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nodding head

Benjamin starts to nod his head 1 week ago, he will nod his head when we:
1. ask if it's nice (food or things)
2. Sing him a song
3. Is happy when he sees we are doing something

He tries to clap his hands but could not, he told his two hands together and sway left and right when we asked him to clap

He is able to put coin-like things into a box, i have maid him a 'coin box' where i used my daily contact lens case as 'coins', ben is able to put that contact lens case into the 'coin box'.

Ben likes singing but so far did not show sign of wanting to read.

10 months 3 weeks  4 days old

andrea started drawing

I am amaze that andrea draw some flowers for me today, previously she drew circle-oval-scribble, it's hard for me to see what is it. Today i can see it's a flower, big circle in the middle and small circle (many) around it. I have just enroll her to genioart, and only have attended 1 lesson. I don't know if that helps her to draw properly, when she came back she drew a rabbit for me, have to guess abit but today flower is amazing! I'm so happy for her... Andrea took out the standstill i brought from ELC about 6  months ago, now she enjoy using it and colour one of her favorite picture - one mushroom with 3 colours! I'm glad that the mushroom has many colours, hahhaa, I'm so afraid her right brain has already shut  or close to shutting like the founder of genioart comment!

I don't know if it's the power of love, my girl behaved so well and wanted to give me kiss and hugs all the time. She is very well behaved too... like eating, bathing, helping me to keep her toys etc. She even talk non-stop and sing in teh car like she used to when she was 2+. I was so happy yesterday because i dream that i was laughing in my dreams and woke up feeling happy, 1st time i guess or it has not been happening for very long now. In the day, i text my old maid, to say thank you to her because she has given me the freedom despite i have andrea and i i must from her the motivation and kind heart that she has. We have been texting each other because i need to find comfort, i always tell her when i sent back my maid, right now i do not have to do this anymore, i find it i'm feeling self-pity whenever i text her and told her about my bad news. However i'm very grateful that she is there and she mean more than a friend than maid to me. I want to continue feeling good to receive magic in my life

3 years 3 months

Gratitude

I used to be impatient until year 2010 where i had a turning point in life.i learnt how to love and to live better by using the universe energy = LOVE force. I am grateful for everything happen that makes me realize the ultimate secret in life because i have been trying to put all the pieces together, trying to see the big picture but i can't until in the month of September 2010 - it's a magic, all broken pieces i kept in my pocket fixed themselves for me to see the real WORLD. I'm so happy and want to share it with all the people i love, but i don't know where to start because everyone's experience is different and i picked up the pieces from various religion - SGI, Buddhist, christian, bazi, reiki, shichida, books and science about universe. I cannot thank you enough Rhonda Bryane for her book - The Power, it does magic to my life. Thank You

Restriction

It's really sad that things you want to do but you can't. If i have not gone thru this hardship, i would want to force my way of getting what i want, which is very 庚 character, ever since my month pillar (2009) and hour pillar (2010) had fan yin, my character changed dramatically. I learnt to be  庚 only when i need to.

I know feeling is very important for me to have positive frequency, i allow myself to feel sad for a few hours, maybe 3? I really wish to go for the date selection module, but i can't. I can't be too selfish because mum is not free and hubby cannot handle 2 kids, plus we have a wedding to attend to :( I learnt not to give any feelings to things i do not like, and i start teaching andrea that too, i just hope all of us at home would feel peaceful all the time so that we could tap into the positive frequency because we really need good health and serenity

I learnt to let go of things i really like but i could not have it such as my job and now the date selection class. I'm not being fired by my company and i'm not being forced by my mum or hubby that i cannot attend this class, I know my priority and i give love for those people to live without worry and restriction, I love them with my bottom of my heart.

Andrea's Shortcoming

Give me wisdom, tell me what can i do with her shortcoming:

1. Hot Temper - too much fire hence always has fever, she is actually having fever right now. She screams alot and love to own all of her things, never let ben or even her classmates touch it. 

2. Lazy person, lacks drive and needs strong motivation - no yang metal in her chart. She is born to be lazy, MY GOD! No wonder she loves to watch TV all the time. How to cure this?

3. Lack of wisdom - no yin water. 

Give lots of love? I just scream at her because she doesn't want to sleep and keep talking to herself on the bed. I don't know how to control myself, i was very tired and feeling dizzy, after screaming i cannot sleep anymore. 

