i'm busy eating or reading at the lounge. I never have to worry my kids are hungry because there will be food and drinks around the clock for free. Needless to say the rooms are a bit bigger, perfect for my 4 big bags and a baby cot to fit in this time. 

Hyatt Regency KK have just refurbished, so everything is very new. We are very happy with it, the service staff is also very helpful and friendly that makes our stay very pleasant. The hotel located at the central, KFC and Burger king is just opposite our hotel. Shopping mall is also 5-10min walking distance. Upperstar grill and bar is hubby's place for drinks with his friend when the kids and I sleeping, it is also just opposite the hotel. Here are some pictures of the hotel.

Hyatt Regency Kota Kinabalu

Hyatt Regency Club Lounge

Regency Club Room

开工 大吉

No cure for me, i went for JY talk and the date and time given by JY is not suitable for me. So i came back and open up my dong gong book (ask Mr. Dong), 7th Feb is inauspicious, 8th feb is auspicious but it's a horse day and i'm sitting on rat (clash) - no good effect on me, 9th feb is SUPER inauspicious, 10th feb is inauspicious, 11th feb is auspicious but it's a rooster day and I have a rooster in my chart (self punishment) - no good effect on me. WHOLE week no good day for me to start work :( Quite depressing but i do not want to 'feel' it. Go Away! 

Anyway i planned to go back to work on monday which is 7th feb, but universe stop me from going to work and gave me an headache, so i went office today. It's a good day but i will not get any good effect. Sigh ... sometimes you want to have date selection but somehow the timing is not right. Just like this, HOW? life goes on ....... 

MAS GOLDEN LOUNGE

We had our 1st Business class flight to Kuching, it was a nice experience because the chair is huge and you can literally lying flat. Going to Kota Kinabalu only available in airbus - small plane thus do not have the privilege lying down flat this time. Air crew called us by name, even my kids and of course the service is very attentive and personalized. The flight was full for returns from KK and also Kuching. We opt for Business class because i needed larger space to walk and sing along the aisle when ben is fussing. As ben is above 1 year now, the bassinet at business class is also bigger :) 

We enjoy the Golden Lounge the most as there are ample and comfortable seating and a reasonable selection of food and beverages. Not forgetting free wi-fi too :) We love the experience of things available there, not so much of the staff service because we hardly interact with them. My kids love the space for running and also the kids play room available there. Golden Lounge made my waiting time to be very comfortable with kids around. Here are some photos from KL and Kota Kinabalu Golden Lounge.

KLIA MAS Golden Lounge Food Selection

KLIA MAS Golden Lounge Play Room

NEW KKIA MAS Golden Lounge 

KKIA MAS Golden Lounge Food Selection & Play Room

Not Feeling Well on the 5th of CNY

Woke up today with extreme head spinning again, wanted to go to work but can hardly move. Sat for a few moment and meditate, seems better until start getting up. I have decided to stay at home and rest, I seriously have no idea what happen :( I surrender myself and I'm on my knees, please tell me what i shall do with my body, I want to be healthy and strong once again. 

Hubby came back at 9.30am, had the urge to swim, so i asked hubby to sit by the pool, just in case my head spins when I'm in the water. Surprisingly when I'm in the water no head spinning but once i got up i can feel a little. After bath when drying up my hair, it came back again. I cannot look down or left right even i do it slowly. I hope tomorrow i can go to work because i do not want to waste my leave, i have so many places to go this year and have to move to new house too. Please give me the wisdom to heal myself. Divine Power please guide me.  

The Ming Room

Here is what i had for dinner on the 4th day of CNY. The Ming Room is famous for their food quality, today their presentation of food was very extraordinary :) I enjoy the dinner tonight, we ordered RM88++ set per person. These photo was taken with my iphone as i did not expect the presentation of the food to be different.

1。谜你捞生 (Mini Salmon Yee Sang)

2。南瓜云吞炖勾翅 (Double-Boiled Coral Shark's Fin soup with Wanton in Pumpkin)

3。法式炬响螺 (Baked Sea Clans French Style)

4。意式西班牙猪扒 (Pan-Fried Iberico Pork Chop)

5。鲍鱼炬饭 (Baked Rice with Abalone)

6。Almond Pudding

南瓜云吞炖勾翅
(Double-Boiled Coral Shark's Fin soup
with Wanton in Pumpkin )

The Ming Room, BSC - 法式炬响螺
(Baked Sea Clans French Style)

意式西班牙猪扒 
(Pan-Fried Iberico Pork Chop))