Love is the positive force of life

Many times i have heard of the word LOVE from shichida, glen doman, tweedle wink and some adult love books, to me love is that you give everything you can to the person you love. Easy peasy lemon squeesy, however i find it tough to maintain my LOVE when something not right hit me like year 2009 and 2010. How to show love when i kept being shot by the universe? UNTIL i found a book -> The Power by Rhonda Byrne. Well i would not say is an excellent book but it did lifted my spirit and tell me what i should do, the only part i did not like is that she ask me to make believe things, like if you do not have a job, daily pretend that you have a job - dress up, write email, talk to colleagues etc. I think i have not gone to that degree yet :s

What i learn about this look is:-

1. Love is giving, what you give you will get a return, it may not from the same person but the universe will return it to you. [this is the Chinese saying i learnt last time, karma. It appear in an english book. amazing]

2. Love is the greatest power in the universe to use to change yourself, subsequently the environment around you. You need to imagine and feel the love for the change, be it money, relationship or health. 

3. All you need to do is to tune your frequency to receive all these - LOVE. If you don't know how, show gratitude to everything surrounding you. say thank you to the song you like on radio, for a parking lot, everything. 

4. I need to have good feelings, all good feelings come from LOVE. Like the other blogger comment - i shall not write negative things. In this book, if we met with negative things, just turn away, no need to comment - just pretend you did not see it or hear it. Don't give them any feelings.

5. People who have great lives think and talk about what they love more than what they don't love

6. don't struggle to change the circumstances of your life. give love through your good feelings and what you want will appear. Like a glass of water which is not full, we add water = LOVE. [like SGI example of chanting daimoku = water to remove impurities/ dust in the glass] 

7. Every person is surrounded by a magnetic field. You attract everything through the magnetism of your field. Your feelings determine whether your field is positive or negative at any time.

8. To lighten up about bad feelings, imagine bad feelings as wild horses you climb on. If you climbed on them you can climb off them as fast as you jumped on to it.

9. When you see the things you want, you are on the same frequency as those things, hence be as excited as someone has something that you want. If you feel love for it, you are bringing the same thing to you. 

10. Imagine it. Feel it. Receive it.

after reading this, all in sync now - shichida, SGI, universe energy (qi gong & reiki) and Bazi. 

ben 10 months milestone

1. Open his mouth wide (really wide, stretched) and say "ahhh". All of us find it funny and dunno where he learn that from.
2. Good at signing now, when we ask him to do it, he will show us - bye bye and sleep. However don't want to sign milk. He will put his face on your face when you say "sayang"
3. likes to imitate his sister. When sister shout at him, he will shout back. when sister take blanket cover herself, he will follow. when sister pretend to fall, he will follow. when sister crawl away, he will follow too.
4. Just yesterday i saw him take 2 steps (walking!) while both hand holding a card. AMAZING!
5. Finish all the milk that i gave, occasionally left 1oz. I'm feeding 4-5oz per feed
6. Like a glue sticking to me, scream if cannot see me
7. Can throw a ping pong ball (he will laugh extremely loud)
8. Likes to look at you and give you a smile, like a romeo, hahaha. Always give me this look, don't know why
9. start opening ALL drawers, from room to kitchen to living room (we use masking tape to stick all the drawers, it's very ugly but luckily no one visit me)
10. Went to the doctor 2 days ago - weight = 7.4kg, height = 70cm, head = 44cm (all below average, aiyooo, nvmla, handsome can liao)

10 months 1 week 4 days old

Jing Tea

Someone read my old post and commented that i should not write an angry post, what will ben think if he sees it next time. To me, everyone has ups and downs, i just want to write whatever i'm feeling, if im too low i will not blog, if i'm sounded angry means i still care. Hence, i will keep my blog private somemore, until all my sad/angry/emotional blog is way way behind then only open again. sigh ....

Love Jing Tea! We went Westin for breakfast many many times, but last weekend was different. WHY? Because my kids woke up at 6am and we disturb hubby and he is awake at 6.30 too... so hubby suggested that we should go westin for breakie, hence we left home at 7.30am. Surprisingly there is no crowd, usually it's packed with people, i don't know where have those people gone, i told myself we were early maybe, we left at 9am, but still not many people.

We enjoyed the stay very much, maybe it's less crowded and ben start eating what we are eating like bread and yogurt. Me and hubby let ben munch whatever we are eating. After i've finished, i bring ben walk around while hubby helping andrea to finish up her food, i came to notice a tray of tea leaves call Jing Tea, hence i took 2 packet home (SHhhh ....). I can't drink it there anyway, cos their normal tea is very very nice too, i had 5 cups i think... burp!

Today, i take one of the packet and try at home, ben is away at my parents place, so i can relax abit ... after 3 full months, this is bliss! This JIng Tea add to my relaxation at home... after 5 cups, the tea still have taste! Too bad cannot share with hubby, cos he cannot drink tea now due to foot pain. I will just enjoy myself ... yummy ... Will take somemore next time :p