鲍鱼炬饭 
(Baked Rice with Abalone)

Almond Pudding

The Ming Room

Bangsar Shopping Complex

3rd Floor, KL

Phone No: 03-2284 8822
www.orientalrestaurant.com.my

CNY at Kota Kinabalu

It was a tiring trip, my head spinning episode happened twice and it's freaking me out. Luckily my healing energy is helping me, at least i'm fit for the day. I need to do healing twice a day to make sure my head don't spin! Carrying ben excessively is still bad for my health, I wonder when it will stop or i shall say completely recover from my injured head-neck-shoulder-hand. Don't think reiki is healing it 100% because it came back, but at least it's under control when i put 'power' to it! lol ...

Had a pleasant trip because it's so comfy - hotel and flights and we meet alot of people and i enjoy myself alot seeing other people's children and also catching up with one of my uni friend. My sister in law is kind enough to cook ben all his meal (lunch and dinner), which i'm really thankful for her kind gesture. My kids are quite obedient as they are not sick nor had any major accident. This trip me and hubby manage the kids quite well - did not had major worries nor fight. 

My parents sent us to the airport at 5am, gosh.. i think they woke up at 4am. Felt really happy seeing them before i fly off because this year cannot spend CNY with my parents. Arrived at KK at 10am - lunch at IL's - send pei to airport - check in at hotel - rest - dinner at IL - back at hotel - Sleep :) Day 2 - breakfast with IL - Beach - burger king lunch - house hoping until 6pm - dinner at IL - fire cracker/ fire works gathering at IL - meet with uni friend - back to hotel - Sleep :) Day 3 - breakfast - SIL house - lunch to celebrate MIL birthday - visit to auntie susan - back to hotel - rest - dinner at sushi tei with hubby's friend - back to hotel - Sleep :) Day 4 - breakfast - SIL house to pick up porridge - Air port - KL - Home Sweet Home :) 

Andrea enjoy herself alot as she loves to play with her cousins and hubby's friends kids (especially the twins). Ben enjoy himself alot too i guess, 1st time seeing him fight with other kids (cousins) over some toys and he had his 1st fall at restaurant which left a mark on his forehead and 2nd accident at Hotel breakfast. Boys Boys Boys ... oh dear ... I'm tired! Luckily they are still in good condition :) Hubby enjoy the most i guess because he had drinks until 2-3am for 2 consecutive nights. Myself, despite the head-neck-shoulder-hand pain, i think i ate quite ALOT until i put on 2kg! That's bad.. really really bad. 

Will be going to KK again in 2H11 for Pei's convocation. Great trip, don't mind another one :) 

15 months old

Did the shichida milestone charting last Sunday, Linguistic only 1 improvement. Gosh, i'm seriously neglecting my boy. Other 3 areas was OK, as i mark many for the other areas, i look closely to this Linguistic details and found out that it's actually my fault of being LAZY. Having to know where are the head, eyes, ears, nose, mouth, hands etc is so easy if i keep on repeating to him, calling daddy and mummy would be easy too if i keep on repeating to him. Ben can now say 'nana' = banana. He start reading books and has interest in it, GREAT milestone! Oh, he can say - 'ty' = dirty and 'nish' = finish + showing finish sign

Daily he will read the book i bought from popular and yesterday by surprised he go and get the book himself and wants me to read for him. All these needs to cultivate, it's actually not my boy do not like books. Ben boy, you need to start saying words by next month OK? I need to tick some boxes for the milestone chart OK, i feel so bad when you shows no improvement from last 6 months! Ben started to ask people to play with him by pulling our hands and ask people to 'sayang' or kiss his head/hand when is painful.

Another problem is that i want to potty train ben but he doesn't like my maid. How can i potty train my boy. I notice that he will tell me or do something unusual after he pee or poo. This is one of the milestone in shichida milestone chart, i really hope i do not let this opportunity pass because if we ignore it, the baby will not tell us or show us before or after they pee or poo anymore until they can start talking properly. Panic, where's my nobleman. Ben is not drinking milk properly too, where's milk nobleman to tell me what should i do? I'm worried but no idea how to improve his intake. He is SOoooOo skinny. I'm going to get the comment of why your boy so skinny this CNY i guess. Please put on my buddha ears. I also don't wish my kids to be a skeleton OK. -PEACE-

I'm going to fire my maid if benjamin still do not like her after 1 month. Helping me or giving me more trouble (screaming babies)! Sigh ... I don't need to pay 1K + food + utilities for people to clean my house OK. I can clean myself!